Shinningstarz

2012-01-07T18:38:00.002+08:00

五月天 - 诺亚方舟

再见草莓甜甜圈街角咖啡店落下雨点
再见黑白老照片回忆电影院埋进地面
再见我们初识的那个公园
那天是谁先吻了谁被谁遗忘的秋千
再见那么多名车名表名鞋
最后我们只能带走名为回忆的花园
如果要告别如果今夜就要和一切告别
如果你只能打一通电话你会拨给谁

晚安鹦鹉和孔雀花豹和人类望着海面
晚安底片和唱片沉浮在浪间就像诗篇
晚安自由女神漂到华尔街
我们在甲板上摸到杜拜塔顶的塔尖
晚安海豚跃出西藏的屋檐
原来幻想中的这天会比幻想更唯美

还是要告别还是放弃海拔以下的世界
你会装进什么回忆纪念在行李里面
终于要告别终于没有更多的明天要追
你有什么遗憾依然残缺还没有完美

当彗星燃烧天边陨石像雨点
当辐射比阳光还要炽烈
当爱变得浓烈当每段命运更加壮烈
当永远变成一种遥远当句点变成一种观点
让人类终于变成同类
勇敢的告别勇敢地向过去和未来告别
告别每段血缘身分地位聪明或愚昧
最后的告别
最后一个心愿是学会高飞
飞在不存在的高山草原星空和蓝天

让诺亚方舟航向了海平线
让诺亚方舟航向了换日线
让诺亚方舟航向了天际线
让诺亚方舟航向了无限

Although soda green's songs are meaningful too, i m sorry to say their lyrics are really not better than mayday's. ah xin writes beautiful and meaningful lyrics. :) Try to understand this song's lyrics! :D

2011-12-28T14:17:00.002+08:00

Just would like to post something for those who still come by regularly. While i am still pulling my hair over my lun wen. Somehow i m even busier this wk. Think yls is gonna kill me if she is not satisfied with what i m giving her because i took so much time. ><

Anw, a nice song from ming bridges. (Anyone want to tell me who she is? I have a feeling she is a little infamous.) Heard this song from my sis. She is more hip than me in this kind of thing. =.=

HAHA! Korean song! So strange huh? I actually posted a korean song! Hahahaha! Although i am not a fan of kpop but it doesnt mean i dun appreciate good music. :)

I love the melody of this song. My sis set it as her sms ringtone, so i will always hear the 1st part of the song which is (Y). :D But this is not the original song i think, only the ballad version. :D

Enjoy! :D We still have 2 and a half weeks of holidays! :D :D

2011-11-24T18:12:00.005+08:00

50 条初老症状

01、枕头旁边，计算机键盘旁边，出现一堆万金油、白花油、绿油精等提神药方
02、只要坐下来，小腹就有一滩肉
03、莫名其妙就会一大早醒过来
04、躺在沙发看八点档连续剧30分钟就会开始熟睡
05、对于没有结论的冗长会议充满厌恶
06、觉得自己快要被一堆密码淹没了！
07、对于年轻朋友不让座这件事情会非常介意
08、对于磁场不对的人，可以毫无牵挂的跟他说再见、再见、再见……
09、KTV热门点播排行榜的歌曲完全不会唱
10、以前可以唱KTV到天亮，现在只要熬夜一天，就会累一个礼拜
11、急于想加入facebook之类的网络活动，以免被年轻遗弃
12、如果不喃喃自语，脑子就会打结。
13、越近的事情越容易忘记，越久以前的事情反而越是记得
14、觉得五分埔与路边摊的T恤都是给纸片人穿的
15、以前烦恼青春痘，现在烦恼小细纹
16、除非参加清早晨运的甩手功或庙会朝山活动，否则很难找到比自己年龄大的聚会
17、对于陌生网友的“我们可以交朋友吗？”说法，觉得无比愚蠢而没有耐心
18、认识新朋友的速度与机率逐渐钝化
19、越来越觉得专家说法都是唬烂
20、如果一天没有吃绿色蔬菜就会觉得身体怪怪的
21、逐渐没有耐心替烂朋友收烂摊了
22、越来越不喜欢改变“已经习惯的习惯”
23、很讨厌在外面过夜，因为要带好多东西
24、不知不觉，随身携带温水壶和牙线棒
25、懒的交新朋友的原因，是因为懒的从头交代自己的人生
26、终于认清“老天爷真的很忙”！
27、每次看到某某歌手某某影星过世的消息，就要感叹一次，我们的时代过去了
28、总是把“重要的东西”放在“重要的地方”，然后把那个“重要的地方”彻底忘记
29、说你看过《东京爱情故事》，知道完治与莉香，周遭一片哗然
30、朋友们离婚的（数量/年度）开始超越结婚的（数量/年度）
31、对于星座、运势、紫微斗数、塔罗牌、两性专家与励志书，已经不感兴趣
32、参加告别式的机率比婚礼多，包白包的机会比包红包的机会多
33、再也不觉得年轻辣妹或帅哥是一种天上掉下来的幸福
34、以前糟蹋身体，现在被身体糟蹋
35、开始注意医药新闻，譬如银杏是不是可以预防老年痴呆
36、对于手机铃声开始感觉不耐烦
37、开始关心商品成分、制造商以及赏味期限。
38、最近有件事要告诉你，可是一看见你就全忘了
39、对路边的问卷部队非常有意见
40、对诈骗集团开始产生周旋的战斗力
41、逐渐喜欢到传统市场买菜
42、最讨厌听到“如果你不怎样，就不能怎样”这种威胁
43、在床上睡不着，起床看电视却立刻在沙发上打呼了起来。
44、不想起那个忘掉的名字绝不善罢干休
45、对于RAP一点好感都没有
46、一堆人喊你XX姊、XX哥，而你很想叫他们──闭嘴！
47、讨厌过生日这件事
48、在“不好意思”和“多争取就会赚到”两者间，渐渐倒向了后者
49、对超商的集点活动完全没兴趣
50、对完美起疑，对不完美深信不疑！

大家来看看自己是否已经老了吧！
我实在是太幸运了，看到了有人post, 我就不用一条一条自己去打出来！:)

熟女守则　１３　条
１．终于学会朝邪恶漂亮挥拳，一如我们漂亮地踩着高跟鞋。
２．不要被礼物收买，只相信自己的眼光。
３．拥有一个会为你伤心而伤心的朋友！
４．微笑让你战胜敌人与自己。
５．不要是别人的书签，而是一本值得一读再读的书！
６．让你发光的不是钻石，而是你曾经哭过的眼睛。
７．带着你的根本，不管哪里，都可以再次开花。
８．多喝水，净化生命，净化爱情，净化蒙蔽的真相！
９．勇敢地告诉自己。。。这不是我的！
１０．再也没有人，可以规定我们头发的长度。
11. 永远都有新一代美少女战士，站在你仰望的角度。
12. 至少要有两本存折，一本储蓄财富，一本储蓄老朋友。
13. 拥有热爱的工作，拥有心爱的家，拥有他。

After looking through these sentences, i realised it is not very understandable. so i have decided to look for some 名言 in the show. And for those who dont understand why i am doing this, 本小姐我最近迷上了一部戏叫我可能不会爱你。:)

名句
1。我不需要祝福，因为我本人就是上帝带给这个世界的礼物。
2。我最近突然有一个感觉，有一个东西老是在跟我们作对，有时候我们很想追着它，希望得到它，好像得到它之后，我们就会拥有很多很多东西，有的时候我们又会突然被它追得喘不过气来，很希望它突然消失，最好永远都不要来找我们，它，就是时间。
3。原來，我並不是一個等待提領的箱子，而是一個可以裝載很多故事的包包。
4。為什麼我們一生追求的東西，其實在擁有的時候就已經開始失去了呢？
5。如果我看過妳看過的世界、走過妳走過的路, 是不是就能更靠近妳一點?
6。人生充满了战争，为了一个男人，也有可能为了一双鞋......或许只是，为了我们的不甘心。问题是，争得花容失色狼狈不堪的我们，真的胜利了吗？
7。人活在世界上不能老记挂着昨天，盼望着明天嘛对不对？今天，现在，此时，才是最真实的。
8。不要害怕自己的不一样，不要把约定俗当诚信条，要勇敢的活出自己的精神。
9。不能活在没有你的城市，可是我必须活在一个没有你的城市。
10。镜子根本就照不到你最漂亮的地方，因为那些地方，只有我知道。
11. 我在离世界最近的地方工作，可是却是离世界最远的人。
12。订婚并不是结局，结婚也只是个开始。
13。不要因为我而改变你要去的方向。

I tried googling for these 名句s but sad to say that there arent a lot and a lot of them were from the first few ep. But i think this is really a very great show if you know how to 细细去品尝。I actually went through the first 10 ep in record speed so i didnt really have enough time to think about the meanings of those words. one day, maybe one day, i will go back and rewatch this whole show. and then i will come up with my list of the most meaningful sentences in this show. :)

I esp. like the last 3 sentences because it really shows li da ren's 痴情。Esp esp the last one. 不要因为我而改变你要去的方向。I have never been so touched by a sentence in a show before. The truth is how many people can love a person to such an extent. Sometimes, the more a person love another, the more he/she wants to control her/him. :(

Oh yes, and this show also made me found a new great artist! Haha! Chen bo lin is uber cute. Ariel lin is good too :) Anw, he made me think of my long -time-nvr-use qq account which also consists of my wei bo account. Haha i m so hip in terms of china websites really. -.- But anw, i went on this frenzy of following artists hahahahaha! But until now, i still cannot rmb my qq account no. :O

hmm...shall end this post. Look forward to my next post, probably complaining about lun wen and my jiu zhai gou trip! :D

我输了，但是输给最亲爱的你，值得！：）纸短情长，我还没说的，你明白的。

2011-11-19T19:21:00.000+08:00

星空》— 五月天 (電影《星空》主题曲)

摸不到的顏色是否叫彩虹?
看不到的擁抱是否叫做微風?
一個人想著一個人是否就叫寂寞?

命運偷走如果只留下結果
時間偷走初衷只留下了苦衷
你來過然後你走後只留下星空

那一年我們望著星空有那麼多的燦爛的夢
以為快樂會永久像不變星空陪著我

獵戶天狼織女光年外沉默
回憶青春夢想何時偷偷隕落？
我愛過然後我沈默人海裡漂流

那一年我們望著星空未來的未來從沒想過
當故事失去美夢美夢失去線索而我們失去聯絡
這一片無言無語星空為什麼靜靜看我淚流
如果你在的時候會不會伸手擁抱我？

細數繁星閃爍細數此生奔波
原來所有所得所獲不如一夜的星空
空氣中的溫柔回憶你的笑容
彷彿只要伸手就能觸摸

摸不到的顏色是否叫彩虹
看不到的擁抱是否叫做微風
一個人習慣一個人...

這一刻獨自望著星空從前的從前從沒變過
寂寞可以是忍受也可以是享受享受僅有的擁有

那一年我們望著星空有那麼多的燦爛的夢
至少回憶會永久像不變星空陪著我
最後只剩下星空像不變回憶
陪著我

Mayday's songs never fail to amaze me with their lyrics. :)

2011-11-14T16:10:00.005+08:00

YOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR FAV BLOGGER IS BACK!!!! AHAHAHAHAHA!

自恋一下，请不要太介意！:D I m jus very happy!

Too many things to blog about, like eoys, after eoys, class outing, grad ceremony, o lvls, grad night, 11.11.11!

Shall start with grad night and 11.11.11 first! :D

hmm...i shall start with hilary's tweet "Going to enter marriott hotel makeup-less and dress-less like a boss! 8D Who's with me? HAHAHA."

And the thing is i think almost half of 408 did! We are like the class that doesn't care about our looks the most. I dun think anyone really put makeup, jus some eyeliner and mascara (dk how to spell). Woots! kinda love the kind of spirit, although yes we were quite out of place actually.

Then someone showed me a tweet by somebody from our lvl saying sth like not wearing dress is "trying to be different". =.= I wasnt really angry then until like recently the more i thought abt it, the angrier i got. WHO WERE THE ONES WHO SAID THAT WE DUN NID TO WEAR NICE NICE DRESS AND CAN JUS WEAR JEANS??? Chey...we are not trying to be different. WE ARE JUST DIFFERENT.

Although i have to admit that yes, i think our dressing is slightly too casual. But then again, there are teachers who dressed like us, or maybe even worst actually. There are quite a few, not just xiao tou. :)

BUT BUT then again, there are people who overdid it too. Like they are the bride in some wedding like that. =.= Some look too mature. Some look too....erhem..not suitable.

Ok...i feel bad as people's faces start flashing in my mind. I am always the one here to criticize. -.- But anw, while we stood outside the room (what room was it called again?) waiting to go in, i think all of us became some fashion critic and start to look at everyone's dressing. Some people made us stared in awe, some made us laugh while some we made =.= this face. hahahahaha!

I very scared that some ppl will see this post and start cursing me actually. Cuz i totally dun hv the right to say that but it is actually the most memorable thing for me. I must say our lvl has quite a lot of ppl who know how to dress up.

Ok. Er...other than tat basically i have nth to say abt grad night? It wasnt really very enjoyable actually. But the DJ looks a lot like Dai yang tian omg! And and the food is pretty nice....but then they really dun have to keep changing our plates although i know it is part of the service. I really feel quite sad every time my plate is taken away. I was thinking of the amount of water gonna be wasted to wash these plates that are actually quite clean. And plus most of the time, i havent finish my FOOD!!!! 气死我了！！！ Especially my fish and pudding! >< *sob*

In the end, by the time i got back home, my stomach was rumbling again. =.='''

Haha. The most satisfying thing out of that night i think was i managed to drag xiao tou into the photo. Ahahahaha! Dun diao me.

Next is 11.11.11. Although i was quite late, we still managed to spend 11.11.11 11.11am tgt! We tried shouting on the street but failed cuz nobody cares. Not that i actually want them to. :)

Then watched 那些年，我们一起追的女孩！Have been wanting to catch it for a long time, like ever since the song came out for the first time! :D :D

The show is quite funny actually. And quite sick. Hmm...there is a reason why it is NC16. :O

But towards the end, it is really very sad. :( I really suspect whether the girl liked him or not at the end of the show.) Although i know, yes she did, she really dont love him as much as the guy loves her. Oh well...sometimes it is just a matter of courage. T.T

Hmm...at that last part when ke teng really went to kiss the shen jia yi's husband, i was laughing but wanting to cry at the same time. The more exaggerating it was, the more i wanted to cry. Cuz that scene really showed how much he yearns for her, the more exaggerated it is, the more love the guy has for her. So it became more saddening when they didn't get tgt. :( It is such a passionate scene! :( :( it also made his giving up even more gracious when he laugh it off and act as though happens. That's why I got a bit angry when the gal thought he was only fooling around again. T^T but it made the guy seems more shuai. :)

(I m sry this post is not very cohesive anymore, esp. when i m playing sushido after every few sentences. )

I have decided instead of going on incohesively (erm...idk if this word exist.), i shall end off my saying something touching! Muahahaha!

那些年错过的大雨那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱你拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是你

我希望到了以后４０８也一样，在未来的十年，二十年，甚至是三十年，当我们回首往事，回想我们青春的时候，我们所记得的点点滴滴，都会是今日我们所一起共度的时光。不管我们未来会是怎样，我想我们都会记得我们一起度过的那些年。

那些年错过的大雨那些年错过的爱情
好想告诉你告诉你我没有忘记
那天晚上满天星星平行时空下的约定
再一次相遇我会紧紧抱著你
紧紧抱著你

And i shall end with chun zi's status. 他们是《那些年，我们一起追的女孩》。我们是《那些年，我们一班全是女孩》。

2011-10-04T19:03:00.002+08:00

Haha...a small and simple update!

Nth much recently except for mug mug mug and MUG! But then with my crawling speed, things arent looking good. I shall keep my fingers crossed. But thanks to all those who have helped me along the way! :D Esp. jermia and my tutor hilary! :D And my deskie baobao and sam!

Recent interesting things

My neighbour has a new baby! :D 4months plus now. Cute! :D And the interesting thing abt her is that she doesnt cry! She only shouts! When she is feeling unhappy, she will start screaming and shouting but i have never hear her cry before. So funny right? Haha! And she is not afraid of strangers, when we go play with her, she will smile, just keep smiling! Haha. Think she is gonna be a very hyper and cheerful girl when she grows up. :)

Things to do after EOY:
1. Watch City hunter
2. Change my blogskin (getting sick of it)
3. Change all my dp
4. Read my books!
5. Write my shanghai and beijing posts!
6. Watch secret garden maybe?

Well, u guys can help me add on to my list! :D

I shall go and watch ai now! :D Jiayou and goodluck to everyone for your EOYs! :D

2011-09-08T20:28:00.002+08:00

Here is a nice song for all to relieve some stress especially if you are already mugging till all your hair is dropping off! :P

This is a zhu ti qu of the movie! I really want to watch it but i heard it is a sad ending. :( Oh well, life is never as friendly to us as we wanted it to be anyway.

btw, here's a little parody.
Tick tock on the clock,
everybody's going mad,
tonite imma mug till i see the sun rise.

tick tock on the clock,
but the mugging dun stop no
oh oh oh oh oh oh oh oh!

lalalalalala...i m going crazy..oh no! ><

2011-09-03T00:02:00.002+08:00

我见我闻我思

每个人的人生就像一首交响曲，有快有慢，高潮迭起。每首曲子都有自己不同的旋律，也有着懂得欣赏的观众。在银幕的背后，我试着去了解剧中人物的心情与故事，体会着人生的无奈与优美。到最后，我终于明白了，唯有爱能造就一切。

某天的英语课上，老师给我们观赏了一部西方音乐剧《吉屋出租》。故事围绕着一群朋友如何在面对贫穷，疾病以及各种难题的同时，生活在二十世纪末的美国。他们大多从事艺术行业，对未来都有着梦想与憧憬，可当中有好几位都感染了艾滋病，而有几位还是同性恋者。这部音乐剧的题材虽然不一定适合未成年的我们观看，但是我相信这部剧要表达的主题绝对值得我们这些年轻人去思考。

音乐剧的开场是所有的主要人物站在一排聚光灯下唱着主题曲。“五十二万五千六百分钟，我们要如何计算我们的一年？用爱如何？用朋友如何？”起初听到这首歌时，我不明白它其中的意义。生命究竟要如何以爱与朋友来衡量呢？

另一个令我印象深刻的场景是当患有艾滋病的朋友们围在一圈，一起唱着同一首歌。“我们会不会失去尊严？会不会有人在乎我？如果明天一觉醒来，我是不是会从噩梦中解脱？”。听到这首歌时，我感到一股莫名的震撼。这句话像是把我带入了这些患者的内心世界，使我从他们的角度来思考。其实他们比任何人都脆弱，害怕，无助，彷徨。他们离死亡是如此地靠近，每分每秒的流逝对他们而言都是那么地无奈。而他们却只能等待，等待未知与终结的到来。

故事结束后，我反复地思索。这个故事和我以往看的都很不一样。这个故事的主要人物都是失意人。他们有过奋斗的时候，挣扎的时候，沦陷的时候。到最后他们都愿意敞开心扉，让原本不认识的人走进他们的心里，用爱灌溉原以为枯死的心灵，用爱互相支撑着对方。在这灿烂的霓虹灯下，现实的虚假以及人性的堕落让我们忘却了真的存在。只有用真心才能唤回那一颗颗迷离的心，只有真情才能找回久违的微笑，也只有用真爱才能拭去眼角的泪珠。我一直都认为，只要用真心与诚意对待别人，总有一天你就能感动别人，而他们也会以同样的方式对你。只有付出才会有收获。如果一开始就不愿付出真心，那么这一辈子都不可能会得到真爱，不是吗？因此，我被剧中的人物深深地感动。即使他们已经对生命感到疲惫，他们依然学会了用爱去追寻生命中新的意义。他们教会了我爱的力量，只要相信爱，爱就能灌溉我们的生命，点燃人生的希望。

从故事人物的身上，我也看到了没有把握好的青春。有些东西直到失去了才会明白它的可贵。我们不谈他们为何染上艾滋病，但是我能从这些事件中学习。他们原本可以做更多更多的事，完成他们伟大的梦想，为美好的未来奋斗。然而，他们却选择堕落，而直到他们被解救出来后，他们才发现自己其实错过了很多。他们可以做的就是要把握好现在，不管未来还有多长，不管自己在什么时候将会离开这个世界，他们决定了要把每一秒钟当作是自己的最后一秒，用尽全力地活，尽一切努力完成自己最后的心愿。

我觉得这不单单只限于绝症病患，也包括我们所有的人。我们无法预测自己的未来，也不知道自己的生命还有多长。我们不能以为我们还有很多的时间，而虚度时光，忘了珍惜身边的一切。没了，你才会懂什么叫做没了。有时候，错过了就会后悔一辈子。我们的人生没有预告，任何时候都有可能被突如其来的改变而感到措手不及。所以只有活在当下，负责任地作出决定，才对得起自己和爱自己的人。

和剧中人物走过一年后，心里可说是百感交集。“五十二万五千六百分钟，我们要如何衡量一年？用爱如何？用朋友如何？”我终于明白了，衡量一年的意思指的是衡量它的意义，而有真爱与好朋的时光才是美丽，有意义的。

当我们的人生来到终结时，在剧终人散的时候，会有多少人还记得我们的存在呢？当这首交响曲结束时，又是否会有人为我们鼓掌，为我们欢呼呢？

my zuo wen on RENT :)

2011-09-02T17:14:00.002+08:00

New post on teachers' day! :D

We (aka jermia, weihui, baobao, gennie, shumin and xiuyi n me!) went to shumin's hse on mon to do the teachers' day present. This year we decided to do sth meaningful since it is our last yr alr. We did a board for each of our 7 subj teachers and we pin our msg on it. The gifts are shared by the 2 dorms! :D

Shumin treated us to pizza and cream puff! :D :D haha...yumyum! Thank u to shumin and her parents once again. :)

Ok. continue. So we spent at least 5 hrs on the msgs for all the 7 teachers. I was seriously hving a mindblock, so all my msgs were really about the same. To compensate, i m gonna write better msgs for each teacher again before i graduate. :)

~skip to teachers' day concert~

Morning was the ACES thing but it kinda failed. :( The only reason why i danced for the chorus is because to relive some memories of the beijing trip. n there werent teachers around.

Oh yes, during morning assembly sth funny happened. I was asking weihui where is mr kaw cuz he wasnt at his class. Then someone asked weihui who we talking abt. Jus when weihui answered mr kaw, he suddenly appeared right in front of her!!! And i burst out laughing! See...we need to be careful when we talked about teachers...

Teachers' day concert was awesome or lousy in some ways.

First the lousy part. I think the whole organising team put in a lot of effort to plan this teachers' day celebration. There is no doubt about it. Alot of new ideas, very creative. A lot of stuffs are new like the teachers day song lyrics changing competition, theme song, all the balloons and deco (apparently shumin told me that they stayed till 8pm the previous night to do it), FBIs...etc. There is really nth wrong with the ideas but they nid to put in more thought when they execute the plans. In the end the theme songs idea didnt really work out, cuz nobody really sang along cuz no one bothered. not to mention the amount of papers they used to print the lyrics for EVERYONE! But this thing turned out to be more of everyone enjoyed this part cuz of the amusing videos and changed lyrics. The balloon idea was kinda weird also. Cuz they put all the balloons across the hall wrapped in gabbage bags, not only did it create a shadow on the screen, which makes it hard for ppl to see, also, it blocked the view of poor audiences at the 3rd floor gallery. What is more disappointing is, i guess a lot of ppl were looking forward to balloons flying down...but in the end, er....it is jus the whole thing dropped down and ppl have to tear the gabbage bags to get the balloons. So really, what is the point? Btw, rubber is non-biodegradable!

And the teachers' day award. :( I really dun understand why they are the mcs....there is actually no point. Cuz they are even more boring than the student mcs. Wads more the teachers they got are teachers that general population of the school didnt know? >< The only reason why i knew mr robertson is because of his frequent visits to the toilet beside our class. -.-''' I miss Mr lim and Ms Yeo peili mc-ing together last year. They were super hilarious and they made fun of the teachers after they got their awards.

But this year's award nominees and the teachers who got the award shocked me quite a bit actually. Does this show the changing trend of the population of the school? Or is it that they manipulated the results a little so that not the same teachers get the same awards every year?

And the montage...i m...disappointed. :( For more info, u can go look at chunzi's status about it. Even limin said it is horrible. U cant even see some of the words and tada it is gone. >< For our class' msg, we didnt even have enuf time to cheer.... I remember when i watched last year's montage i felt really touched and ji dong and wanted to watch it again. This year's was jus...one time is enough. And the interviews...ok..it is a new and creative idea. BUT i really cant hear most of what they said. So what is the point? And some of the questions are jus meaningless seriously.

And the cake giving plus gift giving thing for all the teachers. It was jus hectic lor...even chen lili lao shi dropped her cake on the floor. And some poor teachers came on stage first but nobody came to offer the gifts...super awkward. And some didnt even get the gift! Then it is like we are jus watching the teachers eat their cakes and blowing bubbles??? I would rather this part is cancelled and the montage is lengthened!

I think this is enough of ranting. I wouldnt say this concert is super bad but there are jus too many things that are unnecessary although i know it is a new and creative idea and a lot of effort has been put in. And if compared to the previous 3 years', yes, this is the worst.

But there are of course good parts! I like the idea of letting the teachers enter like some hollywood stars walking on red carpet. Although they only got a grey carpet. But it was cool. And it allowed the students to cheer for the teachers and show that nanyang girls love our teachers! :D But so sad, i missed the majority of this part cuz we were looking for ms chee. :(

Oh super funny. Mr khoo was super duper amused by us. While waiting for his turn to walk into the hall, he folded his arms, leaned on the railings of the stairs/ wall, and admired some siao gillas running around looking for teacher. >< not to mention that he was smiling super brightly... N only when i saw how brightly he was smiling then i realised how funny we mus have looked running around in the mids of the teachers and wearing bright green shirts. >< But in any case, when i saw him smiling, i totally 陪他一起笑。。。his smile is contagious. :)

Then the next highlight would be the teachers day awards. CUZ 2 of our class' teachers got the award! Mrs lai got the most caring teacher award and Mr khoo got the most inspiring teacher award. Oh! Talking about the most inspiring teacher award, jermia wrote on the whiteboard a few weeks ago to vote for mr khoo for most inspiring. And when he saw it, he said sth like "U all want to vote me for inspiring ah? I was jus about to scold u (for block test). Nevermind, i will scold u when i give back the papers". Hahahahaha. Actually the more he scolds, the more it proves that he is inspiring and he is really dedicated in teaching. Mr tan bh totally dun care about how horrible i scored lor!

Then when the nominated teachers for inspiring was shown on the screen, we cheered for mr khoo. Then mr khoo looked up and gave his super bright smile again. :) haha.

Our class cheered SUPER MADLY when mrs lai and mr khoo got their awards. We totally proved to the whole school how much 408 loves our teachers. The first time we shouted for mrs lai didnt attract that much attention but the 2nd time we shouted for mr khoo, a lot of ppl totally turned back and looked at us, wondering who so crazy? Haha. 所以我说嘛，不是我自夸，但是做408 的老师是幸福的！！！

Then in between some performance, the mcs came down to interview some teachers who got or didnt manage to get the awards. We were shouting for the mcs to go interview mr khoo. Then mr khoo heard us and ran away before the mc caught him. T.T But the way he ran away was super funny. He looked like some thief!!! super LOL!

Seriously, after teachers day, there is no reason for 408's teachers to not love 408.

Of course the highlight is our class performance lah! Although nysc's performance was really fun and hilarious too!

For the songs part, i tried observing all the teachers' expressions when their pictures are shown on the screen. Ms chee was super cute. She looked at it and turned away and then suddenly turned to look at it, this time more careful, then asked the person beside her "is that me?"!!! Ahahahaha! I was super amused that i probably forgot to sing!

During mr tan bh's photo, i saw a bit of movement around his seat (meaning the teachers were laughing i guess), but i couldnt see mr tan. :(

And mr tay looked super embarrassed when his picture were shown. He mus be thinking why in the world we picked this picture when there are better ones???

Ms sabrina's amused the audience. Wang lao shi's too.

And i noticed there were ppl who sang along with us, including some of the teachers i think. :D :D

The last part "teachers 全是为了你' was jus unexpected and epicly funny. >< although we totally did a cool pose. LOL!

412's performance was not bad too cuz of the video. A lot of funny pics and hilarious moments. The pictures fit the lyrics so perfectly. Mus have put in a lot of hard work. :)

All in all, teachers' day wasnt as good to watch (although actually i didnt catch the majority of the performance anw), but it was good because it is one that 408 participated and made a difference in. One that i felt a sense of satisfaction in. :)

408 rocked the stage!!!! :D :D

2011-08-30T19:00:00.004+08:00

Jermia asked me to post. so i m here to post.

But i hv nth much to say. although there are actually quite a bit of key events in my life that i didnt post. but i hv been very forgetful. so i cant rmb liao.

I m quite positive that we have this ability of making this statement true: "说人人到，说鬼鬼到", no matter in real life or online..><

I was jus discussing with my friend abt wad to buy for this teacher, and he came online! and after a while my friend went offline. suddenly she came online again and we continued talking. And he came online again! ><

I wonder if it is my com...

ok..random much! it is jus so hard to force sth out of me when i hv nth to write.

ohoh..let me talk abt this incident.

That day (i cant rmb which day), i was waiting for bus at the bus stop. n then came this mother and daughter (i assume they are mother and child.) walking out of hci.

They sort of attracted my attention because how often do u see such a small child (abt 3 or 4 years old?) walking out of hci? not at all often. at least i hvnt seen more than 5 in my years of waiting outside hci for at least 15 mins everyday on average for bus! ><

As i was saying, as this mother and child approached the overhead bridge i was rather astonished to see the child crying and running after her mummy. Her mummy looks really crossed. As they drew nearer, i could see them clearer and clearer. And my heart started aching more and more. Why? Because as they came nearer, i saw how distorted her face was from crying. She was crying and begging at the same time, hoping that her mum will stop ignoring her. Her face was drenched in sweat or tears i don't know but she looked so pitiful that i felt really really very sry for her. Actually i was more of angry. I hv never seen any child cried till she looked so devastated. Her cries were so loud that it attracted the attention of so many people around. But her mum ignored her. her mum didnt care whether she was running behind her. her mum didnt care that her face was distorted from crying. her mum didnt care whether she is all wet. her mum didnt care whether she was begging her. her mum didnt care about everyone's stares.

But u know wad? her child didnt care either. her child didnt care about people's stares. her child didnt care whether she was tired or not. her child didnt care whether she was breathless from crying and running. her child didnt care. because all she thought about at that moment was that she needed to make her mum to forgive her. she cannot allow her mum to abandon her. she cannot lose her mum. she needed her mum. because her mum is the world to her at that moment.

Which made me felt really really sad and angry. i couldnt take my eyes off her. even if they were out of my sight, i could still hear the cries echoing behind me. never have i felt so affected by a child's cries before either.

What made me feel so angry was HOW COULD A MOTHER ABANDON AND IGNORE HER CHILD JUS LIKE THAT???? (on this assumption that they are mother and child) It is so so heartless! So what if you are angry and so what she did something wrong? Cant u tell u really scared her? Dont u feel sad listening to her cries and screams? Cant u sense the ache everyone around was feeling for her?

I know it may be a method for the mother to teach the child. Maybe the child did sth wrong, and her mum wants to tell her that such things are wrong and should never be repeated, therefore she threatened the child to ignore her. THIS METHOD IS VERY VERY VERY VERY WRONG!!!! There is no reason for a mother to abandon and ignore a child, moreover she is still so young. It only gives this child a sense of insercurity. Yes, u may forgive her after a while but the fear will not be eradicated easily. The child will have this impression that there should be no mistakes or one day mummy will abandon her. And this only erodes the love between this pair of mother and child. I hate the mum seriously. AHHHH!!!!

I still feel very sad about it actually. :(

Nvm..on a lighter note, i love the new songs i put up. I realised i like emo songs recently but the lyrics of these songs isnt that fantastic. But i like the melody and emotions. :)

Ok, i shall end this post! Teachers' day is coming! :D

2011-08-17T20:30:00.003+08:00

I m officially going crazy.

Life has never been so hard to get by. These two weeks plus has been like hell to me. Idk exactly why.

But I hv lost my reason to believe.

Things aren't going as smoothly. I m not that lucky girl who can still live by dreaming and deceiving myself once in a while anymore. It is like a drug. And I m addicted to living in this world I imagined and designed. But it is a process of self destruction.

I need to curb this addiction. Or I will end up even more pitiful than I started.

Looks changed. Things changed. Life changed. And I need to change too.

From now.

P.S. Now u know why I said I m crazy. :(

2011-08-05T21:17:00.002+08:00

I feel a strong urge and need to post today! I even opened the blogger tap before i opened the facebook tab. Which is super super rare.

Firstly, i would like to say that I LOVE MRS LAI!!!!!! HAHAHAHHA! I know this is super random but then it is only until today that i discover that i truly love her although i dun used to. Of course not because the chem block test is quite manageable! Although i believe that is a catalyst. :) 我的爱才没有那么廉价与肤浅。I just think that she is really one rare teacher that will truly put in her heart and soul for her class. She is always very concerned and cares about us, although it is a bit random at times but at least she bothered. She answers our requests no matter how late or troublesome it can be.

This is my personal experience lah.
Just liked how when i called her to ask for cardboard boxes to contain our CIP stuff for all beijing trip, she really helped us look for it. Even though i told her 1 was enough, she still kept asking after that whether 1 is enough and she helped us look for more.

Just like how she helped us during our dunking event this funfair, helping the monitresses asked teachers to let us dunk, helping to send out emails. I rmbed that night it was alr almost 10pm at night and i smsed her. She took the effort to reply me and sent out the emails at 10plus. Not like someone who claims that his smses for social use is super limited! ><

And she also helped us photocopied our posters and took the effort to come down to look at our dunking machine the day it arrived. She even had to make sure the borders are all equal if not she is jus not satisfied. Maybe it is jus her ocd lah, but then at least she really makes an effort in everything that she does (a bit like mr khoo actually). She also helped us zhao dai mdm heng that morning, when some of us are quite lost of what to do. OR RATHER, mdm heng was rather lost about what she has to do. She also stayed throughout the event with us, until she really had to leave. She also made sure the machine was sent back and was concerned that it might hurt other people who came to play with it.

Furthermore, she really takes great responsibility with our class issues. Even for NYAA. Not like u-know-who. (haha...that's what everyone calls voldemort!) Although she is super law and rules abiding, but at least she is really concerned, cares and loves us. Not only to her students too. In fact to everyone around her. She is really a very nice person.

Haha. Why i suddenly thought of all these? Cuz I made a comparison between her and someone else. I shall call that person K, since K is a constant. (Math!)

Mrs lai is unlike K, who is jus a selfish person who only cares abt things under K's care and reponsiblity. I hv to say this, K is quite responsible cuz K takes great care (most of the time i guess?) of those under K's responsibilities. But how can someone be so selfish? Those not under K's charge jiu dun care? Cuz K only ever knows how to care for K's own feelings! K doesnt care! K happy jiu hao!

Pls dun try finding K the constant because i really dun wish to elaborate. (i jus nid a place to rant!) Cuz u might end up thinking that it may just be irrational feelings on my part, or maybe cuz of the way i chose to interprete K's words. But the words do make me quite upset no matter for what reasons. I did it for good intentions ok? It just changed my impressions and opinions. It doesnt hurt K anw. But it hurts me. 自找的。I jus feel that there can be a better way to do this esp. the words K used. I hv a feeling some smart ppl can guess it alr but dun ask me ok?

Which brings me to my next point. Went to watch harry potter today. And i love this quote from Professor albus dumbledore, which i think is very meaningful.

"Words are, in my not-so-humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic. Capable of both inflicting injury, and remedying it. "

So true...N i m sure many would agree with this esp. people who have had personal experience of the meaning of this quote. Even myself. I hv hurt many people with just words, perhaps many more than i thought because sometimes i dun even know i hv hurt someone. But most of the time i really do not mean it. In the sense that i really do not wish to hurt anyone. Words can be the most malicious and vicious weapon because they hurt people emotionally and mentally. Sometimes, because of one sentence, a lot of things can change. So i would like to take the opportunity to say sorry to all those i hv hurt, no matter u will be reading this or not. Because i truly feel guilty and sorry. I do love all the people around me, esp. my friends and my family.

This brings me to the next quote from 醉后决定爱上你 ep 12。晓如：“如果你这么担心他会受伤，那当初为什么要让他那么痛？”艾薇：“你以为只有受伤的人才会痛吗？那伤人的那一个呢？她连喊痛的资格都没有，甚至连关心的资格也没了。”

I love this quote too n the only one i can really rmb in this show. This is the sentence which made me really sympathise with her. Really insightful. How often do we only care about those that was hurt? How about those who hurt others? Not all of them can live in peace with themselves and say that it doesnt bother him or her a bit. Because anyone with a conscience will.

These are just some little points to think about. Which i hv thought about. I think when i m tired, my brain will start thinking/ reflecting on all kinds of stuffs. Then it can make me gain insightful perspectives and opinions. Sometimes making me emo too.

And there is sth else i would like to mention. The subject on true friends. We will talking about someone and her "true friends" while eating kfc this afternoon. They were saying that she hangs around with her true friends and those true friends smoke. Then someone said sth like why does she want to 做贱自己. What true friends lor? People who smoke. (I cant rmb the exact sentence but that is the meaning i caught.)

I dun agree with the person who said this. (Pls dun get angry, i m just voicing out my personal opinions.) I think the criteria of true friends doesnt include people who smoke or dont. What are true friends? Those that u think are not good friends might mean total different things to another person. Good friends are people who truly care n are concern about u, willing to help u when u r in need, console u when u r sad and share your joy when u r happy. Maybe to her, those friends of her really can do that and give her the emotional and perhaps even physical support when she needs them? We cannot say that those who smoke cannot be good friends. Perhaps u may say that they are bad influence to her, but we dont know what she really needs. Some of us do have fathers or grandfathers to smoke. But does that mean they cant be good fathers or grandfathers? I dont think so. Even if their characters arent desirable n perhaps unacceptable to u, it doesnt mean that it is definitely wrong. Everyone has their own stories and background. It doesnt mean that in nature, they are bad. I think as long as their not-so-undesirable traits are not beyond what you can accept and they truely care and love u, sometimes it doesnt really matter.

11.11 i wish that i cannot forget all unhappiness soon and get on with life happily.

All of the abv are just my personal opinions. U r free to voice out yours too but pls dun take it too seriously. It might be under the influence of my emo mood that i m writing in this way too. :(

I realised that i can take stress very well. I m really really very tired, pressurised, depressed and plus unhappy things to make me upset. Like mrs lai jus told me i didnt do very well for my paper. -.-''' And that is jus gonna ruin my weekend. But i somehow still look quite ok. At least i think i looked ok. There was this point in time after physics block test, when everyone was asking around for ans, that i almost broke down. But i controlled myself in 2 secs. And i survived.

Block test 2 is over! But EOY is about to start in 9 weeks! >< I need to do something about it. Really. I need to rmb the failures that i have suffered. I think this week is one of the most painful and depressing week i have in nanyang. Although it ended well with a happy ending of harry potter, although it wasnt really that fantastic.

I hope i can survive next week. Cuz the real pain has yet to start.

I shall end off by saying this: the real process does not only include the actions, but also the consequences. The journey hasnt ended till u finish facing the music.

原来苦笑真的很苦。

2011-07-22T23:59:00.003+08:00

我觉得最不切实际的祝福是祝“一切如愿以偿”。

I shall start with the mp attachment. Nth much actually. Just that we sat through a briefing of how the meet-the-people session thing works. N sat beside some volunteers n listen to woes/requests of the community.

The volunteer i sat next to was too kind seriously, he offered to let me take over. >< He explained that i can try to ask them so that we have enough information and blah...while i was shaking my head frantically. Samantha totally sabo-ed me lor! >< It is my first time at any mp attachment or meet the people session. And after listening to 1 and a half issues, he expect me to take over? -.-'''

Luckily, before he could ask me to do anything, we were called into ms josephine teo's office. LOL! She reminds me of someone, but idk who. >< Mr thong also reminds me of someone. ><

Actually that night was quite meaningless, cuz it is damn short actually. But i guess i gained some basic understanding. Maybe next time if my parents are ever going for the meet-the-people sessions again, i shall follow! But i doubt i hv that chance anytime soon. I really hope to learn more actually. But having to meet so many schedule is jus difficult. Haiz.

Next! NAPFA! Haha! I love this year's napfa seriously. I mean i love my performance at this year's napfa! So unexpectedly good. :D :D :D Esp. cuz i hvnt trained ever since before i went beijing, which is like...3 months ago? Haha! I shall not repeat my foolish story of failing to get the inclined pull-up A. That is jus...depressing. -.-

I made remarkable improvements for standing broad jump! Haha. 1 jump and i cleared A. :D Never before. But then i could totally feel the impact when i landed. The "pong!" O.O

2.4km was good too. :) I improved despite not training and being super hungry before the run. Although still cant improve to a B but then, i m quite contented. Luckily the weather is somewhat on our side too. It is rainy. Rain small enough to allow us to finish first. Better than super sunny. Then after our batch finished running, suddenly the rain got very heavy! Haha! so we were damn lucky. :D :D :D

N tada! I got my GOLD for napfa! So happy so happy! :D And unexpected actually!

I shall not attempt to elaborate on FOA. By the time i finish, i think i dun nid to sleep liao. -.- I shall post after block test.

Next wk is a horrible wk. So much so much things! physics spa, bio spa, physics quiz, 2 math quizzes, mp attachment, ih timed trial, la panel discussion. N luckily mrs lai postponed the chem quiz indefinitely, or else we hv another reason to die. Actually i dun mind all these on a normal week! The thing is, how can we start on block test revision when there are still so many things not done???

Seriously, i dun understand. We always have significantly more work jus before our block tests. I very seldom finish revising for any subjs for any tests. >< i nid to be more efficient! JIAYOU to myself!!!! and to whoever who suffer from the same fate as me. :)

I shall somehow find some way to survive through the torturous week next week.

Oh yes! We are going to universal studio this sun! Although i hv jus been there, slightly more than a month ago. But then, this time companion different, mood also different! :D

Actually i can predict that it is not the wisest thing to go on sun. But then, when heart rules over mind, this is the result. PLUS it is FREE somemore leh! How many people are envy of us? I dun wan to live with the regret that my purpose in life is jus to study when it is supposed to be the happiest, and most fun period in the teens! :D Therefore, once in a while, scoring not so well for block test doesnt really matter. :)

Ok, i shall end it here. I m glad this post is relatively short! Basically all the interesting things are alr said by jermia on her blog, so no point in me repeating everything again.

I shall end off by saying: Goodluck to ms chee! I m really looking forward to seeing her on mon. :) N hope that mr khoo will be well soon! :D

I shall attempt to drive jermia crazy by adding one/two sentence after each post:

有时候我也只能对自己冷笑，嘲笑自己的愚昧，嘲笑这一切已经命中注定。

2011-07-19T20:39:00.002+08:00

Shengting is finally here! But then, i somehow lost the enthusiasm while waiting for so many weeks. >< In any case, i still look forward to spending the rest of the week with her during breaks and play a good host to her! :D

Hmm..actually i think i hv quite a lot of things to say. But then i forgot. That is the prob when i jus keep postponing my posts.

1. Should be the teachers' cards
2. MP attachment
3. NAPFA
4. FOA fringe activities and concert

I shall hereby begin. :D

Topic no. 1. I had said that i would continue my YDF story. Nth much actually, except that our dearest monitresses decide to give cards to ALL THE TEACHERS who agreed to let us dunk. :) Really...i know we mus show appreciation lah, but then! I think our 2 monitresses are by far the 2 most 滥好人 i hv ever seen. >< I know this sounds like i m saying bad stuffs abt them, but...i really dunno....i guess 滥好人 is an oxymoron?

But anyway, 言归正传。I agreed to help them cuz 2 ppl a bit pathetic, and i think it shld be quite fun although i suck at making cards or any kind of art work actually. >< Yup...so in total, we had to make 12 cards for the teachers, 1 for mdm heng, 1 for mrs lai and 1 for Mr kaw. In total, we spent 2 afternoons on it. It seems very short...but then it is a lot of time!

They thought of this very creative idea which is to print and paste teachers' photos during their dunk and put in their cards! Haha...i love that idea! Cuz it is so nice to be able to see their expressions when they open their cards. If it is me, i think i would select the funniest for some teachers. But then gennie and jermia were nice, some were max unglam and funny, some were jus moderate. Some were bo bian cuz no other photos liao but some super glam. HAHA!

In any case, i had a lot of fun looking at the photos. No matter how many times i have looked at them, i jus wont get sick and tired of them. I jus kept on wanting to look at them again. Haha! Esp. when some of the cards are my fruit of labour. :D

Haha! i suck in art anyway. The more i want to decorate, the suckier it will get. I 超对不起ms chee 的. Cuz her card i wanted to make it look more 活泼, in the end it turned very ghostly... T.T I m very sry...but then it is too late to apologise~

In the end the first one i decorate, it was plain. The second one was ghostly. The third one looks quite ok, esp. the name but colour a bit 单调。 The fourth one was the most 恰到好处, in terms of colour and decorations. I wont say it is very nice, but it is the nicest out of the 4. Cuz i decided that the more details i add, the more terrible it gets. But in the end, it was still spoiled cuz of the slamdunk poster we tried to put in cuz sadly i didnt leave enough space for it. T.T

Haha...i think i m quite lucky, in terms of the teachers i got to decorate the cards for. All the teachers i know and like. :) But that's why i feel more apologetic towards them for spoiling the cards...

Anw, the fun part was the card distribution! Being able to see all their reactions! I love teachers who opened the card immediately because it goes to show that they appreciate/ care/ curious. And it shows that what we did was worth it! I dislike teachers who didnt bother to look at it when we gave them. There are a few which i shall not name. I will talk abt the nice nice teachers.
Would someone like to remind me who did we give first ah? Oh yes! Mr chang! (The list below is gonna be in random order cuz i cannot rmb the order also..)

Epic ones:
1. Mr chang! He said that the card would be better if it is wet. I hope it wouldnt end up like the paper ducky. He is one of the teachers who bowed earnestly in appreciation. :)

2. Ms chee! I didnt catch it myself, so sad. Somemore, i made her card. But according to the rest, she walked away with the card and jumped when she opened it while walking! Haha! I think her photo shocked her! Then she turned around to look at the ppl who gave the card. Haha! CUTE MAX!

3. Mr Ang! hmm...he looked mildly surprised at the photo and said that it could have been better without the photo. Haha! But then! That is the purpose of the photo isnt it? Although that photo is actually quite a bad photo. But no choice lah...bo biam de dai ji....
He accepted it half bowing too. Appreciative! I like!

4. Mr tay! We gave him his during the lesson, before our Topical presentation. Actually i didnt see the whole process! I didnt know it was given to him! Then after that someone said that while we presented he looked at the card and smiled happily to himself! :D I always have to miss his 经典 expressions! >< But then, at least we know he likes it! :D Haha...he is so cute seriously!

Little sidetrack: Today during IH lesson, he suddenly started telling us that he has OCD, not the clean freak kind but he has this habit that he couldnt stop. He said that he has to underline stuffs on our assignments and add notes, draw arrows, etc. etc. Haha. Actually, i somewhat established that the moment i got back my first assignment last year. 满江红啊！看到我都眼花缭乱。。 Then the thing is no matter u score well or not, the paper will still b in a sea of red. Cuz he still have to write blah blah blah established! >< So i figured out what to buy for him this teachers' day! RED PENS! LOTS AND LOTS OF RED PENS! Or maybe, i will consider pink or light purple too. I think he wont mind! :D

5. Mr Tan BH! Haha! He damn funny also. His photo is the funniest cuz it showed him being super afraid! But then obviously he werent. He actually looked super calm. But haha...too bad danielle captured that! :D I cant really rmb his expression when he opened the card alr. But mr tan normally 就是没什么 expression 的。

Little sidetrack: I have been seeing him around sch very often ever since i came back from Beijing...kinda freaky. And he always walks around for no reason. ><

6. Ms Sabrina! Haha! She is damn funny, she said she shy, dun wan to let us see her expression when she sees the card. But then, curiousity kills the cat. She already took a peek and revealed her shock! O.O Which i also cannot rmb how it looked like. I think most ppl cannot get used to seeing themselves somewhere else other than in the mirror. Haha!

7. Zhang lao shi! We went to look for him while he was sleeping in his office. Then huang bo shi helped us put it on his table. Then a while when we came back, he woke up! But then..he didnt see the card! So we knocked and asked him to see it. Then he stared at it for like 5 secs before he turned around and smile gay-ly! Hahahahahaha! I think he made a gay gesture, but then i cannot rmb. My memory is failing me. All are welcome to fill the gap if u can rmb.
Anw, we were laughing madly outside his office, looking at him blur-ing. Like a grp of fangirls giving him love letter like that! >< Reminded me of the time we asked him if he was willing to let us dunk. We were also dying of laughter outside. :D :D

8. Mr chong! I mus say science teachers are really hard to find! Every morning/break/ after school go and look for them (照三餐去), we still couldnt find most of them! Then for some reason, during that break we thought of looking for him at the chem lab. And we were right! He was there! He was actually giving remedial to one of his students. So responsible.. But anw, he took the card happily and then opened it...n jumped a little too! Haha! Then he said "Thank u thank u! I wont throw it away!" -.-''' I think 当场 everyone 都被他 diao 死了。Where got ppl say until like that de??? At least phrase it another way mah! But then again, if he doesnt diao us everytime we meet him, he is not mr chong anymore.

Then i think that day after sch, jermia and i went to look for the other science teachers with the cards. We met him on the way. Then he saw the cards and said "u 2 in charge of delivering funeral notice ah?" my eyes went rolling...haiz...

9. Mdm heng! She is one busy woman...so hard to catch her! Then finally when we did, she jus opened the card calmly and said "ok. thank u. i will keep it." Hers no photo anw, so not much shock is supposed to be expected from her. But then her reaction a bit disappointing. We spent so much effort decorating hers. PLUS, the inside of the card is SUPER BOOMZ! >< But when she said she will keep it, the first thing i thought of was: Mr chong u shld learn from her. XD

The other teachers not really very interesting liao. Except that we used a pink paper for mr kaw's card! My suggestion! Muahahaha! :D

Ok, i shall continue the rest next time. I never fail to elaborate simple things into such long long posts! >< I shld learn to be more short and sweet!

Block test coming! DIE DIE DIE! XD

我承认当我听到她这么说时，我的心里头一阵酸。我又狠狠地被打败了。

2011-07-11T23:17:00.002+08:00

I shall recommend all of u to listen to this song!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zVq5EQfzNlw

It is by Jay chou called mai zheng wei! :D

Mus look at the lyrics...they are....CREATIVE!

Haha! :D :D Enjoy!

I like this sentence: "我的麦是麦当劳的麦，我的烝不是蒸小笼包的蒸。我的玮不是那哥哥爸爸真伟大的伟，不是哥哥爸爸真伟大的真伟。"

Hahaha! I hope u all wont be too repelled against this! XD

Have a great week ahead! :D

2011-07-07T21:53:00.008+08:00

Lala...I m finally here to write my YDF post. It is gonna be exactly 1 week after the youth day funfair alr. I rmb 1 week ago, at this time, i was dog-tired but having high dosage of adrendaline the whole night! I couldnt even go into deep sleep. I was suddenly wide awake the moment i felt my mum shaking me up. It happened consecutively for 2 mornings, thur morn and fri morn.

I think it was the first time i look forward to sth so much. LOL!

I think through this whole journey of planning, preparation to finally implementing, many people have put in a lot of hard work, esp. the 2 monitresses! I salute them seriously, for being so sacrificial and willing to make so many sacrifices. They even 不顾一切 "stripped" themselves to scrub the dunking machine on thur afternoon. Jus because they were afraid the teachers wont like dirty water? Seriously, i would hv heck care. Maybe we could hv scooped out the grass after we filled them up.

Even though this whole process is tiring, and it havent exactly ended yet, i guess all of us had a lot of fun! Esp. by DUNKING TEACHERS!!!! :D :D AND SEEING TEACHERS GET DUNKED! I think i got the most satisfaction out of this funfair and is probably one of the best worth remembering in this 4 years of ny life! I mean how often do you see your teachers in that super unglam state? :) Some of them screaming and shutting their eyes? Or some threatening students with their marks? Haha!

During the week before the funfair, it was seriously one of the most fun week. We go around the sch, asking teachers to get dunked, even though we actually dunno most teachers. I think it surprised me quite a bit to see how most teachers are very supportive of us. Some gave in after a few more persuasions. But some totally rejected us as though we are some very dangerous people. Most whom we asked agreed, but there are some who didnt want to go, gave ambigious ans. It made me ponder whether they will truly think abt it, or they jus 敷衍 us? I think if u reject us perhaps politely, it is still better than giving us an insincere ans.

Anw, the very exciting part is we decided to ask mdm heng to be dunked! And guess wad? SHE AGREED 爽快-ly! The main point is the 幕后大功臣 who helped us thought of this idea is MR KAW!!! When we walked out of the meeting room in GO, mr kaw was right outside. Mdm heng totally told the whole office that “她们说要dunk我！”Haha! That was when we saw his bright bright smile across his face! He 竖起两只大拇指 and grin widely to us, nodding his head! I dun think i will forget that scene for a very long time. That was the first time, i felt that he truly care for us. Even though initially he rejected to get dunked by us, a bit 扫兴. But then, he has helped us in a way that i think it is more meaningful than letting us dunk him. At least, we know now that he is a good teacher, one who is willing to lend a helping hand whenever we need them. He might look as though he doesnt care most of the time, but he has a warm heart! Afterall, i guess that is the reason why he decided to teach. If not for a person like him, i would never believe he chose teaching as a career.

Haha! All of us were so happy when Mdm heng agreed. Seriously, she is the coolest principal ever! How many principals across singapore will let their students do this? This is wad it means by 说到做到. She said that we could go to her for anything and that she is ever so supportive of us, esp. when this is a sch event that the sch organised! She totally helped us publicise as well lor! But actually, we failed in the publicity for mdm heng. We shld hv invited more teachers. But i think due to the late notice, we didnt exactly hv much time to do it either.

List of teachers invited:
1. Mdm Heng
2. Mr Tan BH
3. Ms Chee
4. Mr Ting
5. Mr Chang
6. Mr Benjamin Ng
7. Mr Tay
8. Mrs Wong
9. Ms Sabrina
10. Mr Zhang RH
11. Mr Chong
12. Ms Tan Wei lin
13. Mr Ang

Haha...due to our relentless efforts! We managed to "capture" so many "victims" (as mr chong puts it) to let us dunk. The timings were actually too close tgt that there were a few overlaps.

Haha..let's talk abt them 1 by 1.

Mr Tan is totally OCD. He kept asking if the water will be clean or not. I think initially he didnt want to come, but i think he loves our class too much to reject! That was the reason why he was the 2nd on our list. so that we can ensure "cleaner" water for him at least. To repay his love and support for us. But we a bit 辜负 his 一番心意 cuz in the end, only 3 ppl paid to dunk him! O.O

Ms Chee was totally cute. She was actually very scared but she agreed cuz i think she loves us too much too! So on that day itself, she was making all kinds of funny faces while sitting on top of the machine. I think it is her way to relieve stress and hide her anxiety. After a few ppl tried but none of them could dunk her, she started getting happier and thought that "HA! It is not that easy to dunk me!" But haha...sry lah. We wont let her go until she is dunked. In the end, samantha 一上场，她就玩完了。I think samantha's throw caught her by surprise and she swallowed quite a bit of water. Second throw was vanessa lim, twice down! 3rd throw was garn yarn, thought she wouldnt be so suay huh? in the end, 3 consecutive dunks! Samantha's $4 was totally worth it. And Ms chee...became the only teacher that day to get dunked 3 times consecutively! I do pity her. She said she will not try this again after she got dunked the first time. I hope the card we made for her would change her mind. :) But we are proud of her, for willing to try out new things and accept challenges in life! :D

Mr ting was jus...AA. Cuz he arrived before ms chee was dunked so he had to wait there for some time. So he grew a bit impatient and said that the dunking machine not high enough, not exciting enough!!! -.-''' We know u very brave lah! Can anot? Then nymd came along to dunk him and he made a lot of "funny" poses like the superman one before he was dunked. 害weihui看到不该看的东西。Actually i did too, but werent bothered by it as much as weihui. LOL. Still take pic with nymd after the dunk!

After that mr chang came along. Samantha's idol leh! I realise samantha fangirls too.
(Sidetrack a bit, samantha was asking me if we are 接待-ing the fudan people. Then before i could ans, she was eagerly telling me that if i m, then i shld go get a guy buddy. And i totally 泼 her 冷水 by telling her that maybe the sec 3s are doing it, not us. Then she totally asked me to go away. -.- another see colour, forget friends one! 见色忘友！)
Ok! Back to topic. He came along and then found that mr ting was still AA-ing. So he went to get himself an ice-cream. We were liked "how in the world is he gonna get dunked with that ice cream in his mouth?" In the end, he stuffed the whole thing into his mouth before getting up! I WAS AMAZED! It was quite a huge piece! Anw, he is one weird person. He probably figured out that we didnt provide rubber duckies, and he knows that water mus go with duckies! So he got himself a PAPER DUCKY! He put it on his head and bite that ice cream stick, held on to a pencil before going up there to get dunked. In the end, someone threw his pencil to me. He is one lucky person. He got dunked on the first try! He is the only teacher that day, to be dunked on the first try! And by SAMANTHA! Haha...LOL! Then no fun alr lor. I think in the end was jus samantha sponsoring everyone to dunk him. I had a try and succeded too! :) First person to ever get dunked by me! Haha...in the end, as we shld know, his ducky tored and dropped off cuz it was wet. and he threw it to someone. After he left, we were like running after him to return the stuffs. -.- 没事干嘛带这么多东西嘛。。。真是的。。。Oh yes, in case u ever wondered what happened to that ice cream stick. It stayed with him, accompanying his dunking journey till the end. :)

Mr Ng was LATE! But he came after Mr tay. I didnt really catch his cuz i went to get coupons for myself. LOL...sry lah. Not very interested. From him, i can tell though, guys are lazy! He still wore his army uni to get dunked. Totally is like humiliating SAF! But the other one was worst, i will talk abt him LATER! hmm...anyway, the only thing i observed was he is married cuz there is a wedding ring on his left hand ring finger. haha. Actually he quite popular leh! A lot of ppl automatically came to see him get dunked although we didnt do much publicity for him. Thought he would be ulu but turned out to be not too bad. And mr teo came along to dunk him too. Made weihui crazy. =.=

Mr Tay! Haha...he is jus interesting. Because he is too serious. I like his pants! Have the beach feeling, like he is going for a summer vacation. I m glad that we gave him that relaxed feeling. :) He is one nice soul, coming to us first thing in the morning after changing out of his SAF uni. He became the first teacher to come to us that morning, except for mrs lai. Haha...he even gang gang hao helped us save a bucket which dropped into the machine. LOL!
Hmm..during his turn, i think he was scared too. He started threatening people with their hist marks. Haha! Which made everyone more determined to dunk him! Then he changed strategy! He started telling everyone who wants to dunk him "Hey XXX, i treated you very well right....". Haha...and somehow everyone missed. Haha...psychological tactic! Tsk tsk! But obviously, 他也难逃一死。Oh yes! he was the only teacher whom we arranged 15 mins of dunking time for. Cuz he wanted it himself. Haha..he said cuz of our patience during his lessons. Seriously, i thought we werent any different from his usual lessons. -.- i think he didnt know we only arranged 10 mins for all the other teachers. 自找的。But that just shows that he love us too! :D :D
Anw, he was totally counting down lor. Then i told him u r not getting down unless u r dunked. Haha...but he got dunked before his time were up. I think he was one of the harder-to-dunk teachers. LOL.

Then mrs wong was late also. I knew she wouldnt know the timings cuz when i confirmed with her, she was actually abt to leave with her sons. So she wasnt exactly listening. -.- But we didnt go call her cuz ms sabrina came along. EARLY.

Ms sabrina didnt attract as much ppl as i thought she would, since i thought she is quite 家喻户晓。And i think she became the first teacher to not get dunked by the ball, but by pushing the target (if i didnt rmb wrongly). Which kinda suck cuz that is against the rule...she looked very relax and slack though. N i ran away after a while too...LOL.

Then Zhang rong hua lao shi came! Haha. He is actually a very cute n funny guy despite him looking quite stern most of the time. When we asked him, he even asked us whether nid to wear swim suit or not? Then yls at the side was cheering and saying that "哇！要是张老师穿泳装一定会轰动全南洋！" While we were like dying of laughter outside the office....Actually he sounded very innocent when he asked the qns. But in the end the response he got was so evil! He is one of the few who agreed quite 爽快-ly!
During the actual dunking, actually there were quite a lot of sec 1s and sec 2s who came to dunk him. People started coming for him before he even arrived. He actually quite "popular". So popular to the extent that a girl even willing to pay $10 to get a sure dunk, and in the end ended up hurting herself due to unforseen circumstances. Shant elaborate but the good thing was there werent too much of a problem afterwards. But it sort of became very 扫兴. The whole mood jus dampens. Haiz...lesson learnt: no matter how strong your desires can be, learn to control them or else you will only end up hurting yourself.
Anw, very concidentally, he helped our class earned $38. 308! :D :D

Then after zhang was chong! Actually they hv the same surname. Anw, he stumbled into the outdoor volleyball court looking wet, dirty and tired. I pity him seriously. He was involved in water activities for 3 classes that whole morning! IN HIS ARMY UNIFORM! Weihui, bao bao and i saw him get chased after by his form class in their water games. Poor mr chong seriously. But then, 3 of us 一致认为, he shld change out of the uniform, so that he wont 丢 SAF 的脸。It was like 1 whole gang of students chasing after him...没脸看。
We told him to get his army boots off before going up the dunking machine but he jus insisted that it is ok cuz it is already wet. MANY ppl told him to take it off but then...he didnt understand why. In the end, i had to told him very straight-in-the-face that it is not abt his boots but our water. Then i had this sudden realisation i was a bit too harsh...so i kindly explained that it is cuz there are other teachers coming after him. I think i forgot to say sry to him. :P But him being a nice guy, I m sure he would understand. Haha..

Chong is really 1 lucky fellow. He helped us earn the second highest amount (not including mdm heng of course!). But i think he was one of the teachers that got dunked the least. He is the luckiest teacher of the day! He is the only teacher who after being hit on the target twice but still did not drop into the water. Maybe he is too heavy.... :P I think i m very mean to him.

Anw, he said a sentence to me before i made the third attempt to dunk him. all i can say is 他太看得起我了。 :)

Ms Tan weilin...hmm...actually i hv nth to say abt her. except that we took a nice pic of her. :)

Mr Ang....actually i also hv nth to say abt him other than, for some reason, when he was there, everyone ran off. Why everyone dun like him so much ah? He quite nice wad!

Last but not least, mrs wong!!! Haha...she was screaming and shouting like she gonna drop into a cauldron some witches have prepared. but oh well, after a few tries, she got a bit addicted and stayed there for a very long time since she was the last teacher. So she is the "highest earner" for our class!!! Woots!!! :D :D if i didnt rmb wrong, it is 64 dollars. :)

After that, our class started dunking ourselves. All of us took turns to experience what the teachers felt. and we could empathise with them. But then, after a while, it jus get quite fun. I had my fun too! And it jus felt like those times when i played the slides in swimming pool, except that u dunno when this is coming. :)

We were saying after that that we actually bathed in all the teachers' sweat, saliva, pee, idk wad else. And we started feeling gross all over. But then right, i rmb sth. Shumin and the twins poured buckets of water on me after i got dunked. WHICH MEANS...I WAS CLEAN!!! Except for maybe my hair...haha!

After that day, i think most of us were super sunburnt. All my tans resurfaced. And my cheeks were red for 3 days! Haiz...i look like the time i was in sec 2, when i got super dark from trng. This is the power of sun...although no regrets being able to see so many teachers getting dunked, and working towards the same target with the whole of 408!

I can't describe my love for 408'11. :) Thanks for making this the best funfair ever! :D

I think this post is LONG enough....haha..it is at least 5 pages on word doc. But actually i still hv a sequel to it. Rmb i said that the journey hasnt exactly ended? I think your eyes deserve a break, if u survive through till the end! Congrats! :D But 好的东西是应该细细品尝的。:)

Have a nice weekend everyone! :D

2011-06-26T12:40:00.002+08:00

一个精神病人，以为自己是一只蘑菇，于是他每天都撑着一把伞蹲在房间的墙角里，不吃也不喝，像一只真正的蘑菇一样。　　

心理医生想了一个办法。有一天，心理医生也撑了一把伞，蹲坐在了病人的旁边。
病人很奇怪地问：你是谁呀？
医生回答：我也是一只蘑菇呀。
病人点点头，继续做他的蘑菇。　　

过了一会儿，医生站了起来，在房间里走来走去，病人就问他：你不是蘑菇么，怎么可以走来走去？　　　医生回答说：蘑菇当然也可以走来走去啦！病人觉得有道理，就也站起来走走。　　

又过了一会儿，医生拿出一个汉堡包开始吃，病人又问：咦，你不是蘑菇么，怎么可以吃东西？医生理直气壮地回答：蘑菇当然也可以吃东西呀！病人觉得很对，于是也开始吃东西。　　

几个星期以后，这个精神病人就能像正常人一样生活了，虽然，他还觉得自己是一只蘑菇。　　

其实……　　一个人可以带着过去的创伤继续，只要他把悲伤放在心里的一个圈圈里，不要让苦痛浸染了他的整个生命，他就可以像正常人一样快乐地生活。　　

当一个人悲伤得难以自持的时候，也许，他不需要太多的劝解和安慰，训诫和指明，他需要的，只是能有一个人在他身边蹲下来，陪他做一只蘑菇。

I came across this post on one of my renren friend's profile. But i dun wan to repost there. So i shall post it here. I think it is a very meaningful post.

The reason why i was attracted to this post is because when i was in sec 1, the story of the drama night we acted in, was similar to this. I rmb there was also a mad person carrying an umbrella saying that she is a mushroom. I was the one who acted as the mad person tgt with hui hong. I cant really rmb wad exactly the story was anymore but i know it was a comedy and not as meaningful as this.

So when i came across this, and saw the last 2 sentences, i was rather shocked. Actually, in every simple story, there are things u can learn. Only if you know how to...

2011-06-23T22:42:00.003+08:00

Another busy week before the end of the holidays. I think this is one of the most fulfilling holiday i hv ever had. Most of the holidays in the past were jus a time for me to rot at home. But this time, i really got to do a lot more things, not to mention a lot more remedials back in sch. But oh well, i love remedials. Because they are rather stress free and u tend to miss teachers in the holidays from time to time. I dun wan to imagine myself leaving nanyang...

Anw, this week started with IH remedial and mr tay jus went through the SBQ with us. -.- i think a lot of people mus be jealous of our class. LOL. Haha. Nth much to say actually.

Tues was streetsales in orchard. Met some interesting incidents. For eg. we approached these 2 middle age guys, then 1 looked at our uniform and said "nanyang...is it nanhua?". Then i was almost rolling my eyes...no link? We looked mildly surprised and said no. then his friend said "哎呀。。。你不懂就不要乱讲". Haha...O.O I somehow have this feeling the other guy also dunno abt nanyang but said that to impress?

Another funny incident. I mus say that orchard roads are filled with lots of streetsalers. There happened (or rather intentionally) that there was this pair of njc girls in the front of the same street we were standing on. So naturally, those that passed by them alr wouldnt donate to us anymore because they would alr have done so. So we decided to leave the place. And before we left, we passed by them. Then weihui decided to donate to them so tat we can ask for donations from them too. Weihui donated 50cents to them, n we asked them whether they would like to purchase our badge. 1 for 3 and 3 for 5. So she looked at the badges and thought that one of them was really nice. So she decided to buy 1 but she didnt hv $3. In the end, she bought 2 at $5. When we left, weihui and i were totally laughing at weihui's strategy. 50 cent for $5. That's 10 times! O.O Haha...but the girl was kind lah...after tht we somehow didnt dare to try on others anymore.

Tues' streetsales probably werent as eventful as the 1st one we did at J8. But we definitely got more donations this time round. And i noticed a trend. Older women and men are kinder souls in singapore's societies. Those office ladies and men are stingy. Teenagers are the worst. :p

Donations to most people are just a way to dispose of their change and coins. -.- But oh well, at least they dun spend it and donated it.

By the way, there was 1 badge that we sold that has a very nice quote on it. "You were born because you're going to be important to someone". I love it a lot so i bought the badge. :D

I started wed with another CIP. Poor me was so tired that i couldnt rmb why i have to get up so early when my mum shook me up. -.- Disorientated....first time. That is probably cuz of the late nights used to chiong IH essay. I slept at 3am for both fri and sat night and slept at 4 plus am at mon morning and woke up at 7 plus am in the morning to go for remedial. I know i very poor thing. But jermia stayed up with me too! Which made all the hard work seems less hard to get by.

Ok, back to the CIP. It was a CIP with TOUCH and we went to greenridge primary school. The coaches there went to conduct lessons while we helped out with their games. As usual, i was late. BUT I WOKE UP EARLY. Due to unforseen circumstances, i was late. I apologised, they said it was ok. After that, 1 of them asked me where i lived and she said that it is not too far away. My first reaction was i told them that i was late because sth cropped up. Then she was silent. Idk if i was overreacting or being too....straight... In any case, i do feel a bit apologetic. Although i never express it. The person looks and feels a lot like ms foo...gosh. Even certain hand gestures...O.O

In any case, met this quite shuai guy there. I couldnt rmb his name cuz he doesnt have an english name. But i m not that crazy anyway. He is one of the coaches, apparently quite young and probably jus graduated from uni? But in any case, the only thing worth mentioning is i really think he looks quite shuai, esp. from the side. Cuz his nose is super straight and 尖！Haha...hormones working. -.-

Then this morning was supposed to meet mr tay at 8am for topical presentation. In the end, was 30 mins late due to traffic jam. By the time i got there, he alr finished meeting everyone and disappeared. -.- So it was quite a wasted trip actually. But after that i trained with the juniors and played captain's ball and netball with them. Poor seniors got trashed by juniors. -.- Old liao old liao...couldnt run. Get tired very easily nowadays esp when i dun get enough sleep. Poor me isnt gonna make it for NAPFA. I guess i will have to leave the gold for next year. Haiz...

Ok...that's abt it now. I still hv a long list of stuffs to complete. T.T

I am starting to get sick of IH. IH essay...IH SBQ...now IH topical presentation. Poor me have to research for limitations again. Haiz...WHEN CAN I EVER FINISH IT SERIOUSLY???

And i hvnt touch on stuffs for lun wen, havent finish math self-study, havent started on physics, havent started revision. ULTIMATE EFFICIENCY. IH, u r a killer, legalised killer. T.T

Time to sleep before my dark eye rings (which i never used to have) gets darker and darker. -.-

最后我明白了，以后的日子是否有你已经不重要了。因为你已经给了我很多，能够让我回味，会陪伴我一辈子的回忆。谢谢。是时候慢慢放手了。

2011-06-17T17:02:00.004+08:00

I hv always thought that 1 little post a day is good for health (mental health i mean). So here i m to relief some stress. It has been building up ever since my last post. Esp. these few days. I think it will reach a peak if i still dun produce at least an agree essay by tmr. I m last in giving the ih topical presentation ppt to bao bao. AGAIN. I know right. Always me. I kinda liked wad jermia said the other day: the 2 of us ultimate efficiency. But no! IT IS ME that is having the ultimate ultimate efficiency. :) Dun ask me why and how. Cuz idk.

I jus seems to not be satisfied with the case studies i have been doing (or hv been wanting to do). So from infrastructure, i decided to change to agriculture and now back to infrastructure. (This is a very simplied version of how i changed my mind during the course of the previous week.)

But nonetheless, there are many many happy things happening despite so many dreadful things drowning me.

1. Shengting, our shanghai buddy, is COMING TO SINGAPORE!!! Even though i knew it a long time ago, but whenever i think of it now i will still feel very happy and excited. And i jus kept thinking of all the possibilities of the things we can do tgt when she comes. This goes to show i m not tad cold-blooded. Cuz when i left shanghai and left her crying (i mean she was crying when we left), i didnt exactly have much sadness. But only now then i realised that actually i do hope to relive those moments we were tgt. And even though she is the only 1 from our class coming, i m alr very contented and happy. Haha. The rest of them in china, too bad, they wont have the blissful experience of being treated like VIPs by us. :) :) :)

2. Streetsales @ J8. We were doing streetsales at j8 during the 1st wk of holidays. Even though it was quite a failed streetsales/ asking for donations experience, it was my first. :) And there were some interesting things that happened. We were doing for Singapore association for the deaf. Then when shumin approached one grp (actually only 3) of teenage boys, asking them to donate to the association for the deaf, one of them heard it as "Association for the DEATH"!!! He looked so shocked and scared. Shumin, gennie, weihui and i jus couldnt control our laughters. Poor guy, his 2 friends left him alone there and walked away, while he started digging his wallet out and donate. Can tell he was super embarrassed. Wei hui and i turned away to laugh, then his friends from across the street were also laughing. I thinking they were laughing at him and laughing at us laughing at him. After he left, we continued laughing even louder. Seriously hilarious!

Also, during the streetsales, weihui and i met one of our school's teacher. Btw, we were wearing NY PE shirt ok? So we approached HER, thinking that SHE would definitely donate since it is ny girls. Initially, she was smiling quite happily, but when we told her we are asking for donation, she immediately waved her hand and WALKED AWAY DAMN QUICKLY!!!!!!!!! Then weihui and i were like SHOCKED! Haha. If u wan some hint on who she is, here is one: She was shumin's form teacher before. :) It is inconvenient for me to reveal here who she is. :)

3. Visit to universal studio! My aunt brought me to universal studio on mon. :) And it is technically my first time going for all the rides and stuff. I hv only been to theme park once and tad was when i was very very young. So it was a very new experience for me and although i was kinda scared but i think the try was worth it. :) The rides are exciting enough for me, 1 try is probably enough to last me for a lifetime. I get dizzy after some of the rides but the experience was exhilarating nonetheless. Of course the 2 battlestar galactica were a definite NO -NO (the blue and red roller coaster), because i think that one would kill me. Haha.

Even though universal studio is very widely publicised and everything but i think this kind of place, 1 time is enough. The entrance ticket alone is enough reason for u to not go anymore. And secondly, there arent really a lot of attractions for u to go again. The whole place isnt that big actually. And it will jus get boring the 2nd time u go. My opinion only. Maybe that's cuz the rides are jus not the thing for me. :)

And i saw mr tay's album this morning! He brought his family there too and i think they stayed there for a night or sth. Haha. HIS DAUGHTERS ARE SO CUTE! :)

4. Gennie's birthday party! I finally got rid of the panda from my hse. It is like a constant reminder of gennie's birthday, there was like no way i could forget. And it is like a responsibility. :( But in case, her birthday surprises we set up for her, were suprising enough for her. She didnt know we were going to bring her to ktv. And the ktv were in a kinda ulu place. Idk wad exactly was she thinking on the way there. But when she saw the ktv, she looked shocked more than surprised. But after that she was jus excited since it is like most of their 1st time there. It is my 2nd time, same ktv somemore. I shall not describe the gruesome details of us being subjected to the torture of weihui's and minghui's singing. But the truth is, weihui and minghui really has their way to get people to laugh. Esp. minghui. After she came, we jus got high. Even weihui pales in comparison. Haha. But that is not the happiest thing of the day. It is that gennie was truely happy about our birthday celebration as well as gifts for her. It is her smiles tad made me think that it is all worth it. (Lugging the panda back from beijing, cracking my brain over how to wrap it, spending on quite a bit of smses on the celebration, lying to my parents, and abandoning my essay for another day.) We seldom did so much planning for someone's birthday. But the gift was an easy problem this time round. Gennie is such an easily contented person and of course a very very nice friend! :)

5. Throws outing! Throws outing ytd. Another day with a lot of first times. First time i tried bowling, archery and ate alone in northpoint. Haha. I think i hv a bit of talent for bowling but archery is too tiring for me. Unless i continue training. Bowling exercised my right limp, archery challenged my left arm. So today, i hv muscle aches on BOTH arms. Haha. Not sth very unexpected. I usually get muscle aches over small little exercises, since i hvnt trained for so so so long. But i m jus too lazy to exercise. Anw, bowling was cool. I could bowl even though it was only my first time, even though i didnt even know how to hold it before i went there. But my score was not bad. :D :D Archery was a bit different, it requires quite a bit of strength. And surprising it is not the right arm that hurts, but the left. But it isnt as difficult as i thought it would be. :)

Then i went to buy father days' gift. N was racking my brain over it. I hate buying gifts esp for people impt to me. Cuz i hv to made sure that the person will like it or have a high chance of liking it then i will be satisfied. In the end, mum, sis and me went around to shop for a shirt. And we finally brought one after spending almost 3 hrs. We were like trying, estimating, thinking will it fit my dad. In the end, i think it will. Haha. In any case, i like the gift. So hope he will like it too. :)

But his birthday is coming too... :(

Ok, i shall end here. All in all, this holiday has been quite a fruitful one, in terms of experiences. A lot of first times. 1 reason why i love ny so much is because it has given me a lot of opportunities to try different things and experience a lot of stuffs. U jus cant exchange some of these experience for anything else. :) Like shanghai, like nanjing, like beijing, like cca and plenty of other stuffs. :) Things that will bring a smile across your face when u think of these memories. :)

2011-06-06T00:27:00.002+08:00

Hey hey!!! I finished packing all my stuffs! :D :D :D I even filed all my stuffs from weeks ago!!! :D Feel acomplished! Now i can finally settle down on my homework.

Now my to-do list:

1. Testimonial! (i keep forgetting!!!!)
2. NYAA!!!!
3. Tabulate my lun wen survey questions and hopefully find some kind of trend in it (if not i will have to consult yang lao shi about it)
4. See what i can do to improve the survey and edit/create a online survey
5. Survey singapore sec 4 students
6. Read the books i brought from china regarding lun wen to understand how things work in china
7. Write my blogpost
8. Do my IH essay and IH sbq assignment and IH topical presentation
9. Get my buddy and my photo from bao bao so tat i can send it to my buddy
10. Revise electrolysis and all the physics stuff! (i m super super confused...)

Hehe! my list has reduced by 3! :)

I have been looking through photos for the whole night. On beijing and on nanjing. I hv been reminiscing...and suddenly 1 good news decide to arrive!!! Shengting, our buddy in shanghai, will be coming to singapore for the bsp seminar this july!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So happy!!!!! Jermia and i decided to go volunteer to usher/take on any other jobs for this bsp seminar!!! :D :D :D

That's one great news! I hvnt had so much adrenaline rush for quite some time! Haha...Adrenaline rush when happy? nope...it is adrenaline rush when i was reading the msg! it was jus...EXCITING! Hahahahahahahaha! i m not making sense!

Anw, i jus mentioned i was looking through photos, actually not only on beijing and nanjing. I also looked through some photos from some recents events that jus ended a few days ago. Then i was reading through the comments of some photos....and getting disgusted over some people.

Seriously...that is not the right way to divert attention away from yourself ! u r just attracting more attention that way! Disgusting....

Why could some people disgust me with jus their words while some people can make me very happy just by a glance or a smile or simply jus by the presence?

There are jus some people whom i will never like. Every action will jus seems irritating or on the negative side to me. I think i m prejudiced against some people, but still dun like means dun like. Of course most of them not to the extent of hate (i seldom hate people), but being able to get me to use the word disgust, that person mus have some kind of capabilities. Being able to get me to write on my blog abt it, this person has more than capabilities!

Omg! I dunno why i m so angry abt it. I think cuz i hvnt really seen anyone as ___________ as her. u can fill in the blank yourself. I hvnt found a right word.

Ok, i shall end. I know i promised a beijing post, or a CIP post. But i m not capable of delivering either. I promise u beijing post will be here soon. I hv gotten it out in my thumbdrive. :)

Shanghai post still not done yet. I feel sry abt it. But i dun think anyone still wants it. It is almost done in my diary, so i can type it out. But it is super super long. And super lots of details. I think probably not. I shall post more on beijing as a bu chang! :D

Good (morning?)! And enjoy your holidays!

2011-05-30T22:00:00.003+08:00

Here's a little post to engage my readers. :)

I hvnt got the time (or rather the mood) to copy the blog post doc out of the laptop i brought to china and save it somewhere so that i can post more conveniently in this laptop i m using now.

I hvnt got the time/mood to keep all the stuffs i bought from china.

I hvnt got the time/mood to start clearing my table and filing my stuffs.

I hvnt got the time/ mood to start uploading the photos because my laptop is jus SLOW!

I hvnt got the time/ mood to start tabulating my results for lun wen survey and think of what to do next.

All the hvnts...

I only know that i m sick and exhausted. Yes, i came back more than a week ago and is now down with flu. Yes, i came back more than a week ago and the work i nid to do, things i nid to rmb seems to be never-ending. Yes, i jus came back from a china trip but no, it wasnt a holiday or a slacking time. Yes, i jus came back from a study trip and we sat through more lectures and lessons than you probably would ever need to till u r in uni. But yes, i kinda enjoyed myself.

We finally touched back on our homeland on 22/5 10.25 pm after being mentally, emotionally and physically trained for a month to stretch beyond our limits of wad we thought we can do. For eg, physically---surviving through 1 whole month with less than 6 hrs of sleep almost everyday. (There are no weekends for us to sleep in btw.) For eg. emotionally--using all our EQ to deal with the teachers/friends/crushes (only applicable to those who fell head over heels for TS). For eg. mentally---sitting through 2-3 periods of lessons/ lectures that are 2 and a half hr each almost every weekday without falling asleep.

(Of course the abovementioned is only the tip of the iceberg. 1 month isnt as long as you think it is, but neither is it as short as u think it might be.)

I guess now u hv a better understanding of what kind of life we led there. Don't armchair speculate because you are not us, you might not be there with us, therefore, DONT ASSUME! Seriously, in this society, there is always a price to pay if you gain any benefits from somewhere or someone. And we, as only teenagers, are already experiencing what you might call the reality of the world. How can we then not be forced to grow up and mature before we shld?

Ok, alright, enough of my crapping. 越扯越远。。。

Anyway my point is..if you want to take a peek into the more interesting side of our beijing life, u will have to wait for my mood. I hope that it will turn in your favour and hopefully i can go get my thumbdrive and copy a file out of laptop and copy my photos into the laptop and upload those photos. Dun understand? Nvm...here is the simplified version: SRY, YOU HAVE TO WAIT FOR A FEW MORE DAYS!

Here is my to-do list:
1. Expository essay (by tmr cuz we are having timed trial on wed morning)
2. zuo wen 5 (by thur, which reminds me that i nid to get some chinese foolscape from my classroom so that i can write the zuo wen)
3. pack my sis' table which is currently filled with my stuffs (supposedly by tmr, but i m really too tired to do anything abt it )
4. Pack my own table and clear/file all those stuffs uneccessary in time to come
5. Tabulate my lun wen survey questions and hopefully find some kind of trend in it (if not i will have to consult yang lao shi about it)
6. See what i can do to improve the survey and edit/create a online survey
7. Survey singapore sec 4 students
8. Read the books i brought from china regarding lun wen to understand how things work in china
9. Write my blogpost
10. Upload my photos
11. Do my IH essay and IH sbq assignment and IH topical presentation
12. Get my buddy and my photo from bao bao so tat i can send it to my buddy
13. Finish reading hui you tian shi ti wo ai ni so tad i can give it to jermia to read

I think that's all for now. I think if i can finish all of them before holiday ends, it would be a very huge improvement. I think most of it i will end up not doing and jus heck care or impromtu.

Ok, i shall end now and go get some rest. If the next time i feel like posting but not ready for beijing trip post, i will talk abt CIP today. :)

Happy holidays! (I hope everyone will have a happy one)

2011-04-20T22:03:00.002+08:00

I had this sudden realisation that i m going to beijing in another 2 days. Only 2 days left? Actually technically only 1 more day. I didnt realise how soon it was until today. I have always thought that there is still a long time. I have always thought i still have time. I have always thought that things wont come to an end so soon. I always thought...

Oh well, actually i dread this trip. For 3 simple reasons. I guess i dun really have to spell out the reasons do i? There is only 1 reason why i will hate this trip anyway. In case u still havent realise what i have been talking abt.

But come to think of it, i hv always been dreading this kind of trip. But jus that this year for a different reason. I ended up not wanting to come back last year. Idk how this one will end up. But i really hope i will change my opinions on sth, hopefully for the better. :/

This year, the difference is we are going during the school term. When everyone is still in school studying, u r somewhere else, working hard on different stuffs. For eg lun wen, for eg trying hard not to fall asleep during all kinds of lectures, for eg trying to communicate with some people, for eg trying to live in harmony with some people, for eg trying to make the cip the best experience we ever will have.

But if we actually look a bit further, we will actually realise that tmr is the last day we are gonna to have formal lessons in this term. When we come back, things are gonna be quite different. For 1, there is no more PE. Although i hv never really liked running, but i liked the kind of exhilaration after running. I like the feeling when sweat trickle down my face, my back, my arms after the exercise. For after we come back, we are probably not gonna have pe anymore. At least not in ny. I hope LT actually turns up tmr. If not i will be quite sad.

Then after we come back, we will have to start revising for our sec 3 stuffs too. Sianz...i cant imagine how that will turn out. Esp. when i failed quite terribly on all the sci and math last year. And most importantly, this will be the last term 2 we will have in ny. Half of the academic year will be gone by the time we come back.

Therefore, as much as i m dreading to go there, i m also dreading to come back. :( Perhaps i shldnt look too far. I shld jus think of how i shld survive this 4 weeks...T.T

Ok, i shall end here. If there is anyone who wants me to bring anything back from beijing, pls sms me k? I will be leaving on good fri. :) Actually, u can still sms me anytime while i m in beijing with local charge. Only that i wont be replying cuz it will be global charge.

Yup, that's all. And i guess it will be the last post before i m gone for a month. Goodluck to all for your coming 4 weeks. And jiayou for wadever things that you all still have to crack your heads over and put your heart and soul into! :D

Email me if you are bored! :D

2011-04-15T22:38:00.003+08:00

这个题目，我已经想了很久了。从两年前就开始想，开始发掘了，直到今天才post。不是因为这份思考已经成熟了，而是因为最近又让我遇上很多我曾经以为已走出我世界的人。重新看到他们的感触，只能用奇妙来形容。为什么你又出现了？

你相信缘份吗？我本来并不相信，但是经过了很多事，看到过很多人，我相信了。人与人就算只是能够相遇，相识，就已经是种缘份了。你一天看到的人有多少？在那么多人当中，又有几个是你认识的？为什么你认识的是他而不是他？又或者说在你认识的这么多人当中，为什么你偏偏就遇到这个人，而好像很少看到另一个？为什么明明没有刻意去安排，刻意去等待，我这么碰巧地就能遇到你？为什么原本以为我不会再看到你了，你又不知道从哪里冒出来了？为什么有时候，我一想到你，一提到你，你就出现了？而为什么我每次找你时，你又从来不会让我找到？当我每一次在心里呼喊你的名字时，你又不出现？

这么多这么多的问号，这么多这么多的问题，这么多这么多的不解。。。我只用了两个字来解释。缘份。

你不觉得吗？人生当中的机遇是很奇妙的，不管是事，是人，是物都好。为什么你会遇到？而为为什么偏偏是你？

你有没有试过在几率很渺茫的时候让你看见一个你熟悉的人，然后你心里就会突然觉得很开心，心会突然狠狠地敲一下？就比如那天吧，我遇见了我很久没看见的学姐跟我搭同一辆巴士。我们两人都没有说话，不过看见她那一刻，我怔住了。心里想的是好久不见四个字。再后来我又再次在回家途中，在我快下巴士的时候又看见了她。真巧! 既然在同一个时候，搭同一辆巴士回家。我下车后本来想一走了之，没想到她一把抓住我，还问我最近好吗？我们就在有点尴尬的情况下，断断续续地聊着，多数是她讲我听。因为我也不知道该怎么答。可是跟她分开后，我心里却不禁有一种喜悦，就好像很高兴自己又再见到她。虽然很多事都已经不一样了，但是有些东西并不会因为时间的流逝而改变。对她而言，我依然是那个乖乖女。对我而言，她依然还是那个脾气，还是一样固执，只要自己相信就一定会坚持下去。虽然我不一定真的是她相信地那样乖，虽然我其实可能根本不了解她，但是我相信我们会再相遇，是一种缘分。缘分希望她认识这样的我，而我认识这样的她。有些东西，不需要理由，不需要知道为什么，只要跟随天意，跟随机遇，或许就已经有一条道路让我们走了，不是吗？

前不久，有位朋友来找我聊天。她感慨为什么原本的好朋友会变得那么如此冷淡，就像是从未认识过一样。在短短的四年里，发生了这么多事。从不相识，到相识，到常常见面，到成为好朋友，可最后为什么会又变回陌生人呢？我不知道为什么，我给了她一个连我自己都感到震惊的回答。我告诉她，要是她们不珍惜这份友情，你又何苦继续死守过去，希望她们还会回心转意呢？这句话，以前绝对不可能会在我在安慰人的时候说出口。甚至说，我从来没有对任何人说过这样的话。但是我觉得我没错。要是一场友谊经不起这样小小的考验，要是连你的好朋友都无法体谅或谅解你，要是你们的性格真的无法合得来，那么就算让你们再和好会有任何意义吗？那只会在未来带给你更多地困扰与烦恼，不是吗？

我觉得那或许也是一种缘分。只有在失败后，你才会去想，去思考，到底自己败在那里？要的到底是什么？或许这只不过是个成长学习的机会。希望从中会变得更坚强，对各种人更敏锐。

有时候想想这一切的一切都很奇妙。有人说异性相吸，又有人说物以类聚。各种各样的情况都有，各种各样的奇遇都存在着。有些人会遇见，有些不会。而我们就只能在此等候下一个所谓命中注定的人吧。

在此，我想加一句不太符合这主题的话，但是我觉得可以供思考。

“回忆就像一把锋利的刀子，一不小心碰到了，又会割开心里那道伤口。你我美丽的回忆怎么会变成最痛的纪念品？”

2011-04-10T21:16:00.000+08:00

Block test is finally over! :) I think this period is like one of the rare periods that i hardly use computer for really really long. It has been like 2 weeks. occasionally on9 to check emails but get off in half and hrs' time? Really kind of amazing. Also that i really finished studying within like 1 or 2 days before each subj. I never could do it. Normally i would go in to take the paper quite unprepared. I think it is cuz i have alr understood most of my concepts during daily work so i didnt really need to do much understanding and thinking and remembering alr. :) I guess it is cuz of all the free time i got. What amazed me most is my ability to finish studying ih in 2 afternoons + nights and able to write essays with quite a bit of statistics! :D Ahahahaha! All thanks to Mr tay's constant reminder (or nagging) of the processes of each pollution that i didnt really even have to rmb and memorise the processes anymore. :) Good tactic mr tay! Haha... anyway, studying last minute ftw! :D :D But the truth is, actually i think most of the papers is quite easy. Nothing too challenging till have to crack our brains over it. I m saying it only cuz i feel tat it is ok. But that doesnt mean my feelings tally with the truth all the time. So dun say i overly-confident when my results suck. Cuz there have been lots of times when i felt confident but in the end it turned out to be quite disappointed. Most of the case, it is math cuz of careless mistakes. -.- Haha. In any case, main point of my posts today is not on block tests. It is abt the dramas i watched these few days. I finished watching 拍卖 and point of entry recently. Both dramas' endings created quite a bit of impact in me. The endings werent exactly very...shocking, it is still a bit cliche but there is a twist to the endings and carries strong emotional waves. Ok, this post is actually created quite a few days ago but now i lost the mood i hv then alr. So the zhong dian is now not the 2 dramas' ending. Although i would still like to give a bit of conclusion. Who are our sacrifices for? Who is considered worthy enough of our sacrifices? And what is the limit to our sacrifices? How much is too much to sacrifice? Is it really ok even if u have to live in regret for the rest of your life? Sad endings make me emotional. Although only for a while. Since i hv nth more to write i shall end off. Lastly, i would like to share this "There's no simple truth in matters. Human interactions are complex and multifaceted. My view of things, however right it may seem, will always be limited and incomplete. There may be some truth to what someone else says, even if we cannot see it ourselves." That is why i always think that there is no absolute right or wrong in things, there is only the difference in perspectives and point of view. To learn how to become more 善解人意, this is the key cuz u mus first learn to understand this. :) Next post coming up soon! :D

2011-04-03T19:14:00.013+08:00

几米作品——《想你了，你却不知道》来源：熊子君的日志我喜欢你，很久了。等你，也很久了。现在，我要离开，比很久很久还要久…… 　 ——题记我问，怎样才能让一个人知道你在想她？你说，心里不停地默念她的名字，她就能感受到。可我一直在心底重复着你的名字，你却一直没有音信。也许，你并不知道我在等你。我问，当你在等一个人的短信时，你是会调成静音模式还是户外模式？你说，静音。这样，发现短信来到的时候就会充满惊喜。于是我调了静音，于是我马上就后悔。我一直在看手机，我觉得自己有些强迫症了，每一次屏幕亮起的瞬间，我的一颗心就也跟着亮了起来，这感觉，那样美好，那样心碎。也许，你并不知道我在等你。我问，你忙吗？在干嘛？吃了吗？你一一回答，不忙，看书，没吃。可我却发现自己笨笨地不知该再说些什么，再说什么都是多余，再说什么都只会让人厌烦。你生活在一个可以没有我的世界，我居住在一个只有你的天空。所以，我注定是个失败的人。可是，为什么聪明的你不能帮我想一想，我还可以和你说什么，我还能为你做什么？可是，为什么不忙的你不能试着回一些疑问句，让我们的对话更长？可是，为什么你从没有这样的时候，这样想念着我，想念着一个一直在等你的人？也许，你并不知道我在等你。我什么也没问出口，可这不代表我的草稿箱里什么都没有。我一直在写，一直在删，一直在改。偶尔一两条，又会在发出之前的最后一秒被转入草稿箱。可纵使是这样的严格筛选，我还是不知不觉攒下了许多草稿，那许许多多的字里行间，其实只有三个字：我想你。但你却问，还说我没有发，你不是一样没有音信？我说，因为害怕打扰到你。其实，我只是想等你主动发一次，让我相信，其实，你也很想念我。但事实却让我始终相信，也许，你并不知道我在等你。我挂QQ，我总喜欢只打开你的分组，每一次，都能轻而易举看到你。每一次咚咚的敲门声后，我就会看看你，可你一直黑着一张臭脸，好像在生我的气。偶尔亮起来都不会动一动，总要我先向你问好。你怎么总是这么大的架子，这么大的谱，这么大的把握我一定会问好？你总是“马上就要下了”，“你也快点下吧”，“我们都早点下吧”，我们又不是母鸡，为什么总赶着投胎一样要下啊？我等了那么久才等来你的一句话，根本还没把本儿说回来你就要下了…… 我想，也许，你并不知道我在等你。我的天空今天有点灰，我想你，想你，好想你。不停揣测你心里，可曾有，我的姓名。才发现，原来，你真的不知道我在等你。现在，我要离开了。或许想起曾经的我们，想起那些肆意欢笑的日子，想起那些画面，想起那些瞬间，还会心痛。但是我累了，所以我要离开，比很久很久还要久…… 我们之所以会这样，或者是几米说：因为你爱我时，我才喜欢你。你离开我时，我才爱上你。是你走得太快，还是我赶不上你的脚步。 “不属于你的爱失去了，证明属于你的爱又近了一步，也许转过一个街角，路过一个闹市，真正属于你的爱会出现在你的眼前···” 温暖背后的残酷，微笑隐藏的泪水还好我们都还年轻还好，我决定离开了…… 源地址：http://blog.renren.com/GetEntry.do?id=502644325&owner=220920686 This is posted for hilary. (not in the sense that the person i m talking abt is her but this is for her to read.

2011-03-27T20:42:00.002+08:00

OH GOD! I M BURSTING BLOOD VESSELS STUDYING! THE WEATHER IS SO SO SO SO HOT!!!!! T.T 1 DAY AND 1 NIGHT TO STUDY FOR PHYSICS ONLY! I ROCK RIGHT I KNOW... SLOWEST CREATURE ON EARTH AND NOW I M HALFWAY THROUGH PRESSURE AND NOT YET READ THROUGH STATIC ELECTRICITY...T.T AND WHILE DOING THE PRESSURE WS, I REALISE I SUCK. OH GOD! AND I STILL HAVE 2 MORE CHAPTERS OF BIO! N I HVNT STARTED ON ALL MY OTHER SUBJECTS! I...I...I...I...I...AM...SO GONNA DIEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!! Ok, enuf of my hopeless rumbling and mumbling and grumbling and tumblring. Haha. Actually i feel quite stressless despite my hopeless circumstances. I m a person devoid of emotions. I wanted to post quite a bit of stuff for the past week but hvnt got the chance too cuz i have been trying to mug. But i mus say i m quite productive this weekend. :) Haiz. I can only be productive when it is really the last minute. :( Oh well, nid to get off now. Hope i can like update next by end of this week or sth. :) Jiayou and goodluck to everyone else taking block tests! N u know u shldnt be reading this if the block test is still on right? :D

2011-03-17T18:13:00.002+08:00

"爱情就像乘法，其中一项为零，其结果永远为零。"

"请记得，好朋友的定义是：你混的好，她打心眼里为你高兴；你混得不好，她由衷的为你着急。"

"有人试图和你无理取闹，安静的看着他，说：祝你好心情。然后离开。"

"说话时可以很直接，人很直爽，那总比虚伪好。" (That's what i believe in. :))

"看穿但不说穿。很多事情，只要自己心里有数就好了，没必要说出来。" (i nid to learn this.)

"在不违背原则的情况下，对别人要宽容，能帮就帮，千万不要把人逼绝了，给人留条后路。"

"生活坏到一定程度就会好起来，因为它无法更坏。" (That's what i nid to know now.)

"即使不开心也不要皱眉，因为你永远不知道谁会爱上你的笑容…" (interesting)

"相信他说的话，但不要当真…… 学会虚伪一点，凡是多长心眼……" (perhaps...)

"既然牵手，就不要轻易放开。每个人的爱都是有限的，总是花心的去浪费爱，最终你会发现你已经没了再爱的能力与勇气！"

"不要把时间浪费在上网和看偶像剧上。" (hahahahaha)

"当你说离开是为了不让对方受到伤害的时候，你已经给对方造成了最大的伤害" (agree to a certain extend)

"走路抬头挺胸，遇见不想招呼的人，点头微笑，径直走过。" (xiao sa :))

"当有男生随意伤害你时，保持淡定，告诉自己有一天我要让他跪着求我，但是我绝对不理他."

编后语：当把这44句看完以后，让我茅塞顿开，生活可以说是很简单,也可以说成是很复杂,总的说来是:平凡的生活中充满着乐趣,充满着不平凡. 生活,快乐就行。

QQ always have nice sentences that are meant to be shared. :) All these sentences are wad the person who posted it called 人生哲理.

2011-03-17T15:40:00.004+08:00

倪安東 Anthony - 缠斗
眉頭又瞬間鎖有冷箭快閃躲
猜用意再計算後果選擇攻還是守
關懷不能當控制的藉口小改變我配合大改造別鬧了
愛情像石頭會摩擦起火熱的爭吵
冰冷的互動暖和的相擁唇槍舌劍的快樂來回纏鬥~~~
路人一眼就罵我不快走別人看妳一眼妳馬上笑了
不聽妳的就怪我太自我當妳不聽我的又理由很多
愛情像石頭會摩擦起火熱的爭吵冰冷的互動暖和的相擁來回纏鬥
妳蒙面展開搜索 (若無其事微笑逼問口供)
派耳目一路跟蹤 (誰動作像蝴蝶誰講話太像蜜蜂)
愛情的戰火引爆的溫柔來回纏鬥
很頭痛卻不放手
愛情像石頭會摩擦起火熱的爭吵冰冷的互動暖和的相擁來回纏鬥
愛情像石頭會摩擦起火熱的爭吵冰冷的互動暖和的相擁來回纏鬥
妳蒙面展開搜索 (若無其事微笑逼問口供)
派耳目一路跟蹤 (誰動作像蝴蝶誰講話太像蜜蜂)

I like this song cuz the style is jus weird. Plus it is the theme song for 拍卖 the show on channel u every night 10pm now! Haha! I think the show looks so interesting. Haha, so much better than channel 8 shows. N i love liu zhi xuan! :D

I also added the song stronger to my playlist! N i shall dedicate this song to all 408-ers! No matter whether all of u see it or not, this song is for u! And may 408 grow stronger and stronger! :D Cuz our goal is to get model class this year! :D

Frankly speaking, this new playlist that i m putting up is quite interesting. Normally i like songs that i can relate to or i can understand the feelings the song is trying to convey. But this playlist have a few songs that i dun understand neither can i relate to. BUT the thing is, i actually enjoy the song. Idk why either. For example 缠斗, i dun understand but i do like it.

Here is a little update on my health condition now. As u might have seen on my tagboard, i started having diarrhoea and vomitted yesterday early in the morning before i had the chance to take any food. Which is weird. N i vomitted everything i ate from tues' bsp symposium to my dinner that night. Gross. But weird. It didnt get digested after so many hours? N tad was when i decided to see a doctor. After waiting for hours in the polyclinic, i finally saw the doctor at a time when the polyclinic was supposed to close cuz it was lunchtime. So the doctor saw me and sent me out as soon as she could. That was when i decided i shall b smarter next time and go to the polyclinic at a time when they accept last registration. -.- But from this trip, i found that diarrhoea and stomachaches can cause backaches. O.O interesting huh? So tht was probably wad happened to my back. N after taking the medicine for 2 times, i started having constipation today. -.- Life is jus so ironic, isnt it?

(Tell me if u think the abv para has too much details u feel uncomfortable reading. )

I stupidly decided to eat cup noodles for lunch today due to the lack of choices in the coffeeshop near my house. Now my throat is hurting quite badly. -.- Fyi, instant noodles are fried. N the thing is i didnt really enjoy it today cuz the strong smell actually puts me off and made me feel like vomiting again. All in all, it was a horrible choice. :( this show wad kind of sad life i m leading without my parents. Mummy, i m hungry~ T.T

Btw, a piece of news. The 2 pandas that are gonna be sent to singapore next yr are named kai kai (which means victorious) and jia jia (which means beautiful and fine). U know why i decided to mention this? Cuz kai kai has a name which has similar meanings as mine! :D :D :D Although the kai is probably gonna be a diff kai from mine. Haha!

I shall end here n get down to my work. I have only done the 2 bio as up to now. Fail ttm...

I m deciding whether to go trng tmr. There are ppl who wants me to go and i do want to go cuz i nid some exercise and get in touch with ppl. But my parents told me not to go out unnecessarily and my ah ma has been nagging at me ever since i went to nex that day and reached home only at 8.40pm. Plus she attribute my new health condition to going out late with friends and ate random stuff. -.-

There is a reason why i said being home alone is better than with 2 other ppl.

I cant wait for monday to come.

2011-03-14T14:04:00.002+08:00

To hilary: Yes Mdm! I m here to post!

And to jermia: alright...u r quite hopeless...haiz. i will tell u when i next see u k?

March holiday is here. :( i m leading a sad and depressed march holidays this week. I will explain why later. Let me now talk about last week at the camp.

First 2 days of last week was career conference. A lot of different talks. Some were quite sian, some were quite interesting cuz it really give insights to what kind of job the speakers are actually doing. I especially like the one on forensic pathologists as well as the one on international relations, which means working in the ministry of foreign affairs. Frankly speaking, both speakers didnt really present it in an interesting presentation, but what i like about both of them is u really understood what they were saying and wad they do. Especially the one on forensic pathologists because there were a lot of details. Which i think is how the whole career conference and all the different talks shld b like. That is why we needed a career conference in the first place anyway.

While we were having career conference, the lower sec were running around having their pre-camp activities, while the sec 3 left for their OBS. How i wished i can relived those times. How i wished amist those boring talks, we could have some activities whereby we could run around the school, esp at a time, when we really know the sch really well alr. I guess it will be more fun. And it is like after the sec 3s left, the school suddenly became so much quieter, and so much less like a school. Cuz u dun even see much teachers around. Everyone was jus hiding inside the staffroom. :(

Next, is the graces camp/ armos camp/ barmos camp. I was really amazed at the acronym (forgive me idk how to spell), ARMOS = a respected member of society. -.-

But the main point here is we enjoyed ourselves. Idk for others, but i m quite sure at least 408 enjoyed ourselves. BECAUSE WE CREATED HISTORY IN THIS CAMP!!! BECAUSE 408 SWEPT 3 CLASS AWARDS!!! BECAUSE WE LOVE 408!!! Haha...

Our achievements:
Quoting Vanessa Chan's status on Facebook
"Top for Group Skipping: 88 times
Top for Inter-class games: 38 points!
Most Creative for ARMOS headgear party!
1st prize for ARMOS headgear party!
yep I'm not surprised, because being an 8-er rocks! 8D"

All those status on facebook made me not know how to describe the "rocky-ness" of 408 anymore. So i didnt post anything. All in all, we know deep down in our hearts that 408 rocks! That's good enough! :D :D :D

And take note, 88 and 38 are all related to 8! Because we are from 408!!! :D

Haha. But actually we were all really shocked that we got the 1st prize for ARMOS headgear party. I was initially thinking maybe a 3rd or a 2nd is possible? but when both were announced, i was actually a bit disappointed cuz i really didnt think 408 can make it to the top. We all thought it would be like 406. But when the MC went 4-0-8, all of us stoned for 2 secs. I wasnt even listening closely to the MC, cuz i was totally expecting 6. So when the 8 came out, i was like...................what jus happened? and then some ppl from our class jumped up. Then i was like...OUR CLASS??? Then i jumped up but a bit slow mo cuz still wasnt really sure. Haha, then everyone started urging Gennie to go up the stage cuz she was still in a state of shock. By then i was cheering madly already. All of us didnt want to stop cheering cuz it was seriously so unexpected!!! So unexpected until Ming hui cried. Haha...totally epic!

At first we thought after giving out interclass games de prize shld be the end alr, but never did we know we got more prizes! N NOT 1 MORE BUT 2 MORE! I think everyone was just ecstatic. Such a happy ending!

Although i started this camp quite apprehensively, but i m glad it went well. However, i do insist and maintain wad i said previously. I still hate dressing up and putting make up. So guess wad? For both nights, i didnt put make up!!! Only the 2nd night, i put a bit of lip gloss. Haha! Smart me right, specially bought make up but in the end didnt use. Well, at least i didnt regret.

Quite a few nice photos were taking, photos that i think the not-so photogenic me were quite nice in. :) Haha!

After this camp, i think the whole world knows that our class is obssessed with Mr Khoo. All the screams and shouts whenever Mr khoo appeared on the photo montage at the end of the camp. Haha! At some photos our class even stood up to cheer lah!

And on the 2nd night, weihui and i were looking for Mr khoo to take photos cuz SOME PEOPLE pangseh us and went to take photos with the teachers huh huh huh??? And caused us to miss the photo with SOME TEACHERS ah!!!!! *breathe in* *breathe out* And then by the end of the supposedly photo taking session, we still didnt find mr khoo cuz somehow the teachers jus miraculously all disappeared! Even mrs lai and ms tan also disappeared. -.- Then as we returned to our seats, i suddenly spotted Mr khoo! So weihui and i totally ran in our heels and dashed to mr khoo despite mrs phua telling us to go back to our seats. Haha. Then the funniest thing was when weihui asked mr khoo whether we can take a photo with him, samantha who was with her gang and taking photos with Mr khoo said "No! He is already taken!" Then we went "ehhhhh!!!" Thinking about it now, i think it is quite hilarious. WE WERE ACTUALLY FIGHTING OVER MR KHOO! CAN U IMAGINE THAT? Mr khoo also couldnt stop smiling! Haha! Now he knows how well-loved he is by 408. :)

N this camp was quite a nice time to do some stalking. 我已经是个不折不扣的 stalker 了！-.- Other than stalking this mou mou couple, i also found a new person to observe. This new person jus did it too obviously, plus giving this guilty look. Sry ah, who ask u were around this pro stalker here? hahahaha. but whatever findings i have, i will keep it a secret. At most 1 or 2 more ppl will know. :) I m an ethnical stalker. :)

Ok, holidays is here as i was saying. I m very very troubled. Havent done all my homework. N i still owe my lun wen lao shi a topic and a proposal? Idk what to include in a proposal leh. Troubled troubled.

Havent done any homework yet. Had been suffering from persistent stomachache during the weekend. I was thinking if i swallowed some vaseline after the performance cuz i didnt wash my hands before eating? -.- n last night, it funnily developed into backache that was actually quite bad. I couldnt stand straight even. I had no idea what exactly happened. Fortunately both pains susided today, although i m starting to feel a little strain in my back now again. I guess i nid to stand up and walk around soon. :(

N the most unfortunate thing of all, which is the reason why i hate this holiday is that my parents went overseas. :( so therefore, my sis and i are left to die in singapore. :) So sad. I hv to settle all my meals on my own now. And still have to take care of my sis and my ah ma. But idk is ah ma take care of me or the other way round. Haha!

Haiz...tmr bsp symposium. Sian. I wonder what will happen to my back tmr if i jus sit there for the whole there in hard hard chairs? I hope my back will b well. :l

Ok, i shall end here. This post is definitely long enough for anyone for another week. :) Let's wait for school reopen! I already miss school. :(

2011-03-06T17:01:00.002+08:00

diao diao diao...someone was talking bad about me. i saw 4.44!!!

another week gone and term 1 is ending...haiz. so fast so fast so fast!!!

we only have 3 more terms in ny before graduating...

i m feeling slightly depressed.

i dun really want to leave ny.

haiz...let's talk about last pe lesson with ms sabrina.

Totally historic (in a sense). cuz we have the record number of people getting injured and crying last pe lesson. also in a sense, it is this 1 person's fault. At least a lot of people think that it is only 1 person's fault. Which i dun really agree. jus a difference in terms of perspectives. she technically isnt wrong, she jus takes the game very seriously. that's basically it actually. well, she takes EVERYTHING seriously, except for things she doesnt want to commit herself into. so yeah, then why get so agitated? if u know how she is like. i thought we are pretty used to it alr, and i really think she means no harm.

Anyway, after the pe lesson, i finished changing out of my pe shirt and stood in front of the mirror to tie my hair. she also came out after changing and when our eyes met, i saw her trying to give me a smile for a split second. her usual "smile", but that is how u know that she is making an effort. i mean she is a proud person, she wouldnt apologise cuz she probably didnt think she was wrong. but when people fail to think from others' perspectives, then misunderstanding and conflicts can arise.

In any case, the last pe lesson with ms sabrina ended quite tragically. But to me (and i repeat again, to me ONLY), it is one of the most enjoyable and shiok pe lessons. Of course i dun enjoy seeing ppl getting hurt and crying at the side, but i m jus gonna ignore that and focus only on the games i played. I really like the agressiveness and excitement in each game, esp with gennie in our group, it really makes everything even more exciting. Even though floorball is jus a new game to all of us, but our of us tried to play to the best of our abilities. And it gets more and more exciting, even agressive as times ticked by. And the interesting thing is, our group ended our game with the most agressive group. yep...u can imagine how intense the game were. merely 10 mins, but it is probably one of the most intense and breathtaking 10 mins we ever had. it only takes one tenth of a second to miss the ball and let your opponents win, it only takes u to lose focus for one tenth of a second and your opponents scored. really, instead of focusing on the bad points your games had, why not look at things from another perspective? seriously, u like it when the game is so slow and sian? they merely add excitement in your game. although perhaps too agressive at times, but they meant no harm i m sure.

I guess the most important thing in the end is to learn how to protect yourself. siam when u have to. afterall, it is really only a game. does it really who win or lose?

while we reflect on the past, let's look forward to next week and next term. Career conference, graces and march holidays. Although i m only looking forward to career conference...

But before i look so far to next week, i think i nid to think about how to survive tonight, when i havent even started on my homework that needs to be submitted tmr. -.-

2011-03-01T16:31:00.004+08:00

望着他渐渐离去的背影，心中却是充满了说不出的遗憾。我不断地询问自己，为什么会变成这样？这一切，到底是谁的错？其实，我也不知道。如果时间可以倒转，我是否有办法挽回这一切？

这件事就像是我心中的一道伤疤，不小心碰到的话会很痛，别人无意地提起时，也一样会隐隐作痛。可是不管我再怎么做，这道伤疤也不可能会康复。我只能尽量地忽视它，当作一切都没事。

我昨天才看到了那封写给我的信。信中你叫我不要后悔自己所做出的决定，不要因此而留下永不磨灭的遗憾。你叫我应该为了自己而去努力。可是，一切都已经太迟了。我已经被人宣判了死刑。我除了安然地接受这一切，当作这是为我的行为而付出的代价，我还能怎么做？但是，错的真的是我吗？难道，我不也是受害者之一吗？

或许要是我早点看到这封信，我不会这么难过。正因为事情已经是无法往回了，那句忠告才显得更加讽刺。我的伤疤就像是又重新地裂开。。。

我不知道我会用多少的时间去擦拭这些泪痕，但是我知道就算不会再痛，不会再流血，这道伤疤也一样会存在，会在我生命里流下一个不可磨灭的污点。执着也好，看开也罢。总之，遗憾终究还是遗憾。

我想说的是，其实有些东西就算是你已经尽量地去避免了，但不是每样事都能在你掌控之中。这，或许就是命运吧。

这一次，轮到我转身离开了。在我走后，你是否还会记得我？你是否还会偶尔想起我的好？虽然我不会知道答案，虽然你可能不会，但是你永远会随着这份遗憾，这份记忆，被锁进我心里。

谢谢你曾经给我的机会。谢谢你曾经对我的用心。谢谢你让我开心过，也伤心过。

2011-02-27T22:30:00.002+08:00

looking at the photos of the shanghai trip last year (cuz audrey posted the photos jus now), i suddenly have this mild 又酸又痛 feeling. 心痛的感觉。。。

原来我还在思念那段时光。

actually i m not really looking forward to the beijing trip. cuz i m very scared that the beijing trip wont be as memorable/ nice/ fun/great as the shanghai n nanjing trip last year. all those photos reminded me of the people that created those happy memories worth savouring for a lifetime. and some of these people...will no longer be around for this beijing trip...by this, i actually meant more of the teachers than anyone else. people like mdm lee, zheng lao shi, mr ang n mr tan...

not that i dun like mr khoo or anything. but no matter how caring mr khoo can be, he will not be able to be like mdm lee and zheng lao shi. <3 all those barley drink and green bean soup.

esp. this time round, we have much more serious business to do. plus the time for it is shorter.

haiz haiz...i dun wan to think abt it anymore.

actually the whole GCP trip that is worth remembering the most is the nanjing trip. <3 mr ang for all the planning. <3 geng lao shi for all the tour-guiding and photo-takin cum taking jump shots with us.

therefore, i hv decided that at all cost/ time, i m gonna haunt dili down for all the photos we took in nanjing! i rmb we even took a photo with chen lao shi!

haha, speaking of chen lao shi. i m sry to say that the most 深刻印象 that i have of her, is the first night when she taught us how to fold our blankets and something really 尴尬 happened. n i totally can still rmb mr tan and mr ang's expressions. ahahahaha. i m sry. but the thing is, i really thought chen lao shi is very pretty. this is true. really.

haiz...thinking of all those memories. i jus rmb that in the end, i didnt deliver the post on this trip which i have promised. i didnt even finish writing it down in my diary. too too too much things to record. haiz. i alr wrote like 10 plus pgs on my diary but i still have a lot a lot of stuff i hvnt finished writing. in the end, before i stopped the last time, i actually wrote down all the stuff tad i wan to record in point form so that i can rmb wad to write the next time i decide to continue. but in the end, i didnt continue after so long. that is the prob when u decide to lock your diary in a drawer that u hardly open n hide your key in somewhere that even u forget sometimes. haiz...i m being paranoid. cuz my sis used to look for it and read it.

11.11!

ok, i shall end. hereby, i conclude that i hv wasted another weekend on nth more than stalking. :)

2011-02-24T21:20:00.003+08:00

I always spend a lot of time doing silly stuffs/ being silly/ making myself more silly. Haiz haiz haiz.

Today is an unlucky. i shant explain. so gross. and i shall end it here.

2011-02-21T23:08:00.002+08:00

I found some nice sentences :)

不要轻易说爱，许下的承诺就是欠下的债！

如果我爱上你的笑容要怎麽收藏、要怎么去拥有？

是你苍白了我的等待，讽刺了我的执着。

那些曾经以为念念不忘的事,就在我们念念不忘的过程里被我们遗忘了。

在这个匆忙与现实的世界里，张望着重复着，习惯着而又疲倦着，同一辆车，相同的风景。

用最深刻的伤害，来表达最深刻的爱。

我一生中最幸运的两件事：一件，是时间终于将我对你的爱消耗殆尽；一件，是很久很久以前有一天，我遇见你……

你知不知道，思念一个人的滋味，就象欣赏一种残酷的美，然后用很小很小的声音，告诉自己坚强面对……

我喜欢你，很久了；我等你，也很久了。现在，我要离开，比很久很久还要久……

在一起叫梦，分了叫痛，是不是，说：没有做完的梦，最痛，我承受了结果。能不能给我一首歌的时间，紧紧的拥抱，变成永恒！

寂寞的人总是记住生命中出现的每一个人，正如我总是意犹未尽地想起你！

总有一天我会从你身边默默地走开，不带任何声响。我错过了很多，我总是一个人难过。

我不喜欢说话却每天说最多的话，我不喜欢笑却总笑个不停，身边的每个人都说我的生活好快乐，于是我也就认为自己真的快乐。可是为什么我会在一大群朋友中突然地就沉默,为什么在人群中看到个相似的背影就难过，看见秋天树木疯狂地掉叶子我就忘记了说话,看见天色渐晚路上暖黄色的灯火就忘记了自己原来的方向……

开始的时侯，我们就知道，总会有终结。

世界上没有未完的故事，只有未死的心。

有的人与人之间的相遇就像是流星，瞬间迸发出令人羡慕的火花，却注定只是匆匆而过。

人生最遗憾的，莫过于，轻易地放弃了不该放弃的；固执地，坚持了不该坚持的……

爱情本来并不复杂，来来去去不过只有三个字，不是“我爱你”、“我恨你”，那便是“算了吧”、“你好吗？”、“对不起”。

我还在原地等你，你却已经忘记曾来过这里。

要有多坚强，才敢念念不忘。

你是我猜不到的不知所措，我是你想不到的无关痛痒

习惯难受，习惯思念，习惯等你，可是却一直没有习惯看不到你。

哀莫过于心不死。

2011-02-20T17:43:00.002+08:00

lolol...i jus realised after deleting some of my draft posts, my number of posts has decreased. which means the previous post isnt 171th post anymore. Oh well, heck care. It doesnt mean anything to me anymore anyway. :)

hmm...went shopping with weihui and jermia ytd and bought my heels! haha! super happy and satisfied with the heels. But it makes me really tall. i think it is about 2 and a half inch? I think mine is called a wedge...hmm..not sure.

Then after tht i came back and tried on the dress i bought previously, i m starting to not like the dress although i never really liked it anyway. The colour is actually darker than i thought it is. Hmm...haiz...troublesome. Plus i still have 1 dress havent settled. I want to faint..and i still need to settle it before thur, 24 feb?

Another week past silently. Birthday week still equals to any other week. This weekend was especially slack cuz i totally havent done any hw. :( not even reflection for war. damn it. tmr still have chem spa...

oh yes. i was notified my zhi dao lao shi for my lun wen and i was feeling quite upset. I think i have said this lots of times but for the benefit of those reading my blog secretly without tagging, let me repeat this again. I thought i know all the teachers in the chinese dept but in the end, i realised that i dun. Cuz i got a teacher that i didnt know (actually is vaguely know). haiz...so i feel very sad. Cuz there is this huge uncertainty that i m about to face and even if i dun like her i will have to endure it to next january. which is about a year. haiz..moreover, i havent settled my lun wen ti mu yet. Screw my life.

But oh well, good teachers/ nice teachers/ teachers u prefer are hard to come by especially when u are not in somebody's good books. yeah... most ppl didnt really get the teachers they wanted i think. but most are generally ok. actually i m generally ok with mine too. but let's wait till i meet her and she will see how slack and unmotivated am i. I think it is not worth it to give me a good teacher too. :)

hmm...ook. i shall end it here. Nth much to say for this week. :)

一个没有梦想的人就像是没有灵魂，永远飘流在万紫千红的世界里找不到依托，找不到心灵的归宿。你找到梦想了吗？因为我还没。。。

2011-02-15T23:04:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me
happy birthday to me~
happy birthday to me!

Haha. This is my 171th post and i made it a point to post this post today.

First of all, i m going to dedicate the first part of this post to hilary in reply to her tag. Feel honoured ok? I decide to elaborate although it is quite late into the night alr. N i hvnt finish my bio which needs to be done by tmr.

It is about my perspective on birthday. Actually, as we are celebrating bdaes, wad are we actually celebrating? We are celebrating the birth of this person, celebrating the joy of welcoming this new life. What are the wishes for? The wishes are hopes, for the best for this new born, so that this child can fulfill expectations of everyone that loves him or her and hopefully become this someone that will bring pride to his or her parents, etc. As we are celebrating birthday, i think we shldnt forget why we even exist. Your birthday is the day you were borned years ago, the day that u brought hope to people around u, especially your parents. So yeah, therefore, i feel that it is perfectly normal to think about the purpose of your existence in this world. :)

And on a side note, while we are celebrating birthdays, i think we should think about who is the one that really suffered on this day. Your mum! It was your mum enduring 10 months of pregnancy and hours of pain before bringing you into this world. So if you are really grateful for being alive on this world, thank your mum on your birthday and your dad as well. :) 饮水思源!

Now for the 2nd part of this post, to what i really want to say before midnight strikes and my birthday is gone. The reason why i insisted on posting this 171th post on my birthday is because, after today, i will change into a better person (hopefully). This is sth like a new year resolution but it came a bit late and since it is my birthday, it does represent a new year to me too.

After today, i m going to forget some of the significance of 171 to me. There are a lot of significances, not jus a bus number. I believe i have actually done it alr, but jus to make it officially. And after today, i will try to become a better person by controlling more on what i say. And become nicer! Although actually ah, i think i m already quite a nice person le! Haha! :p

I think i rmb posting once before saying that sometimes being yourself can be hard. And yes, i would like to repeat it again today. And now i guess the person that told me to be myself will think twice about giving me the same piece of advice this time. :) I think you know who you are.

3rd part of the post shall be dedicated to all the people who wished me happy birthday and prepared birthday presents for me! (i said prepared cuz there are people who forgot to bring the gift or forgot to pass it to me today! ><) Haha!

I sincerely thank all those who took the effort to send your wishes. And some names to mention: The first person who wished me happy birthday (early birthday actually) was lanying on thur and jiaxing yesterday. And if u consider wingshan's unique smses last night too. The first person whom i heard wishing me happy birthday was myself, that was like the first thing i told myself this morning. And then it was my mum. :D First sms i received this morning was from shannon, then it was samantha (i was surprised!) and wenli. First person to wish me happy birthday this morning in class was sinlie and then weihui (who told me jermia forgot to bring my present)! Haha. Then the 2 birthday songs sang for me this year were both by my batchmates, once during recess and once after school! Oh yes! First wish on fb was by this person whom actually idk. Then it was gin. :) First present this year is from qian yu! :) she never fails to rmb my birthday, really!

Yes. i made the effort to rmb. All the firsts at least. :)

And then i received presents from jessica wei, my nice nice junior really! And from puilin, sinlie and woon yee! :) Haha and of course the birthday cake by my batchmates! :D

Sincere thanks to all! Even those names i didnt mention, i thank u too! Just for remembering and making effort to send me a wish! :D A lot of facebook wishes from old friends that i thought wont send me anything! Really surprised although it might jus be the reminder from facebook but oh well, at least better than nothing right?

But even with all the thanks, at the back of my mind, there are people whom i wish i have heard from. i m not going to mention anything but yes a little disappointed.

I m going to end it here! Thanks to all those once again, for making my birthday an enjoyable one! :D

2011-02-14T18:15:00.003+08:00

我到了今天才深深地了解到原来一个自然，自信的笑容能让一个人好看很多很多。加上今天所穿的衣服相当适合这位某人。再加上距离产生美。别无他意，但是这真的增加了几分魅力。唯一的缺点是眼神始终是有一点怪怪的，表情有一点僵硬，不过看得出是真心的。:)

Today is Valentine's day! Happy valentine's day to all! ~Love and happiness is in the air~

The world is filled with presents and chocolates today. I never knew nanyang girls are so into valentine's day... sec 1 and sec 2 we were jus -.- since our class was the well-known nerdy class. Last year valentine's day was cny so no school. This year, i got a shocked! The moment i stepped into class, i saw so many chocolates and gifts on everyone's tables! The way everyone is sending out love and happiness made me guilty, for not doing anything. So i sincerely thanks everyone who gave me something today! :) But nonetheless, i still dun think it is really necessary to give out something for everyone u love today, especially when we are just friends. Today is a day for couples! Not for some silly little children who hasnt got valentines to give presents for! >< Although yes, i do love chocolates! hehe! :)

Today is super hilarious! Mr tay came into class and totally out of norm, he told us that today when he woke up his wife asked him "Dear, what special place are we going to celebrate valentine's day today?" Then he realised that today is valentine's day! Haha! When i heard the word "dear", i was like "mr tay, u dun hv to let us know what your wife calls u -.-". Then this is not the end, he said while thinking of where to go for dinner, he thought of hawker centre! But he scared later his wife say he cheapo! Then sinlie totally suan him and said"Cheapo! Then u all go hawker centre eat what? chicken rice?" Then Mr tay replied "What? It's 爱心鸡饭"！Omg! so so so hilarious! Then later there was some more random conversations between mr tay and sinlie which made the whole class laughed! I cant exactly rmb wad sinlie said to mr tay alr, then mr tay said sth like "I m like being ....by some high power". Then sinlie said "i know i m high and mighty!" Then mr tay said "I know u learn judo, gash...i i i m...scared". Then he started stammering...super funny! I cant believe that mr tay is afraid of sinlie! ><

Then the next thing tad came to my mind while recalling this was Mr tay must be really troubled and depressed about tonight's dinner that he started telling us so much random stuff and joking around. Haha! Then everyone was so restless and high and laughing joking around and...weird. Shumin said it may be cuz of the chocolates. But oh well, today is just...weird.

Even ms chee was being extra-ly funny! She was talking about adrenaline rush can block pain. Then she cited an example. She said this morning, she was climbing the rockwall n while saying, she was making all the funny gestures. Then she said she was having this of adrenaline rush and was being high/happy/excited wadever, that she was at the top. And after coming down, then she realised that she probably knocked into somewhere and had a bruise although she had no idea how she got it. Haha!

Hohoho...tmr is my birthday! :) i m sort of anticipating it but not really excited over it. Every year, i will be thinking of the same thing on my bdae. Who will rmb my bdae this year? Who will give me a present? What presents will i receive?

Holy crap....i jus received 36 smses from wu wing shan at one go telling me that it is my birthday in another 2 hrs and 50 mins....-.- it took 3 mins for all the smses to reach me and it took me almost 5 mins to finish looking through all the sms. -.- so unique and creative huh?

oh well, let me continue. Yes, at the end of my birthday every year, i will tell myself, it is just another day, another ordinary day. I havent found my purpose of coming to this world, but i hope i will soon and i hope i will be useful.

I guess i have ranted enough. I kind of have a weird feeling about things. I have a feeling something is not right. Suddenly my jnrs know my bdae which is like O.O

Ok! After so many hours, i have get anything done. I m so gonna die tmr...

2011-02-11T23:24:00.004+08:00

I read this Mind Your Body article a couple of weeks ago. It is on procrastination. "Why procrastinate?" the author asked. I believe many people have been asking this question. Why?

The author quoted this sentence from philosophy professor john perry of stanford university, "Many procrastinators do not realise that they are perfectionists, for the simple reason that they have never done anything perfectlyor even nearly so".

Make sense? I thought about it and realised maybe i m one of them too. It is a well-known fact that i m a procrastinator. If i m not very near to the deadline (死线) , there is probably no way i will have the sense of urgency to finish it. Especially when i dunno how to do the piece of work. Nonetheless, i do wan to complete the work to the best of my abilities. But i rarely really submitted great work.

I suddenly dun feel like ranting about it anymore. My main purpose was jus to publish the quote, which i think it might be quite true.

Currently suffering from a real bad muscle ache. I think it is the worst in the history of my life. :( I hv been screaming in agony everytime i stood up after sitting down for sometime, to greet teachers and stuff esp. when we see this teacher like so many times a day and we still had to greet everytime she came in and left. ><><

Generally nothing much this week. A lot of people's birthday only. 8 feb was puilin's. and we gave her this huge dog! :) and 10 feb was anab and milian's. 11 feb is wen di, wen li and mr lim's birthday! 12 feb is dorcas and megan's and 14 feb is yixing, jiaxin and valen's birthday. Finally, 15 feb is my birthday! :) Then after that still have sinlie's bdae on 23 feb. haha! so many feb babies! :)

I guess i have nothing else to say. the teachers are weird. They are alternating the homework load. every 2 weeks 1 cycle. and this weekend is the peak again. -.-'''

So how? shall i procrastinate again?

Goodnight everybody! :)

2011-02-02T15:01:00.003+08:00

倪安東 Anthony - 藏起來

把你眼中的塵埃落向大海
旋轉木馬的小孩搖搖擺擺要離開
掌聲喝采祝你一路沿途愉快帶著幸福回來
有人相愛有人夜裡開車看海天亮了就是未來
如果重來
把心藏起來
把夢藏起來
把你藏起來
把愛藏起來
把笑容藏起來
把淚藏起來
說bye bye bye bye
一切應該是安排不是意外 (沒有意外)
過去現在穿越整座城市醒來沒有人記得傷害
我們相愛最後又分開
一個人的海一片落葉能夠走到多遠未來
把心藏起來
把夢藏起來
把你藏起來
我們說bye bye
把笑容藏起來
把淚藏起來
說bye bye Bye bye

<3 ni an dong! :D

有时候，到了必要的时候，放手或许才是最好的选择。。。
不用笑，也不用哭，或许只要默默地守候就好。。。

2011-02-02T12:12:00.005+08:00

stop stop stop stop STOPPP!!!!!!!!!!

Sometimes people say things happen for a reason, but i beg to differ. Sometimes things happen for NO particular reason!

For eg. there is this person who knows me and takes the same bus as me. I dun meet this person everyday now, but i used to. Even though we know each other, even though we have plenty of opportunities to see each other, we still walked past each other like strangers, occassionally staring at each other trying to decipher what each other is thinking.

Another eg. I have this "friend" who takes same bus as me. This person waved and sometimes smiled when we meet. But there is nothing else. A wave plus hardly a smile...what is the point of it? I think it is pretty meaningless, why do you still bother to do it? As a matter of fact, if a relationship is reduced to only a little wave and hardly a smile, there is seriously no point in maintaining it. I probably wouldnt really consider the person as a friend anymore. It is just so pointless.

Another eg. I often meet this person around in school, waved a little, awkwardly smile a little and then? Walk past each other. Really what is the point?

If a person's smile to u is sincere, then perhaps there is a good chance that the person is still happy to see you. Although perhaps you all were never really good friends that chat with each other. But if the smile was so awkward, so forced, so fake...then you might as well jus not make your facial muscles work.

刚才一个人走回家，发现其实虽然是新年，但我却一点也感觉不到欢腾的气氛。街道上大多数的店都关门了，没几个行人，感觉格外地冷清。走到楼下的咖啡店时，看见整个咖啡店空无一人，铁门紧锁。平日嘈杂声不断，人来人往的咖啡店，如今像死城一样地寂静，甚至荒凉，让人看了，难免觉得有点忧伤。

今年的新年让我觉得格外地惆怅，今年一家人又少了不少人，离开的离开，出国的出国，吵架的吵架。一起吃团圆饭的人也少了。团圆饭本应该是一家人一起开开心心地吃的，春节本应该是一家庭团圆的好日子的。可如今大家各奔东西，就算是聚在一起，但心里却已无这个家了，那又何谓家呢？那又有何意义呢？

春节本应该是充满欢乐与温馨的日子，到了最后却变成了来拜年，只是在完成你的义务与责任。何苦呢？

刚刚在学校庆祝春节，虽然大多数人都显得很开心，但是如果注意去看，多少人眼底隐藏的是寂寞与无奈？人去楼空时，有多少人还徘徊在走廊上，不知何去何从？

today is the chinese new year celebration, hui chun was epic for our class cuz really none of us was there to hun chun. we were like having a picnic there with mr tay's potato chips. all of us jus doodle on the papers, some even use markers. totally is cant be bothered man! i dun even bother bringing the paper to quadrangle. But still, we managed to produce a masterpiece! It is 408's class flag with everyone's name on it! We hang it in the classroom but the ink made the whole classroom smells mouldy! ><

performance was also awesome! co percussion was amazing, chinese dance was damn traditional, new year quiz was a bit diao but i won something, wushu was cool (for the first time, i think hilary was super cool! haha!), modern dance was messy but great and last but not least choir was fantastic too! :D

yesterday was a mad day too, for the first time in my 3 years and 1 month of education in nanyang, i hv never had one day that we didnt hv any lesson in classroom at all. PE, chinese lecture, bio lab, recess, SIL, LA at com lab and physics lab. Haha. But i stayed in class after sch to do work. :)

Monday was also epic, heavy rain+bad traffic= me stuck in bus for 2 whole freaking hours + 15 mins late for math lesson. LOL. Record breaking seriously! 1 hr journey became 2hrs...amazing. Haiz...oh well. at least the good thing is i got to miss part of math. muahahaha. freaking cold the previous days, it rained for 2 or 3 days straight and it was jus deadly. Super cold, super wei, mood super bad. Dampen the whole cny spirit although for me, there was not much spirit to start with. Lol...

Hmm..i dun really hv anything else to say. Hmm...let me jus wish everyone happy new year! :D

To jermia: 祝你五福临门，财临家门！:D HAHAHAHA!

2011-01-29T22:30:00.006+08:00

你有没有遇过一个人，不管他做什么，都会让你觉得匪夷所思？你会不停一遍又一遍地重复想着或思考着他的每个动作，每个表情，每个眼神，每一句话。可是不管你想多少次，你都看不透，想不透，猜不透。但你却无法停止思考着他的用意何在。他就像一个谜团，一个你或许永远没有机会揭开的谜团。不过，也正是因为他的身上总是笼罩着一团迷雾，你才会觉得他特别有吸引力，也特别想要走进去了解他。最后才醒过来，发现原来一切还是一场空。只是现在，还是有点不能自拔。明明是知道结局是什么的。。。

我说的“他”只不过是在指人，并无性别之分。

shores of no return...has gone off searching AGAIN. i think he still couldnt fufill his wish of finally sailing back to shore with his loved one. (i wonder how many people actually understand this sentence.)

oh well, that was just a bit of emo-ing and 感慨。

week 4 of term 1. I m looking forward to the chinese new year break, so that i can really take a good break and to stop myself from reminiscing so much on a past that will probably never continue into the present and future.

speaking of a good break, i will tell u why i need it so much. For the past 4 weeks, i hv no idea why, but i somehow managed to drag till 11.30pm or till 12 midnight, before i could finish up things to be done or decided that i was seriously too tired to continue. There were times when there were not a lot of work, but i jus didnt manage to sleep early. Therefore, which means that i only got at most 6 hrs of sleep on normal sch days. Seriously, WHAT THE HELL WAS I DOING? Idk...

so i hv been surviving though feeling lack of sleep, and surprisingly this year, i hv reduced the amount of time spent rubbing my eyes and battling with my heavy eyelids. :D i also thought that i hv become slightly smarter this year! muahahaha! at least i m trying to work hard and do my best this year. but i guess before that, i hv to learn to stop wasting time. oh well, shu min was still telling me that i am so inefficient on friday. :(

speaking of the lack of sleep, i was super blur this week. we were supposed to do ih timed trial 2 qns 1a on tuesday, and 1b by fri. I actually went to submit my qns paper with my 1a ans. When i finally rmb that i still need it for 1b, i was -.- to myself. i m so used to submitting qns paper with ans. haha. so i had to get it back from mr tay. seriously, i m starting to like mr tay more and more. as a teacher of course! haha, he is seriously too responsible. when i went to ask him for my qns paper, he didnt give me the "you-are-so-blur" look. then he told me to get it from him during recess and he will put it in his pigieon hole. then i thought he wouldnt hv put it in so quickly, so i decided to go eat first before getting it. while i was still queuing for my food, shu min passed me the paper and said that he left it in his pigeon hole alr. what stunned/shocked/surprised me the most is that he actually wrote my name on my paper! perhaps to make sure i know that is my own paper? seriously, if it is some other teachers, they would hv long forgotten about it. Plus when i told him, we jus had our first lesson of the day. he is the first teacher that ever remembers requests like this. :D so i wasnt wrong when i wrote responsible in his teachers' day card last year. at that time, i doubted my own words. :D

other than that, we also visited the kranji war memorial on tue. haha. mr tay again. his outfit MUS MENTION! seriously, he was wearing perfectly nice shirt and pants during lesson. and when the bell rang, he poof! and when he appeared again, he showed up in shorts and a few umbrellas. -.- uncle ttm...haha! i seriously hope no teacher will see this. a bit not suitable for publishing. but still, it is jus to inject some laughter into our dead boring life isnt it? When i saw him that afternoon, i almost burst out laughing right there and then in front of him. Although i kind of expected this kind of appearance, but it was still damn funny.

but the war memorial wasnt that funny anymore. it was solemn and peaceful. i kind of like the war memorial. i hv never felt so peaceful in any place before (with the expection of that little hill in nanjing and the nanjing massacre museum). the place is like a very nice garden, green and white are perfect colour combination. But the sad thing is, in there lies thousands of tombs of people who sacrified for singapore. it didnt really make me very sad or emotional because i couldnt be helped but reminded that this is part of national education. i m not against national education or anything but i jus dun really like it. all in all, that kranji war memorial trip didnt really spark any nationalistic ideals in me, but it did tell me how much people actually once fought for singapore. it made me ponder, if singapore is to go into war again, would i hv the courage to fight with singapore and even sacrifice for my homeland? i dont know. i cant really expect what i will do until i really feel the fear, the tension and the death coming, can i?

haha, i m reminded of mr tay again. he gave us this packet of food during the kranji trip. in the end, nobody opened it and even when he came into class on thurs, he ignored it. so on friday afternoon, when puilin said she was hungry, i opened it up and we ate it. I thought it tasted ok, only a little spicy but all the others said it tasted weird. Oh well, it is still lying in the blue bag on the whiteboard ledge, waiting for someone to pick it up on monday morning. :D I hope it hasnt 漏风 during the weekend. ><

I guess it is time for me to sleep. it is almost 12.30 am and i wasted ytd away AGAIN. i failed to complete even 1 piece of homework. Initially i wanted to finish my math on friday night, but i went to watch autumn concerto on channel u. then i wanted to do it on sat morning, but i was reading newspapers and went to look for materials to do LA. so i came to do LA and wasted all afternoon doing some stalking.

Oh yes! stalking! i stalked mo lao bao and found out exactly how deep his love for zou yan actually was. haha. more details other time!

time to sleep!

或许只能有缘做你生命中短暂的过客，那么就愿你能成为我心里的那片浮云，飘到真正属于你的天空与未来。

Why does 11.10 always takes so long to come but 11.11 so quickly gone?

2011-01-29T22:14:00.003+08:00

IH raft- parody of 橄榄树

不要笑我这么黑
我的家就在coal mine
为什么在我家
在我的家烧碳

为了中国的GDP
为了提供你们能量
为了人民的幸福
在我的家烧碳

还有还有
为了全球种种的需求，的需求
拜托不要在烧碳
制造很多污染
所以要采取措施
让空气更新鲜
Cut down on CO2
改善健康健康~

It was seriously hilarious when we sang it. I nvr really noticed mr tay's reaction cuz i wasnt facing the class. I was facing zouyan instead. Even she was laughing quite uncontrollably. Haha! I never knew there can be such fun IH lessons especially with a teacher like Mr tay. But oh well, i do love him as a teacher! I will say why later.

This song brings back lots of memories. All those days when we were wandering around nanjing. How we sang songs while we walk to chase away all the fatigue. How we used the laughters to break the awkward silence. How we fooled around, held each other's arms and walked like drunkards inviting stares from all around. How we crapped and joked around to make geng lao shi laugh. How he told us lame jokes to make us all shut up....

memory...u r a powerful thing. u change our moods in an instant. u change our perspectives all of a sudden. and most importantly, u change how our hearts beat.

2011-01-23T11:21:00.003+08:00

Another 2 wks have past, time flies...

Life has been unexpectedly easy this year (at least for the past 3 wks). but jus as i was saying that, homework started piling in all tgt. The amount of hw this weekend including monday's homelearning is wow! the whole homework list on our class whiteboard is full! and i m the one that filled it up...i felt accomplished! haha...

i was pretty preoccupied these few days cuz i hv been chiong reading 微微一笑很倾城. very entertaining and diao! But the storyline not exactly very attractive. (let's keep it within the walls of this blog...i scared later woon yee and ming hui will come and heck me). I dun really like the ending cuz it lost the kind of coherrence and link between the start and the ending...like u read read read and suddenly u realised u ended up in another world.

but the book is seriously entertaining...all those conversations! 气死人不偿命!!! haha...i hv been reading in class these few days and when people are like listening attentively (or so i thought), i would suddenly burst out laughing! then shu min and lao bao will turn around to look at me...

diao si le! But the main point is here: I FINISHED READING THE BOOK IN 3 DAYS!!! THIS IS A RECORD FOR ME!!!! :D HAHA! so happy...300 plus pages in 3 days is a never before for me..really. :D

other than that, nothing really happened. I was quite bored without training so i hv been staying in school every afternoon alone to either do work, read books or use the class com. Jus to stay around and waste time. So i hv been sleeping really late every night cuz i always ended up doing hw till late in the night. :( i m never efficient and can never bring myself to be efficient.

Hmm...i m trying very hard to recall stuff that happened these 2 weeks but i cant rmb...

oh yeah..the briefings on lifeskills camp. Hmm...i guess i nid to spend quite some time on it. Hate it...so much preparation needed to be done esp when i m someone who normally dun do this kind of stuff. It is challenging for me..really. N my mum cant help me much, because she is also someone who dun doll up. She doesnt even use cosmetics...

Oh well...i jus rmb i still hvnt reply shengting's email...i was still searching for the stupid song that carson wang sang during the new year party which contains bad stuff. Haiz...cuz shengting asked me to go search for it if i dun understand...but i really dun wan to read through all the stuff that people put up. :( i guess she will hv to wait a while longer for her email. But some of the stuff she replied to others were funny...esp. the one to jermia saying tad the chung cheng girls also didnt think carson wang is the shuai-est and thought chen xiao meng is. He said that is it really cuz chen xiao meng dun drool??? Exasperated tone...haha but damn funny! :D

hmm...oh well since i hv nth to say i might as well jus end here. Many people's birthdays are approaching..while i will scratch my head and think hard of wad to give them. I actually have quite a good idea on mind, but i dun really know how to do it. N i dun really know who would appreciate it...so i guess i shant waste my time. It will be very dishardening to find out tad some people are jus not the type who appreciates nice nice stuff while u actually spent lots of time on it. And this type of gift if u give too much, it lacks sincerity and surprise. Therefore, if there is a chance, i would only try it one time and on a person that i truly think will appreciate the gift. As for now, while i m still very busy with my work, i shall jus stick to the basics and give those gifts that i think will be truly useful to them. :D To me, practical is more important than looks.

2011-01-08T18:10:00.004+08:00

I hvnt posted for more than a month when I HAD SO MUCH SO MUCH TO SAY!

I think that's the prob, it took me sooooo long to go and try and write out my shanghai journey that I couldnt post abt other things. So i hv decided to try and forget it first and talk abt my holiday, after this post i will go and sort out what i should hv written more than a month ago. :)

After coming back from china, i went to malaysia. For the first time in my life! haha, a bit unbelievable but believe it. 3D2N. A bit of malacca, and KL, mainly genting. :) quite an interesting experience, to see the differences between malaysia and Singapore. KL, which is like the capital of malaysia, needs some major transformation. The jam there is seriously deadly...
I dun wan to talk abt malaysia alr...

Then after that whole holidays were mainly slacking, training and lots of harry potter. I finished reading books 1 to 4 within 2 weeks. (If i didnt rmb wrongly) Amazing acomplishment totally! But i felt a bit empty after i stopped reading cuz i dun hv the 5th book. Totally saddened when i couldnt go and watch the deathly hallows in cinema. But cant help it, all i can say is that i dun hv affinity with it. Hopefully when the 2nd part of it comes out in cinema, i can watch part 1 on channel 5. :)

My holidays ended sooner than i thought it would last. Hvnt exactly rested or anything then it ended. Mostly because of the trainings that i have to go. Even if i ponned i will still feel quite uneasy until the trng ends. :( but now they dun nid me anymore and i only need to go once a week. Although i hv always expected it to come, still when it did, it jus dun feel good. Although yes, i really dun feel like training, i really wan to go home to rest/do homework/ stone.

Supposedly 4 years, but mine ended in 3 years. After 3 years, no achievement, no accomplishment, not even any sense of satisfaction out of it. Felt like a waste of time. But still, if anyone asks me if i ever regretted, my ans will be no. I m only disappointed and saddened by how it turned out. I didnt stop training simply because i didnt want to. I know maybe the coaches might blame me, might think i m a slacker, no difference from those snrs who used to always came to slack and play. But there was once, i really put in effort to train, put in time to train. How many times i went home, aching, sweating? How many times my legs ached till i had to jump down the stairs because my legs jus cannot bend properly? How many times have i reached home at 7 plus with an empty stomach, envious of those who had alr started dinner? How many times in the morning when i woke up and the first thing i realised was pain? Nope, i m not asking for sympathy or anything. I admit that even though there were times like those, even then , i hv never put in my very best to train, to compete. It jus wasnt my deepest desire to achieve great results in this. There were numerous reasons why it ended like this. Fault from all parties, but of course mainly myself. I could hv prevented it ending so tragically but i didnt bother. Perhaps even if i tried, the results wont be really any much better. Perhaps the improvement will be that i wont be deemed as a slacker, deemed as someone useless, someone without the heart to learn, someone who refused to admit defeat, someone who had perhaps chose the wrong cca or even worse a failure. I hv never really told anyone why it ended up this way, because after everything, it is still mainly my fault. Perhaps maybe, if i chose another cca, it would hv ended differently. Maybe, jus maybe...but i will never know the alternative.

Sch has started for 4 days alr. I felt more tired than ever for a long long time. Probably cuz i slept too much alr. I felt as though we have jus gone through a few months of lessons alr. Lol...how pathetic. Maybe it is cuz of the FAMILIARITY! Omg seriously! Those teachers tad i didnt wan remained and those that i dun mind having changed! I kinda expected that. BUT STILL!!! 老天！！！为什么要这样对我？？？ How can u refused to change even 1?! Damn...(but of course, the one teacher that i really want badly to stay did stay. :))

As usual, we welcomed the sec 1s. New little sec 1s. I m not gonna say that they are cute, but they are shy, generally. I was on duty for the sports trial on wed and had to stay in the sun for almost 3 hrs. And saw lots of poor sec 1s running, throwing, jumping on the track under the merciless sun. People like us 心甘情愿 stay under the sun cuz of our feelings towards our cca, but poor sec 1s are sent out into the sun on their 2nd day of sch, when they still havent develop a liking for anything in sch yet. But some were rather naughty. Like there was this incident: they had to run after trying for throws, then they were reluctant to run, and alicia said "hurry up run! i roll also faster than u all run!" Then one of sec 1s said "Really? Show me!" Haha...damn funny!And we found a few not bad juniors, hopefully we can get them in to join us. Get more super juniors! :D

The one other thing that left a deep impression on me for this week is Mr ang and his smile. Seriously...we have been meeting him along corridors and around sch. He was so friendly and all smiley when he saw us, even waved to some of us. But it is seriously awkward, idk whether to smile/ greet/ wave/ wadever. Then bao bao and i met him on several occasions when we walked tgt. Funny, awkward. Fri after sch we saw him again jus outside the canteen. I was first to see him then i turned around and told baobao, baobao turned and saw him and he was smiling and waving as usual, then bao bao waved and smiled back. I didnt turn my head to look at him (feel kind of bad that i did that since he was really nice). Then bao bao told me this: "how come when i walk with weihui i dun see him, walk with you then i will see him?" And i was like "What?! this is not like my fault?"

All in all, this week is still not bad. Everything is as usual, with occasional little sparks and laughters to help create a little fun in our otherwise mundane lives. I think we jus have to live with this for the rest of the year. While i continuing cherishing my remaining life in nanyang. :)

2010-12-04T18:07:00.000+08:00

听着熟悉的音乐响起，我才明白原来我还没忘记。心中突然有种激动在沸腾。。。

突然想到这首歌：
曾经拥有
天荒地老
已不见你
暮暮与朝朝

这一份情
永远难了
愿来生还能
再度拥抱。

回忆过去
痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来波动我心跳

缘难了，情难了。。。

回忆这六个星期以来的经历，绝对是精彩，绝对是难忘。

虽然乐曲已经到了尾声，一切又回到了寂静沉睡中，但是我梦过。

那是一场我不愿醒来的梦，一次最美的梦境，最棒的情景，最赞的记忆。

仍然回味无穷。。。

虽然同样是夕阳，但是感觉上还缺少了什么。可能是因为最美丽的夕阳，已经被我锁在心里了。那个我们在南京山顶上看到的日落，成为了再也无法取代的风景了。

2010-11-29T11:24:00.002+08:00

Hehe...sry to all my readers...i hv failed to deliver the posts earlier. :)

I shall start by putting down wad i hv wrote while i was in china...then i shall proceed with more posts. :)

18/10
Today is the sixth day I m in shanghai. I m typing this in lesson cuz I smuggled the laptop in. Super sleepy. @.@ They are teaching in Chinese which is too fast for me to understand. If I really want to catch, I would probably die of exhaustion. In chem lesson now, they have sth on mole, but much more complicated than wad we have in Singapore. Lol…

First day here was wow! The kind of reluctance to go to the toilet and everything….the toilet is really a drain and it will be really gross if people do big business in there. I wonder how the people from june survived…oh well…we just have to adapt or else we will burst our bladders one day.

The bathing also very inconvenient cuz u cannot control the temperature of water, cannot control the amount of water. Since the space is pretty small and there are no hooks to hang (anyway, the clothes will definitely get wet in there) so u have to hang the clothes on the door. And stuff like glasses, under garments a bit inconvenient lah. So it is kind of weird.

Next, the food part. The food here is really salty and oily and a lot. I need Hilary to help me finish my food….T.T Lol….but since I am not really dependent on those fried food and fast food, all the 家常便饭 is ok for me. My mum always cook these kind of food anw, but I dun like all the oil I m seeing.

Ytd, I went to buy cup noodles at 复旦一条街。I LOVE CUP NOODLES!!! Haha…although the nice ones I can’t eat as it is beef. But as long as have cup noodles jiu hao lah! ^^
This weekend we went out to tour around shanghai. On Saturday, we went out to the 上海城市规划展示馆，书城和工厂党纪念馆。

昨天我们去了海洋水族馆，科技馆和世纪公园。The park was fun cuz we rented a big bicycles, those like trishaw like that and we ride in the park. Wei hui was the one controlling the direction and the brake while we just help her ride. Haha. Nice wind and flowers.  Quite fun too!

22/10/10
After another week of 随班上课, I think although there are great differences, but there are still quite a lot of similarities between the 2 countries teachings. Like all the presentations and ppt. Somewad similar. Then they also hv class contact time once per week and they hv CCA too. Although ppl ponned like whatever too, just like how we did in Singapore.

Oh! And wei hui started liking this guy called 陈肖蒙 in our class. Our class is 高一七班 anyway. He looks a bit like Wang lee hom but of course wang lee hom is much more handsome and taller and less toot! This guy is quite toot cuz he always don’t wear his glasses properly, he wears it like how old ppl wear their glasses. Amusing. But actually he is quite cute looking, cute as in the dumb kind of cute.

Then our buddy Sheng ting told the guy that we think he looks like wang lee hom. Then wei hui saw and ran off so fast that I didn’t know what happened but jus run after them. Amusing.
(Then we got a huge huge shock when chen xiao sa told shengting that he’s actually 12 cm taller than wang lee hom! Anw there is this “lee hom” written on the desk using liquid paper, wonder who’s the one who wrote lee hom there.)

Although we are in a totally new environment and have to adapt to everything, we still can make everything fun even washing our clothes in the toilet. We sing together when we wash clothes, when we bathe and when we do random stuffs in the room.  Love the kind of harmony.
(And there is also this guy called 王伽轩 drool during politics lesson! The teacher shook him for like 4 to 5 times before he woke up. Just as he woke up, his mouth is dripping a 10 cm worth of long thread of saliva. He is an ACBC guy. Act cool buay cool! .___. Hahaha he try to act cool but it’s always fail cos the dripping of saliva totally spoilt his “wonderful” image. I still can’t believe that he’s an art student. Cos he dun really have the qi zhi and everything. Somehow but dunno how we can like remember his name clearly.

CHEN XIAO SHA-aka wangleehom’s brother. Real name is chen xiao meng. He looks quite cute with a low low specs worn. Today we found out about his dark secrets. We shall keep it to ourselves to ensure privacy and confidentiality.

3Gs- gay green guy. 杨乾雄 . Likes the monitress super gay! Walk like a girl. Cover his mouth when he smile/just like a girly girl girl. Hold his green gay bag. Hooked on his elbow and what not. Wonder why cecillia and the monitress jiaqian would like him. LOL LOL LOL he’s totally a gay green guy! :)

Dan zeng gong zha, aka zha dan aka stalker. He’s actually okay apart from the fact that he is a stalker. He lacks self confidence and almost none of the teachers call him to answer questions during class. His words are actually very nice. Saw his words when we told him to write his contact number in the book. He was damn happy when we gave him the book to write. At least someone noticed his presence.

Lock on, Real name is zhang hao cheng. He has zha dan hairstyle and looks quite nerdy. He probably likes speaking a lot because when we interviewed him, he can go on for a very long time on his own. He totally took the focus of the camera. But he is actually quite nice. He was willing to take our interview. However, we think that he should actually be called lock off because he always sleeps during Math lesson. )

()written by weihui.

There is this guy called wang jia xuan. He looks super familiar to me but I just can’t seem to remember who he looks like. Maybe he looks a bit like jc but it still can’t really explain the familiarity. I hate this kind of feeling. I agree on the part that he act cool… but buay cool mah…I personally dun feel so. Haha. Idk. I think cuz of the familiarity I dun really feel like associating him with bad words. Anw, I never regarded wang tian jie as act cool buay cool too although everyone says that. Cuz I think since u can see that they are playing cool, then they succeeded. Cuz u saw it. :)

But in any case, I hv seen more act cool buay cool guys so these 2 can actually be qualified as succeeded. Lol.

Wool build ice which is 吴建冰, form teacher and the English teacher of the class we are in. He has the hair that looks like wool. Haha. Cuz he permed his hair and makes it curly and slightly messy.

29/10
The 2 weeks of 随班上课 have ended alr. It has been quite fun. Everyday we go in and observe people. Especially people sitting in the back of the class. Or else we will just do our own things, for example sleeping. Initially we were all trying hard to resist. Then after that it naturally became a habit. Especially math, chem, and physics. I dun understand them in Chinese so after a while I totally lost interest in it. Haha. We are bad bad kids. We totally like 明目张胆 sleep in front of them. But some of their Chinese students sleep in class too. Like the wang jia xuan, that’s why jermia saw him drooling. Lol…

Wednesday was the last day we had class with the local students. I was missing them ever since I left the classroom. We told them it was our last day, then we gave each person a small gift which is a notebook that costs $3 each. It is actually kind of cheap lah…hmm…but it shows our sincerity. Then only one guy, which is chen xiao meng said “可是我们没准备什么”. 算他有良心。Then before we leave the classroom, we said bye bye.

Then we regretted it. Cuz it means that we cannot go back anytime soon even if we miss them a lot. If not it will be super paiseh lah…haha.

BUT we went back on Thursday morning to see them doing 早操. And it got us into lots of trouble. We firmed them doing the zao cao. Wei hui and jermia went in front to firm chen xiao meng doing cuz he is the pe rep. Then bao bao and I were behind firming cuz it was damn malu to be in front. Then when they started firming, the whole class including the class beside us started laughing really really loudly. Bao bao and I were laughing madly too.
But the thing is we didn’t know there is more trouble following. THE WHOLE CLASS TOTALLY THOUGHT ALL 4 OF US LIKE CHEN XIAO MENG. This is horrible plus terrible plus vegetable….T.T

2/11/10
Today is the last day of wan zi xiu we will get.

I don’t understand why people always know that we are stalking them. Like tonight, Weihui and Jermia wanted to take a look at the girl who gave Wang JiaXuan a “hao ren ka” (rejection of love letter) But that Xiuyi, Gennie and Chiaying were saying “KING CARSON! KING CARSON!” so loudly omg. And the worst of the worst thing that happened was that King Carson was just around a 50cm radius behind us. Jermia was madly “SHHHHHHH!!!!”ing everyone but they just chose to ignore her can. That’s like the most terrible thing cos I think he knows that we call him King Carson now and he probably has the idea that we are stalking him. WTH. While Weihui was toileting, we can hear him laughing in a very witchly way with his friends. SERIOUSLY I NEARLY WANTED TO GET A GLASS OF HOT WATER AND POUR IT ON THEIR FACE! ARGH!

written by jermia

From then on, he didn’t dare to look at us anymore, unless he was walking in our direction. But normally he will look at us. Haha…I think we are in trouble again after the chen xiao meng incident.
And by the way, I went with shu min to the class that the girl was in so that we could take a look at the girl who rejected him. I hv been wanting to see her for the past 1 plus week but jermia and wei hui didn’t want to go with me. Then finally I found shu min to go with me. So if u can understand the scenario, both shu min and I were having pretty high expectations of the girl. At least we would expect her to be quite pretty or at least of a nice personality. Then when we reached, I totally SHOCKED TO MY DEATH! She is not pretty plus she is a bit weird. I dunno why but I just feel that she is a bit weird. Then after that I realized that she is the captain of jian mei cao who bosses people around but in the end she did something wrong herself. Which is like DIAO!
Then both shu min and I were shocked and we just ran out and got so….idk….i just feel very shocked. I thought he will like pick someone nicer. But some say she is nice so idk. But I was still very shocked. Really really shocked. And my image of him totally sort of shattered. Then jermia and wei hui decided to go look at her when shu min and I didn’t want or rather dunno how to tell them wad we feel. Then that is how everything happened.
And we laughed and laughed so much about it. There was this once when he came into the cha shui jian and we were in there laughing. Jermia saw him first and started saying lao zu zong ah lao zu zong. Then I laughed until I needed to seek refuge in the toilet.
All in all, I think everything is just becoming a great big joke. In any case, this is a fun last wan zi xiu and we probably wont see the whole class again anymore.

2010-10-11T11:31:00.004+08:00

Last day at home...before i m gone for 1 and a half months. :)

Email me if u miss me kay? I will reply every night. (if i hv the time, which i think i will have)

These are my stars that i hv been folding for the past dunno how many weeks. I hv packed them into bottles alr. With ribbons to hide the best before date of the mogu mogu bottles. Haha. 4 of them...i m going to shanghai to fold some more. :)

Pretty yeah?

I jus went to zouyan's blog...and astonished by the holiday schedule. I probably would hv died if i hv a schedule like hers. It is like the no. of days she is in singapore in the whole holidays is like...1 day. -.-

Lol...her longest post up to date. N i am really curious how she can do it.

I saw jermia's china blog...and am tempted to create one too...but shall not. Cuz i will probably abandon it once i m back from china. Therefore, i will jus write in word document. And post it when i m back. :) Anw, most ppl will be going to china too. So it doesnt really matters if they can see it or not. And for those going on 2 wks, u wont hv the time to see this. And for hilary, u r special, i guess u can jus read jermia's blog. :) Actually seriously, not many ppl read the blog anw.

Time flies...and whenever i think of this i feel like quoting from someone's blog.

"Alas, time flies, and i'm not the pilot.."

So true, isnt it? How i wish i m the pilot. So that i can be in control. So that i wont feel so helpless sometimes. So that u can do anything at whatever speed u like. So tad u wont feel suffocating most of the time.

I m wondering wad to do with today, before i leave. I nid to pack...then after that i m free. Study physics? since i m not gonna bring any notes... or jus slack? or read all the articles on mrs lee kuan yew which i hv saved?

My dad bought 2 bars of snickers for me to bring to china...-.- i will definitely get sore throat in china if i finish them. Lol.

Ok...got to go now...bye!

See u again soon! :)

2010-10-10T18:43:00.003+08:00

10.10.10 :D

I was really really lucky today...to be able to see 11.11 this morning, not on purpose. I jus opened my phone and 11.11 was staring at me. With 10 Oct 2010 right beside it. :D I was in the toilet then. Haha...this is random.

I made 2 wishes. :) Hope they will come true...esp. the first one.

Gonna leave for Shanghai in 2 days. On tues, i would alr be in shanghai, probably alr at Fudan at this time.

I dun exactly feel like going, but i am excited or nervous about the trip. I think it is cuz i m looking forward to the times we are gonna spend there, but at the same time resist changes and winter. I AM SCARED OF COLD ><>< AND SOMEHOW I CANNOT OPEN LMS! NO LMS, PLS DUN DO THIS TO ME! I WAN MY BIO NOTES....T.T OH MANS...IT IS REALLY NOT OPENING. 死大笨！ i wonder wad is going to happen to my country story when i leave...how many batches of my fruits are gonna rot? haiz haiz haiz.... i m in a confused state now...not knowing wad to do...although there is still lots of things to do...not knowing wad to write although before this i hv thought of a lot of things to write. The few days of exam has made me stupid. Really really happy when IH was over...i was totally highing at home. LOL. IH paper was really...WOW! They totally gave us the essays we hv done before. And out of 5 qns of SBQ, there were 2 inference qns...they were totally lenient. No wonder mr tay said it would be a pleasant surprise. :D Other papers were relatively ok...jus u write wadever u can think of. HAHA! Mrs lai is seriously hilarious every morning...trying to make us more relaxed every morning. I wonder wad will happen to mrs lai when she goes fudan where she will hv nth to clean? Lolz. Haiz...different people have different obsessions..really. I still feel very reluctant to leave my home for 40 plus days...i will miss mama and papa. :( Ok shall end here! Goodluck to everyone still taking EOYs and enjoy yr GCP trip. Buy me some souvenirs if u see this! :D

And thanks to my batchmates for buying me KFC on thur afternoon. :)

It is a pity that i didnt get to see u again before i leave...

2010-10-06T18:45:00.000+08:00

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CAN U TELL HOW BORED I M NOW?

2010-10-01T21:48:00.002+08:00

Time flies....

End of the school year, as in the lessons part. 4 more days to start of EOYs. 11 days to shanghai. Idk to be sad or idk wad.

I just spent my night on random stuff...like facebooking, country story (when ppl study for exams and neglect their farms, u can go in and steal all their fruits....muahahaha!), trying to find zao shu (the movie) and found the last part on court and the ending, then watched some stuff that i m not really supposed to...haha. But there is nth too much. :)

After a tiring semester 2, everything is gonna slow down soon...dunno whether to qi dai going to fudan or not. I think i will enjoy the times in the hostel. :) But i wont like the weather. I HATE WINTERS! :(

Have been folding a lot of stars...ppl think i m too free but i m just the type that gets distracted very easily. I hope i can give them all out...or else next yr some lucky person will get it for birthday present. Muahahaha. Afterall, it is all my effort ok? I think i nid to find some ribbons to beautify the mogu mogu bottles. To hide the best before date actually. :)

I remembered i had sth to say...and then i forgot...this is the result of lack of sleep. Poor memory. ><

I think i wanted to talk about a lot of scandals and rumours....

It ties in with everything that happened lately. First was the PCCG lesson, then shocking discovery, then followed by more shocking discoveries and today i got MORE shocking discoveries. Haha. Plus yang lao shi showed us the zao shu movie.

THE BABY WAS SO CUTE! :D Ahahaha. Like some doll like that. Lol.

Plus a lot of posts about the issue on love. Different people different perspectives different views different ways of expressing different stories. Just as simple as it is. So i really dun get why jermia discriminates XXX. But i guess sometimes hatred can be pretty without reason. But except for i think occasionally a few, i dun really hate (and i mean hate not dislike) ppl for no reason. Actually up to date, only ONE person has successfully made it to my hate list. Exluding my sis whom i hv a love hate relationship with.

Oh wells...i think i m getting bored by my own posts. :(

Yes...i m too free. I SO NID TO STUDY! T.T MUG MUG MUG! CUP CUP CUP! Haha!

But first, i nid to recharge my energy first. By.... sleeping! Goodnite everyone and jiayou for EOYs! :D

2010-09-28T20:12:00.004+08:00

2010-09-28T18:48:00.007+08:00

每当我绝望时，
你都会出现，让重新点燃希望。
每当我的生命变得枯燥无味时，
你就会来为我的生命注入惊喜。
不管有意无意，
你总是不小心地出现，
出现在我也不知是对还是不对的时候。
你总是那么耀眼，
那么爱引人注目，
那么自以为是，
那么让人不能自拔。。。

2010-09-26T22:06:00.002+08:00

I feel so hard pressed for time. But when heart rules over your mind, nothing else matters. :)

Haha. Decide to post cuz i read quite a few posts today, about life, about love, with feelings and emotions.

Then i feel like expressing some thoughts.

After all a comparison on the posts, i still think XXX's posts are the best. Why? Like i hv said, When heart rules over your head, reality no longer exists as reality. They exists as ideology.

The kind of 真实感 i get from the post is wad really kept me reading. Not that i wan to find out more about XXX's love life. (Oh! btw, i realised it is not D***.) Love the language too. Very expressive but not mushy. 恰到好处。haha.

All the posts make me feel like staying online longer to read more. :( But my mum is harassing me alr. Originally i only wanted to use 30 mins but it became almost 1 hr 30 mins. :(

有时候迟了一步，就等于永远错过。
告诉我，我是不是已经永远失去你了？

2010-09-22T20:58:00.002+08:00

pictures speaks a thousand words...

inspired by people around me, i started collecting pictures with meaningful words on them. :D

i dun really hv anything to update recently. Not in the sense that nothing happened, but in the sense that not much feelings are evoked. I normally post my feelings.

Jus that i hv been shocked. By someone! U know who u r. I still cant really believed it happened. Everytime i looked at u. Then i will start to hv this weird feeling. Haha.

Jermia and i were like "Shall we compile our questions and give it to ******?" Haha. We have A LOT of questions to ask actually, but weird and awkward. U can respond if u see this. Haha!

Actually nothing else alr...maybe i will post somemore pics when i hv the time.

I really cant bring myself to study....GOSH!!!! WADS WRONG WITH ME?????????

2010-09-22T20:51:00.002+08:00

2010-09-17T22:33:00.003+08:00

2010-08-31T13:10:00.003+08:00

i hate how jiemin treat their alumni. -.-

They treat us so unfriendly-ly. Like we some criminals trying to smuggle illegal stuff into the sch. No respect for us like that. If dun like us to go back, jus say lah! Like i really wan to go back like that.

The security guards are the worst.

Last few years was keeping us out of the sch and letting in batches by batches. Then only a while then chase us all out.

This year is can only go in at 1.30pm. And here i m back home using com.

I M NOT GOING BACK!!!

Plus the security guards came out and told us not to block the road. -.- OK LAH! THEN WE SIAM! CAN ANOT?

OH! I was looking through some photo albums and saw this REALLY REALLY HUGE SMILE on the criminal's face!!! AHAHAHAHA! Damn funny the album and the comments! :D :D

Actually i m not really angry...jus dun like their attitude. The chers probably hv no time for us too anw. So i shall jus go fb and drop a msg.

ANW, NANYANG TEACHERS' DAY CONCERT IS FABULOUS!!!! The only concert that never fails to make me laugh the most, scream the most and have the most fun! I rmb when i was in sec 1, the teachers' day concert amazed me cuz it was one of the best celebration concert i hv ever watched. That years' CNY concert as well. And it started my ny sch life with it as the best impression i hv of ny. :)

Love how everyone is so high and screaming by showing support to the teachers we love. :)

I guess the best gift one can ever give to the teachers are jus the best in wadever u do. As long as we graduate with grace and good results, i think they will feel very very happy for us. Jus like how mr tay replied jermia and weihui, the best present for him is jus to get good results, esp. IH. That esp IH is really nice, cuz he will be happy as long as u get good results even if it is not IH. :)

I was doing the fb friends quiz, then i saw this qns, who is more beautiful, u or XXX? Then i saw the criminal face. -.-

I think some of the qns are very applicable, but some are jus those that i cant ans (for everyone to see) even though i do hv an answer at the back of my mind. :)

:( unriddle ep 19 is not uploaded yet. :( i wan to watch. it is like 2 more ep left. Tonite is the last one.

Ok, i shall end off. Enough of an afternoon of crapping.

2010-08-29T18:28:00.001+08:00

U know wad?

After going through the long post...

I realised i love it.

What is it you're looking for, if you left all the world to find it?

2010-08-25T21:52:00.002+08:00

我总觉得那个人今天看我的表情有点怪怪的。不知道是不是认得我了。不过，那个人本来今天就怪怪的，怪得令我发笑。太庄重，太严肃了。我说的不是那个“水果”，所以请不要误会。不过，水果应该认识那个人。

而我说的那个人不知为什么今日多次地直视我的眼睛。不知道是因为我先直视那双眼睛，所以那个人才会看，还是因为那个人认得我。不管是哪个，我的第六感告诉我，那个人怪怪的，不寻常。因为今天绝对不是我第一次看着那双眼睛，但是这是那双眼睛第一次这样看着我。有点。。。我只能用，也只会用奇怪形容。因为我不知道那个人到底在想什么。因为一看到那双眼睛看过来，我就不敢再直视了。

先告诉大家，想要知道一个人心里可能想什么，至少知道一些皮毛，看眼睛很有用。因为只要你直视一双眼睛，它的反应很可能会给你你要的答案。所以我觉得直视别人的眼睛很有侵略性，因此我不熟的人，我不会让他们看到我在看着他们的眼睛。

好了，不说了。越说越没有意义。

2010-08-22T15:19:00.004+08:00

I finally remember to look for a blog that someone told me about. And went through the posts. Idk wad i shld feel. It pricks me in the heart. But actually there are no details for me to deduce anything. Therefore, there is really nothing i can say or i shld feel.

Eventually that blog leads me to all the different blogs. which include the person whose blog contains the following sentence. I think she took it out from somewhere. And i m jus adapting it one more time.
有一种爱，明明是深爱，却说不出来；有一种爱，明明想放弃，却无法放弃；有一种爱，明知是煎熬，却又躱不开；有一种爱，明知无前路，心却早已收不回来。

Cool...

一些事，只配当回忆．一些人，只能做过客。既不回头，何必不忘，既然无缘，何必誓言。这个世界，那么脏，谁有资格，说悲伤。

Ok...i think i m infringing copyright alr. I hv become an avid stalker. Not of anybody. Cuz those i really want to find out, i cant find related info. -.- Nvm, i will try harder.

This is cool too. 她说：“你会找到一个比我更好的人。” 我微笑说：“但我不会再对人这么好了。”

多少次又多少次，回忆把生活划成一个圈，而我们在原地转了无数次，无法解脱。总是希望回到最初相识的地点，如果能够再一次选择的话，以为可以爱得更单纯。

我一生中最幸运的两件事，一件，是时间终于将我对你的爱消耗殆尽，一件，是很久很久以前有一天，我遇见你……

Ok...enuf enuf...I think it is her. Cuz actually i kind of suspect that is not the way she would write. So diff from the way she talks. god.

I was supposed to be researching for yellow fever and scarlet fever. Haiz...it is always like that isnt it.

And since jermia wants a post, i shall post. Since i hv alr wasted so much time. -.-

I m scared of failing alr. Cuz i know if i dun stop and continue indulging myself. I m gonna suffer. Damn...esp. when i hv to take EOYs now. Even if it is not graded, u still cant fail too badly. Or else you would be in her remedial list for the first term next year.

I dun understand. I really dun. It is not like i didnt studied. It is not like i really dun understand. Take ih as an example. WHAT IS WRONG? It is not about whether i studied or not. It is about the way i answered. The fact is i did study the format for sbq and I GOT FULL MARKS FOR THE 1ST QNS. SO WAD IS WRONG WITH THE OTHER QUESTIONS?

Dun understand...i really dun. I hv yet to inform my dad about it. I cant imagine wad he would say. He would probably ban me from com forever. Argh! My mum was upset. She claims that i didnt study when she told me to. But the fact is HOW DO YOU STUDY FOR SBQ????

Idk...perhaps chem and physics is MY FAULT. But IH?
I comforted my mum by telling her that i might be able to get 2 more marks for physics so that maybe i can pull up the marks to 60 percent pass. Obviously i know that it is only a chance. But actually i shld be able to get 1 more mark at least. I was jus comforting my mum so that she will feel less upset and angry. So that at least she knows i hv a chance to not fail 3 subj but only 2. Actually, technically, i only failed 1. Cuz i didnt fail chem by 50%.

Ok, i was jus comforting myself. Yes, continue deluding myself. Go on. And when reality hits u, it is gonna be HARD.

I hate it when i hv to laugh and smile to a person when i totally dun feel like doing so. Pretence is not how i wan to lead my life. But sad to say, i am usually not given the choice to do wadever i wan, to say wadever i wan, to experience wadever i wan.

Emo...i m emo-ing again. I think i will feel happier when i leave for shanghai. I hope.

At the present moment. I hv 2 quiz tmr, chem prac due tmr, and some other stuff.

The only thing i m proud of is i finished my bio as 8.1 although it is only due another 5 days later.
I shld go on to my scarlet and yellow fever now. -.-

And before i end, I really want to say this. I HATE DOING STUFF THAT I DUN WAN TO DO. I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE FORCE ME TO DO THINGS THAT I DUN WAN TO DO.
Cuz my ah ma jus shoved a piece of cake or bread like thingy at me and asking me to eat WHEN I TOTALLY DUN FEEL LIKE EATING. I hate all the people around me sometimes.

2010-08-18T21:04:00.001+08:00

i vow to find the article on meterosexual and post it here, post about my life, change the songs and delete all the spam tags in my tagboard SOON!

2010-08-02T15:00:00.003+08:00

I feel like copy pasting a couple of sentence from the chim chim person's blog...but of course i cant.

But that sentence makes a lot of sense. And it is wad prompted me to post despite me hving a mountain of notes to read through and study. -.-

Sometimes, i just really want to know wad U are thinking about. It is so tiring to always hv to shun away from yr glances and pretend nothing happened when our eyes met. I really hv no idea wad u thought it was. Jus a random glance? Or a stare? Out of curiousity? Or wad?

I know u know i exist. But as wad? As a stranger? As a person u sort of know? Or as a friend?

Trying to decipher a people's thoughts are the hardest thing ever. Sometimes, i cant even tell wad i m thinking. I m living in my own confused world...

I guess i shld go back to study. 2 more days before it is over...

I shld stop thinking of stuff that will probably never materialise. Like that chim chim person, who is always dreaming and wasting so much time posting on stuffs that only tad person will understand.

Esp. when u are probably never in that person's heart or mind.

2010-07-27T18:05:00.003+08:00

诚意我觉得是很重要的。

一个可以跟你做出一大堆承诺，但其实无心帮你实现，或根本就是一时说漏了嘴而说出来的人，根本不值得信任。

我一次又一次地去相信别人，以为不管有什么困难，都有人来帮助我。到最后，当我真的需要别人来帮我时，那些诺言，突然变成了谎言。

当身边的人愿意为你需下承诺的时候，你会不会觉得很高兴，以为原来我在这个人的心目中是有分量的，有地位的？而当一些化为乌有时，只有你会在那里默默地伤心，只有你会在那里痛苦。因为那个人根本就不会理会你的感受，根本不知道你内心有多么地失望。

一次又一次的伤痛，一次又一次地心寒，但我却一次又一次地再相信你。虽然我知道你的承诺毫无价值，但我却太渴望你对我好了，因而再一次受伤。我想要我不再相信你，只能等到我不再爱你。

奉劝我的读者一句：如果不是真心的，请不要说出口。信任一旦失去了，是很难再找回来的。这些包括了每一句的“我爱你”，以及“对不起”。

甜言蜜语谁不会说？只有最真诚的，才是最感人，最美丽的。

彭于晏 - 转角的夏天

这个雨天　我想起去年　
路过这家店
小小屋檐　躲两个笑脸
很抱歉　说好的　
环游世界　没陪你实现
你相信的眼神太真切
我误认那就叫永远

*离开遇见你的那条街
我才开始掉眼泪
感觉就像　再一次分别
离开遇见你的那条街
回忆突然在眼前
同样的街你的笑曾经　
那么甜
(我们那年　相恋在转角　的夏天）

很抱歉那时我　
挥霍时间不为谁改变
在路途跌跌撞撞不退　
其实是因为　有你陪
Repeat * twice

是我不对　相信了事过　
会境迁

2010-07-26T18:21:00.002+08:00

I find it a chore to update these days. Cuz there are too little things that i can write about when i feel like writing. N i take ages to write one post.

It is not that i dun hv stuff that i would like to share with people, jus that whenever i am ready to write, i would lose that kind of feeling and emotion. Which resulted in me hving no motivation to write.

So why am i writing now? Cuz i hv nth much to do. I know i still hv block test to study and i hvnt started. But i m simply too tired to care. 2nd time in my life, i missed my bus stop cuz i was deep in slumber. But the diff is, this time (which is today) i missed by more than 2 stops. Lucky thing was, i was on my way home and not to sch.

Today is monday, and i m alr so tired...:( What's wrong with me???

Speaking of which, it jus reminds me of how time is flying. Tmr will be the last day for the china fudan students in Singapore. Of course i wont miss them....i dun even remember their faces and their names. But it is too fast....i could still rmb the day that they came, and the mad mad pe lesson we had tgt...

Everything is going too fast, way to fast for me to rmb, way too fast for me to enjoy. As i past by my pri sch just now, i realised that the memories i had of those days are almost gone. I cant rmb how was the sch like. I cant rmb how were the days like for me. I cant rmb how we spent the time in sch everyday...It has been almost 2 years since i last went back.

Perhaps i lament too much...but i always hv this kind of feelings when i m too tired. Tired abt wad exactly? Tired abt everything.

I m getting too old...

2010-07-16T21:31:00.002+08:00

hvnt updated in more than 10 days. :)

I m gonna change my songs soon. I hope i can rmb to do it later. i m a bit sick of chao ren bu hui fei alr...

maybe i will change to peng yu yan's fei ai bu ke. u know the get down down down oheoh down down down! :D he was the one who got shuqi is his mv...but kind of weird cuz they actually belongs to 2 diff generation altogether. A bit no link. (I think sonia is affecting me with the way she speaks.)

anw, today was fun! It has been a great day.

The fudan students (or shld i say guys?) came to our class. Haha. All 6 are guys. Epic. So other classes will be all 6 are girls? Haha.

I think they were pretty bored in most of our lessons. They totally collapsed on the table and slept...a bit no respect for teachers...

But zhong dian was the pe lesson! It was great! Super fun! Woots!
We were supposed to run 6 rounds around the basement carpark and i was leading the class. So i ran around, not really sure of where to run to...then in the 3rd round, when i a bit no breath liao, i suddenly heard a lot of screams and shouts and laughter from behind me. Then all the elephant stamping footsteps came. Then suddenly people started whooshing past me...
-.- Then in order to not 显得我们之间的距离太远，因此我尽量地追。追到我差点断气。-.-
I was like raining after that.
Then the ball games were like FAST! DAMN FAST! our first game was with gennie, hsiu yi and xiu yi, shumin (U KNOW WAD KIND OF PPL THEY ARE RIGHT?) I mean like 2 basketball, 1 netball, the other also from sports cca. This team is like EPICLY STRONG esp. with another guy. Of course we lost epic-ly too. But it was a good game. U seldom get to compete against such strong rivals. And we didnt really fare too badly u know. :) Cuz we hv a guy too. Haha!
The "rain" got heavier afterwards anw.

Then i died in the 2nd game, i kept making mistakes in passing plus we were running around in 3 courts. O.O Really really tired! And the pace of the game is still damn fast. The twins and puilin were good. They hv mo qi and run away from defense fast.
Yup, u guessed it. We lost. :)

Then skip skip to LA lesson! Mr tan made a mistake for one of the icas ans. The q19, modal adverb one. Ans supposed to be surely! I WAS RIGHT!!! Might is a modal but not adverb. :(
Even ms teo wrote the correct ans but mr tan copied wrongly. -.- I checked the ans for our icas last yr.

Then IH. I think mr tay is getting cuter. Haha. Maybe cuz of his baby. He started adding more "sounds" and expressions into his lessons now. His costume today also quite epic. Haha. A bit gay lah...but cute. Haha. Then after lesson he changed back to tight fiting shirt and shorts. -.-

Haha. Overall, a very fun day. Afternoon's 'welcome' session for fudan people was kind of weird. We met a weird guy. Had a weird convo. Found his weird job. And discovered his weird sense of humour. -.- A teacher in our sch. But no idea teaching wad or under wad dept. -.-

:D i finished changing the songs. :D Enjoy yr weekend!

2010-07-03T19:18:00.003+08:00

有人问过，上帝是否有幽默感。
当时，我觉得他的话很荒唐，
现在，我终于明白了。

我们相信的上帝，的天神，的菩萨。。。
是会跟我们开玩笑的。

就只差半天，十多个小时。。。
就快到了。。。
为什么不能让她再等一会儿？

一个母亲在去世前，还在苦苦等着自己的女儿。
可偏偏在女儿出发要回去时，
上天决定在此时夺走她的心跳。
女儿是抱着一线希望回去的，
可还是连最后一面都见不到。

只有十多个小时。。。只有半天。。。

这就是上天开的玩笑。。。
多么幽默，多么可笑，多么残忍。

她天天念佛，吃斋。
从希望菩萨保佑她健康，到拜托菩萨保佑她病早日康复，到最后恳求菩萨让自己能够再见到女儿。。。
可从来都没有回应。。。

从此，
母女俩就阴阳相隔，
遗留下来的
是一辈子弥补不了的遗憾。。。

这。。。就是上天的幽默感。

对母亲最后的记忆，
是她站在楼上一边哭，一边挥手向女儿道别，
心里在想那很可能就是最后一面了。

永别了。。。

祝您一路好走。。。

2010-06-27T22:00:00.002+08:00

为了梦想存在，为了梦想奋斗，为了梦想死亡。。。
因为梦想义无反顾。。。

如果我也能拥有一个完完全全属于自己的梦想，我想我也会视死如归，愿意付出一切代价。
为什么有些人能够突破重围，惊天动地，攀上一座又一座的高峰？不是因为他们比我们更厉害，更有才华，而是因为他们比我们更渴望拥有成功。信念就是秘诀，梦想就是钥匙。

我在等待，等待我的梦想，等待一个能让我全心全意投入一切的梦想。。。

2010-06-27T15:44:00.003+08:00

i jus had a lot of fun reading people's epic comments on facebook as well as a blog. :D

And jermia lai ah!!! U got the eva person's comment wrongly lah!! The her wasnt a her, it was him!!!

Therefore, it confirmed my doubts on yr words cuz i realised the love poem was written way before the bsp camp. :D I m still cleverer!!! Muahahaha!!!

Sorry, i m in a good mood cuz of all the epic comments. Although a check with reality will tell me that sch is starting tomorrow.

But i kind of dun mind now...although i still hv math class discussion ws hvnt do, and physics sia dying in my hands, and bio ws half done, and the files not really filed. My table is in a horrible mess now. :)

haha...maybe not the messiest, but messy enuf. :D

Ytd was the bsp camp part 2 at sentosa. :) I hv turned so much darker cuz of it. I had rosy cheeks last night. But i guess it is better than being rudolph the red nose raindeer. Hahaha! Pardon me if i spell the raindeer's name wrongly. :p

Now i look like i hv been training regularly for months. :) My face turned black this morning, by the way.

Ytd wasnt great but it was great! The fun wasnt cuz of the activities but cuz of the companions.

Firstly, ovaltine! Then, squeezing onto sentosa express! Then, running after the tram although it still didnt move after 3 minutes? Then, wanting to run away from the palawan beach but was pushed into the sea instead. Then, my turn to push others into the sea. Then, played dare or dare in the sea and witnessing all the stupid lame people laming. Then, went into 7 eleven although water was still dripping from our clothes. Then, shared a cup of cup noodles with jermia. Then, went back to the beach to play captain's ball although i didnt really touch the ball. Then, we shielded hao qing while she changed into her shorts. Then, we played elope. Then, i didnt even know that hao qing and i won when i ran to her, then she started running back to the circle. Everything happened in lightning speed. Then, i forgot wad happened. Then, all of us took turns to help the dancers to take jump shots. But we all failed. Most epic was jermia, she wasnt even taking the dancers, dunno wad she took instead. Then, started playing cards. Then, asked jermia and hao qing to help me buy mineral water and they came back with a $2.60 mineral water. I almost died there and then. Then, i went back to refund and found out that there were so many other brands that cost cheaper! Haiz..jermia lai is always so failed...Then, i went water cooler to refill my water bottle (it's free!). Then, when we went back everyone was leaving. Then, help facils took a quan jia fu. I m not sure whether it is good or not. Then, while we were leaving wei hui was still thinking of her tj. Then we still missed the facils in the end, although we deliberately waited and stuff. (It kind of remind me the times when wing shan and i were waiting for ah hem...someone. I always have to do this kind of thing.) Then, we took a ny-hci-sec-3-bsp-students-who-attended-the-outing-photo. Then, while we were on mrt, wei hui and i started counting the no. of stations to get home if we take circle line or red line. But we took red line although there are more stops. Then, we started gossipping abt people. Finally, home sweet home!

Super long...but all in all it was jus a ny-hci-facils outing. Dunno where are all the rv and dunman people...

now..it is time to look forward to sch tmr. Hoping to see the people that i hv not been seeing in the holidays. Not u, jermia lai, i hv seen u enuf, really. Except for the 2 wks i m in china, i basically saw u almost everyday.

And i suddenly rmb we hvnt decided on our ih hypothesis. We are so gonna get killed by him.

Goodluck to all in surviving another term! :D

2010-06-20T17:11:00.002+08:00

Back from china!!!

11 days of no fb, no blogger, no youtube. Internet holds no meaning to me there (except for checking of emails which frustrates me.)

Peaceful and happy 11 days have past. Kind of missing all the friends here but not sch though. Hving to think of completing 5 more SIAs and the la ppt makes me sick. I realised i hvnt finish the PDD ppt...I DUNNO HOW TO DO!!! JERMIA!!! HOW TO DO SOUNDS FOR PRELUDES?

Damn...

Tmr supposed to have trng but cant go...hv to go for math lesson with mrs wong (only 3 ppl somemore), then supposed to meet mr tay for ih sia but cant go either (as in dun wan to go), hv to go for pri bsp camp rehearsal (to show my face at least since i still hv no idea wad i am supposed to do), then finally lunch and chi sia with jermia...

Life sucks...

I m feeling really confused these days...no idea cuz of wad. Not sure of wad to do...wad to think...procrastinate...but only 1 wk left to starting of term 3.

Omg...how i wish i could jus stay in china and forget everything here. Everyday jus sit down there watch tv, watch and watch. Dun hv to think, dun hv to do anything. Simple. Even if it means staring at the rain or the dogs.

Actually why not? It is jus a really simple wish...to jus lead a simple and peaceful life and not always hv to think of numerous projects, SIAs, homeworks at the same time.

Hoping to go shanghai soon...

如果超人會飛.那就讓我在空中停一停歇
再次俯瞰這個世界會讓我覺得好一些
拯救地球好累雖然有些疲憊但我還是會
不要問我哭過了沒因為超人不能流眼淚

2010-06-07T16:03:00.002+08:00

:D I m in quite a good mood to post again. :D

Although i dun really hv much to say...

Hv been reading people's blogs. Chim people...switch channel

一个是像傻瓜的木头，心里却隐藏着许许多多吓死人的哲学和心思，是个多么热情，多么聪明，有着这么多惊天动地的思想的人。

另一个像是不拘小节，放荡的青少年，但其实是深思熟虑，细心，而且理智的一个人。

而两个都一样善于用词，语言不仅仅只是沟通工具，更是在那一瞬间成为可以改变一个人，击败人的武器。

很不可思议。。。这也是为何我们说人心难侧，说人不可貌相。

两人让我发现了许多我不曾想过的问题，但是却让我们没有办法从另一个角度再去想同样的问题，因为实在是太有说服力了。

一切可以是那么地普通，可在这两人的眼里，可以有如此巧妙的变化。可以说是把我们学校学的POV 用得淋漓尽致，无可挑剔。:D

Can tell i was jus trying very hard to squeeze out some words to write? But wadever is up there is true. I m amazed, shocked, taken aback...

Nvm, crap.

The main point is here. Will be away overseas for 2 wks till 18 june. :D I will check my email and handphone will be able to receive sms. So if there is anything anyone needs to tell me about, pls do so via the 2 methods but i will only reply through email. Will check email as frequently as possible. U can email me the randomest things u can think of, anything at all. :D If i didnt reply yr email for too long, pls send me an sms. It will be local charges, only i will be paying global charges unless of course u call me. But i wont ans. :D

And if there are any work that u want me to do, pls tell me too. Will try my best to finish, esp. if u find it hard to finish.

Lastly, i wish everybody an enjoyable (at least enjoy it as best as u can) holiday. :D I know u all will be awaiting my return! :D

P.S. Btw, wingshan, if u see this, pls tell chloe that i will only be training on last wk fri. Maybe on wed too....if the bsp camp for pri sch is in the afternoon. Thanks!

2010-06-03T21:36:00.002+08:00

firstly, i am stalking ppl...not stalking lah....jus finding out the ans for the queries that i hv been hving for these few days...the ppl that suddenly appeared in my life...

Jermia! i found out who that guy is alr! Really a thrower! But i hv no idea why he almost has no records of competing before...and i found the blog...

Ok, i realised the ppl tad i came to know abt in bsp camp is in track or like i know them. Like tj...like the guy, and my ancestor also from track hurdles! And the purple jacket guy! Also thrower! =.=''' Ppl that i might hv met before, found familiar...but never realised who they really are....until jus now....

I m still feeling a bit overwhelmed...by all the info suddenly...and i found all the blogs...but nah...i m not reading them...too overwhelmed alr...

Secondly, BSP camp was great...except for the performance part. :D Nanyang's performance sort of failed, although actually the only 2 things it is lacking are probably the music and someone to say that we were in a classroom. Sianz....

Our performance was nice....not my part but the first part and the last part! :D Xiao ming! 习惯成自然！Lol... Alot of group's performance was great and epic...and joyee's cousin performed and acted as 高跟鞋！I only realised until jolene said it that midnight... :D

The best part is the part after all the performances when everyone went crazy...really really crazy and high! I simply love the BLASTING OF MUSIC! Woots! The camp is too short!!!!

Quite a lot of gan xiang abt the ppl, not really abt what we learnt. But not really suitable to write down or say it or wadever...cuz it requires too much explanation and those who knows the whole story, is not gonna read this. All in all...人不可貌相，水不可斗量啊！

Omg....the group 6 facil is the guy in dorcas' ldp group....oh my...no wonder looks a bit familiar also...TIAN AH!!!!!!!!!!! 太巧了。。。我快被惊晕了！@.@

Conclusion: I hv jus been at a camp full of fun, boring lectures, great ppl, great facils, learnt nth, wanting more fun and all the late night chats, running into each others' rooms and not getting caught cuz we were simply TOO LATE even for teachers to stay awake! :D

2010-05-26T20:03:00.004+08:00

Yup...thanks to jermia...i m here to post after EXACTLY one month! haha...so conicidental!

hmm...one month...time flew by...things happened...lots of things happened in fact...but the essence of all these is I WAS VERY BUSY.

Busy with work lots of math worksheets and assignments. Busy with projects such as Math sia and chem sia. Busy with BSP stuff like SMBO and east west mini fest. Busy with CCA and getting used to the fact that hwa chong track is gonna be removed and trng is gonna be tough. Still busy with the fact that people randomly comes by and disturb my mood and i hv to try and make myself happy again. All in all, busy with having to cope with all aspects of life. All in all, busy with having to live and meet the expections of so many people.

And all i can say is I m tired.

Luckily, before i broke down, sabats came to save my life. And i applaud for having survive another term. Kudos to all who did the same. :D We are all heros...in our own minds! :D

Recently got into the hotshot mood and is trying to finish the drama, hopefully before i head for china in the june holidays. So that i will not die thinking of wad the ending might turned out to be. I hv the tendency to keep thinking and dreaming even about the plots in dramas. Unless of course if i m occupied. :D 我是天生的电视迷！

My sabats this year is deaf awareness and table tennis. I enjoyed them more than what i thought i would, which is good. Although i m jus slow and stupid in learning all the signs in sign language, the joy of learning motivated me. I guess i still do have passion for learning. Initially i thought my passion for life has been hidden under all the piles of work, or mayb even edged out of my life. But no! I still have them and it is really a great feeling. Table tennis was even better. I think i hv a bit of talent in it. But my reaction, as usual, is slow and i hv too much strength for hitting balls within the boundary of the table. But yes, i learnt. That is the joy!

Before the term ends, i guess i shld give some sort of conclusion or acknowledgements （like all the 鸣谢 behind shows and movies）:

Thanks to all who helped make my life better. Esp. jermia. :D
All yr posts on yr blog abt me makes me feel loved and appreciated. All yr silly pose and overly exaggerated expression does lit up my day sometimes. I m never a person good with words esp. in telling people about how i really feel. I m never a person also, to always say i love you till it seems so meaningless and cheap. (That's why if u hv ever heard me say i love u, I REALLY DO LOVE U A LOT!) :D But i m going to say this today, probably only once and never again that yes i do love u jermia!
Thanks for letting me copy yr homework and letting me bully u even though u know that i m bullying u.
Thanks for always being so happy and smiley.
Thanks for always been so kind and understanding, although i think it is a bit over sometimes. For eg. when i m unfriendly and fierce towards u, u say that i was jus frustrated with work and if it were you, you would do the same too. Really too kind...
But let me tell u this, the ruder and unfriendly-ier i m towards a friend, it means the closer i m to her. Cuz once i m close to a person, or at least feel close, i would not be so "kind" and friendly anymore. But really, one can sense my love for her very easily despite it being covered and hidden by all those unfriendly gestures. :D

But jermia, i think i really need you to stop being so blur and slow. :D

Next, puilin. She is always there for me to copy her work. :D And her work is normally correct. :D You have no idea how many marks i have saved all because of her. :D Thanks ah pui! :D

And sinlie, thanks for always bickering with me. It is FUN. 酸你酸你酸你！Haha! Anybody knows that i love suan-ing people? I used to do that a lot in pri school...the SACARSM. So much more than wad i hv been using in sec sch.
And thanks for being a great table tennis sabats mate! :D

And minghui, hao qing...always joking behind and laming. :D The kai and jerm eatery is gonna prosper with more business in the next semester!!! WOOTS!

And wing shan! I know if wingshan is reading this, and i didnt mention her, she would feel VERY UPSET!!! I hv no idea how often u check my blog...but if u do...i love u too! :D I might hv told u before alr. So dun be jealous ok?

And chloe, for being a great discus-mate! :D Training has been great with you!

And everyone else, so many so many more that have brought laughter and joy into my world, esp in those gruesome times. After all, we are all in this together!

Life is still gonna go on as normal, like wad we have been doing, when sch reopens. Let this holiday be a break to all and regain all the energy we hv transferred away (Physics---cant rmb wad is the law called..conservation? or sth like that?).

Enjoy yr holiday! Although mine is half spent in china, the other half in singapore doing all my SIAs, researchs, CIP, attending math lessons, trainings and all the BSP related stuff like BSP camp. :D

I know it is a long post. To mi bu wad i hv not said in the whole month. :D Good nite! Chi sia time~

2010-04-26T19:00:00.003+08:00

Hasnt post for quite sometime. ~busy~

I hv been pretty creative recently, not only thinking of interesting status on fb but also thought of thought provoking qns.

For example, BT vs KT who is better?

I cant reveal who these 2 ppl are, but jermia knows. Yup...i m pretty sure most ppl know who they are.

They probably hv never met before, if they ever did, then maybe one or twice? After all, they belonged to the same department, although one joined after the other left. *Hint* :D

Anw, the story goes...one fine day, jermia and i were gossiping randomly abt ppl (ppl that are VERY IMPT to a school). Then we talked abt BT, then my creative juices started to flow and remembered KT all of a sudden. I hv always thought that BT is sort of like a substitute for KT, like u know one goes and the other one comes to replace. Yup, so i thought of comparing the 2. And ppl who know who i m talking abt, obviously will know that wadever we hv discussed abt them wasnt exactly very nice. But of course, we are very intelligent students, we shld always learn how to differentiate good attributes of someone from not so good attributes of someone. Same thing like differentiate good ppl from bad ppl. :D

BUT...i m very nice ok? I didnt really say anything bad abt them. I thought both of them hv their good points and i hv never really hated or even dislike them. I do like the both of them no matter how others might hv critised them.

So here is the comparison: Jermia thinks that KT has a better character (as in perhaps 比较会做人)while BT is better in his role in the school. :D While me, i said that it depends on what is our definition of doing a good job in sch. I concluded if u like more fun and more relax, then obviously it is KT. If u want serious, perhaps even boring, but focus, then BT. :D

Anyway, if they can strike a balance, then they will be perfect. :D

Ok, i shall end here. I nidda eat dinner. It is too diff for me to write without spelling everything out. So yeah...enjoy yr wk, enjoy yr term! :D Goodluck and Jiayou for block test!

2010-04-19T21:39:00.002+08:00

I shall correct myself...

I dun like jerry yan...

I like jerella...

Sorry...

Correct myself again...

I ABSOLUTELY LOOOOOOOOOOOOVE JJJJJJJEEEEEERRRREEEEEELLLLLAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha...i m done mad-ing. :D :D :D :D

OH MY GOD! I really really love them. They are so cute together!!! I hv been watching all the videos related to them attending all the functions for jiu xiang lai zhe ni. LOVE THEM TTM!!!

ok...i hv no mood to continue...

I can be laughing so hard at the first part of the night but felt like crying at the later part of the night.

Firstly, my mum came in to tell me to stop watching videos..
Then, someone came by and told me sth, which didnt really affect my mood but disturbed me cuz i really dun wan to hear anything abt that person anymore.
After that, my sis and mum were talking behind me and led on to one topic after another..
And then...it has a sad ending.

Damn...it spoils my mood...but i m gonna sleep anyway...

2010-04-01T22:57:00.002+08:00

random...

i wasnt in a good mood in the morning...until sch ends..
cuz i had 7 lessons straight and one cher is more xiong then the next. Esp. after chem...mr tay didnt even bother greeting us and jus plunged straight into our reliability skills. CUZ WE WERE LATE FOR 5-10 MINS!
HELLO?! U THINK U DUN HV ENOUGH TIME, I THINK I M GOING TO DIE.
We dun even hv a proper recess, come back to class hv to chiong like siao again.
The chocolate chloe gave me did make me happier, but only slightly.
Then i started slaming my stuff when i was clearing my table and taking out my notes.
It scared jermia. Lol...
I didnt do it on purpose.
I was not in a good mood to bother putting my stuff down gently.
And i need to FA XIE!

Then during last 10 mins of IH, i was totally stoning...
my mind went blank...cuz i hv absolutely no idea how to start writing for my assignment.
Before he left, he added a sentence: Pls ask yr teachers to let u go earlier so that u wont be late for the next lesson again.

Then nxt was LA. Compre timed trial. I think my brain cells died like a million. :(
It was quite hard...i was like guessing, randoming, anyhowing.
Then only 45 mins.
I kept on looking at the clock and writing faster and faster.
Although i did finish, the handwriting obviously wasnt nice.

CME was okay...but i totally used it to do my physics assignment. And i started stoning again.

After sch, chionged to cck stadium. Then i jus looked and cheered occasionally.
Congrats mel for getting 2nd, maya for getting 3rd and annab for getting 4th!
Although i didnt congrat them in the stadium.
多一个和少一个又有何分别呢？

But obviously my mood turned for the better.
Even though i was jus randoming around.
Their achievements made my happier i guess.
And i feel a little happiness when i found out wad is the name of someone i hv been trying to find out for quite some time. :D
Not someone impt but i m jus interested. :D

Ok, nvm...i shld sleep alr...tmr need to go kap for chem SIA. Sianz...until now i still dunno how baking soda works. Cant be bothered. :p

2010-03-19T21:04:00.003+08:00

it is kind of saddening to find out that people has been lying, not intentionally but in a sense tat they never really meant wad they said...perhaps for that 1 minute yes, but after that, it jus became wind that blew. Wadever tat u chose to believe in, in the end it jus turn into ash, maybe dun even hv ash.

That is why i never say what i dun mean and if i say something, normally i mean it. Unless of course, i m lying.

YKX, it is time to wake up! The reality IS CRUEL! No point holding on to things tat people say, tad might not even be true. U can indulge yrself in it for a moment, for never take it for real. To say the truth, nothing is reliable in this world.

Ok...skip skip...let's go back in time for 2 weeks, then come back slowly...how time actually flies...

Let's start with wk 9 friday...i was crazily busy...first hv to prepare for the sil and all the athletes and stuff. was chionging here and there, then the athletes really come punctually. i really dun like the feeling of hosting...dunno whether they like it or not. Maybe they not very pleased also...so i only stoned. Sry...

Then was the SIL, the hr that we hv prepared so long for...not very long actually, we didnt hv much time. People say i very funny...i was jus not very fluent with my script and dun really know wad to do can?!

By the end of the SIL, many ppl came forward to grab the ping pong balls even though they didnt ans qns. Sin lie and i didnt take until the very end lah...we took wadever was left. Which reminds me that we still owed people their autographs...damn!

I thought mrs wong was very funny...but wadever...i was too tensed up and tired to bother. Then the athletes disappeared even b4 we know it n hv time to react. Bu song le...although i do hope that someone actually bothered to send them off...or else they think they mei you li yong jia zhi alr...or sth.

i lost my pen in the process...a pen that i liked a lot but i guess it never belonged to me. Cuz i picked it up from somewhere.

then we went to munch on the cold refreshments. then went back to class and saw how MESSY my whole table was. i totally wanted to jus stone and stare at my table and quit listening to the teacher. But i cant stand the messiness...so i dragged an extra chair and threw everything on it. For the first time, i felt so tired that i didnt want to move anymore---in class. People hv no idea behind their best SIL ever (or so, they claimed), we hv done so much. At least how much energy was drained from me.

ok...i hv decided to stop there and come back to reality...my post is alr too long to add in stuff on obs...lol...

I FINALLY DOWNLOADED JERRY YAN'S PA HEI AFTER LIKE SO LONG! haha...i cap it for shan actually. i m really not THAT happy, although i m...i hv been repeatedly playing the song for damn long esp. when my youtube decided to stop working and i cant watch down with love n i cant seem to play pa hei anywhere. :(

Reality check: tmr Term 2 week 1 monday.

Life just sucks...

2010-03-03T19:01:00.002+08:00

haha...the last post was the 123th post.

I cant believe that 2 months have past...just like that

I feel that i hvnt done anything except going lessons, completing homework (no more than necessary) and training.

I hvnt read a single book ever since a long time before the dec holidays last year. Cast aside the fact that i dun like reading, i really feel relunctant to do anything...mentally tired...

I cant believe either that 1 whole term is gone (almost) and i hvnt started on any SIAs except LA. The more pressing one is bio i think, deadline is on t2 w3. ARGH!!!!!!!

LA SIA presentation is gonna be this fri during sec 3 SIL. I dun exactly feel anything abt it although i know i shld be excited/ anxious/ scared or anything. But i most probably will get super nervous or sth on the day itself. Idk...but i do anticipate it and hope that all will go on smoothly.

I just spent another afternoon slacking, doing nth. Is it really my fault that i ignore my work and do it only at the last minute? But i really dun hv the will to do it...esp. after trainings when i am super tired. As the weeks progressed on, i feel more and more unwilling to wake up in the mornings...i feel as though i would collapse soon if i continue to go through everyday the same way. It is a terrible feeling...idk how long i can still last, hopefully after obs so tad i can charge my battery and prepare for the upcoming term.

I nidda eat dinner now...

2010-02-28T20:54:00.002+08:00

hvnt posted for half a month...exactly the whole of chi new year! Today is the last day of chi new year! :D

Happy chi new year to all one last time!

haha!

This new year for me hasnt been exceptionally good. I probably would not even consider it as good...except for the fact that i received slightly more amount of money this year (as in angbaos). Lol...it has been bad even...the amount of workload and stuff are not letting me enjoy the new year. It is even more actually during this new year period. :(

Last week before obs...i m not exactly looking forward to it...but i guess i shld be grateful that there is a chance for me to escape the world of school, classes, books, homework, teachers, trainings, coaches, scary physical trainings...etc. etc. But it will be nonetheless, another type of physical and mental training for us...i guess the purpose of this world is just to not let us enjoy life isnt it?

i realised i hv nth much to say alr...

I m trying to do my bio as 4.1....damn sian....i feel like going to sleep but i hvnt really acomplished anything for the whole of this weekend. So i m feeling guilty. Therefore, i nid to try to finish bio. BUT I REALLY HAVE NO IDEA HOW TO DO DESPITE GOOGLING...THE WORDS ARE FRIGGING CHEEM! argh!

ok...i still hv to do it...gdnite!

2010-02-14T22:46:00.002+08:00

hoho! happy chinese new year and happy valentines' day! And happy birthday to some ppl. Actually i realised 3 ppl's bdaes are today. :D

And tmr is my birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD

1 plus more hrs! :D

Haha...today is a special day. But i dun really feel the love in the air. Haha.

Oh...n i saw on tv that chocolate do make u feel u r are in a relationship, the feeling of loving. :D Cuz it will produce some substances that is the feeling u will get when u r in love. :D so if u feel upset abt not having a valentine, EAT SOME CHOCOLATE!!!!!!

Haha...goodnite to all and enjoy the last few moments of the special day. :D

2010-02-06T18:49:00.002+08:00

here to post again...cuz sth happened....all comers....my third competition for throws...lol...

everyone said my san se is so new, i mean like duh...i hv only wore it three times, how lan do u expect it to be when it has spent 1 whole year in my wardrobe doing nth? Lol...But it goes to show how inexperienced i m...wadever...

anw, the results were not really good. Best throw was only abt 20m. N my arm is aching after the throws...it is still aching now...suan suan tong tong feeling...discus too heavy liao...how? I suck too much...but i hv nvr really been bothered by it.

I hv been a really average person all my life (until now i mean), i m pretty ok in a lot of aspects but i cant nvr do sth extremely well or am really good in a certain aspect. But the thing is i dun suck alot alot either. 比上不足，比下有余。that's the phrase to describe me. So i m always having this not happy but also not sad feeling. (maybe that's why i become mu tou)

Take today as an example, i might not be happy but neither am i upset. It is obviously not my best, but it is not my worst either. That's why i always hv reasons to not be upset. That's why i always hv excuse to say that i m alr quite ok. That's why i nvr have the will nor motivation to improve. That's why i m always that average. I guess that's why.

I M SUCH A SLACKER!

That's why i hv decided on sth. I m not going to compete for nationals this yr. I dun wan to occupy a space that should hv belonged to people who really deserve it, people who really wanted it, people who have worked hard for it, people who will cry if they lost n people who will be overjoyed if they win.

I m perfectly serious. I m somehow devoid of emotions. Idk why. Maybe the most impt reason for me consistently going to trng is jus because it is my responsibility. True, i do enjoy my time there. I do enjoy the time away from hw and everything else. I do enjoy the company of the throwers. But ultimately, is it really my passion for throws tad kept me going? Is it because i really want to throw well, to improve on my technique? Idk. Maybe 50%.

>< my shoulder is still aching........T.T

I shld go concentrate on my work. I m too slack.

2010-01-30T09:54:00.004+08:00

post 121:

i m feeling weird....after i read sth. like whole body ruan diao alr....it doesnt directly concern me, but indirectly and somehow it did. Not that i shld be but i cant control.

it was a mistake right from the start, but i really cant bring myself to stop it now.

u r really very cruel...cuz u hv to destroy all their hopes after everything.

Ok, the previous three sentences were from morning. I didnt have time to finish and post it, so now at night, i shall continue.

actually i dun really want to continue alr, cuz i hv lost the right feeling for a post on emotions. But i have been thinking abt it for...nt really for the whole day but whenever my mind is empty n nids sth to occupy the space.

i m not sure if i m more concern abt her or myself. i m not even sure how i m feeling right now. mixed feelings i guess. but wadever it is, i hate that feeling, i hate myself for harbouring such thoughts, such feelings.

sometimes i really hope that i can go back into the past. so that i can make the correct decision. although i know that this will end someday without any thing going wrong. N by the end of everything when i look back, i will think that it has spiced up my teenage life and those are memories that shld be kept. How i actually did things so foolish that i cant understand wad i was thinking then. Hilarious, isnt it?

Did IH with my friends today, sort of still wasted the day cuz we didnt do much. But i guess some bonding. At least now i know jermia has a blog n i found it within 2 mins. Lol...Her blog is SO easy to find, i dun even nid to search high and low. Jus google it and tada...the url is ok lah, still have the innocence of a young little gal, which is kind of good. Cuz some ppl can no longer return to that stage anymore.

My 15th birthday coming soon...n now i owe wingshan her bdae present, and owe steph a lot of money for sophia, alicia and carissa's birthday presents. Perhaps i hv agreed on giving presents too hastily. I kind of regret it. But hard to decline at the same time. Wadever...n yeah jermia's present. Hmm....i think this list is even longer than my list of homework now.

Ok, that's obviously not true. Wad can be longer than my list of homework? Other than time. The long long way that i still have to go. The 2 years that i still have to survive with them or maybe 4 years without them. Who knows? Let's jus leave it to affinity.

2010-01-24T17:36:00.002+08:00

my blog is as dead as ever...jus posting for the fun of it. Although i technically hv nth much to say.

I did some blog hopping and facebook hopping on fri. DID I MENTION BEFORE I LOVE FRIDAYS!!!!

Ok, anw, yeah....i found out some things that i didnt really know about, some not really very impt stuff but of course for the fun of it. I mean u would not want to be the only one still not knowing everything right? It is still good to stay in the circle, not at the center of it (OF COURSE!), but at least not outside of it. That would be no fun. :D But my findings are alr wad everyone knows, so actually i m still a bit out of the circle, if not, at the very border. But wadever...i m not a stalker, right?

But i found out that a lot of ppl quit blogging, or at least i m not informed of their new address, and seriously i dun hv the time to go look for it all over again. N i hvnt updated my links for a pretty long time. I think a lot of ppl relink until dun wan to relink alr. I m not even sure wad is my sis's link...lol...i hate her posts anw, so i dun usually visit. Wadever...how much chance do i still hv to go blog hopping anw?

I was like really really busy for the past week, sleep at 11 plus everynite. To owls/ nocturnal animals, 11 plus to me is alr very late cuz i hv to wake up at 5 plus to take the bus. N i nid a lot of sleep...i m a pig! :D N even though i sleep at 11 plus everynite, my hw is still not finished, so i jus end up chionging everything in sch, and copy other ppl's ans or ask them for ans.

Jus updated the blog songs, a lot of show luo's songs! :D i think his new album is out alr but i dun find this album really good. I get bored after listening for a while....:((

hmm...and yeah...wingshan, joyee, sophia and steph went to stay in the boarding sch for abt 3 wks. Which means they are going to skip all the chinese new year preparations at home, that is if they are not going home at all. I wonder how can their parents jus let them go so easily. But good for them then, although i dun especially envy boarding sch life, even though it is only for 3 wks, n i m pretty sure our sch's boarding sch is of some standard. But i m quite sure they are going to enjoy themselves and going all wild n crazy n perhaps excited. Wadever that is suppose to mean.

Ok, shall end here and concentrate on my IH research. I hate it whenever i hv to do such extensive research on a certain issue or subject. I hv alr spent the whole afternoon doing (while playing and looking through some other stuff of course :D). Very tired...i wonder why nobody ever burst their eyeballs cuz of extensive research but they do when they play games?

P.S. tmr is a monday.

2010-01-14T21:57:00.002+08:00

The clock is ticking, n abt 1 n a half hr left to the end of 14/1/2010, which is today.

N know wad? Tomorrow is FRIDAY!!! It isnt really an exclamation of happiness. Although i m relieved that friday had finally come.

Why? It is indeed quite unbelievable i survived these 2 wks (actually 1 more day to go to the end of 2 wks), but nth to be really happy about cuz i m still waiting n thinking how the coming days, weeks, months n year is gonna turn out and how am i gonna survive all. I found these 2 wks especially taxing because I hv to adapt to this whole new situation i m in, whole new perception of myself, whole new experience, not to mention new ppl (oh, i m hving new juniors). Almost everything changed. Plus i hvnt been feeling well these 2 wks, my mind plus health are giving me problems. It is really not as if i m lack of problems to solve.

Oh well, congrats for surviving 2 weeks, jiayou for continuing to survive the following year and the nxt and all the years coming up if i still hvnt died by then. :D

Actually the thing i wanted to talk about is the part on the perception of myself. To all sec 3s, maybe even sec 4s, do u all get the feeling that u r getting older? N not jus a little old, like really really old! I feel as though i aged a lot. The leap from sec 2 to 3 is a milestone in our school life (that is, however, if u survive it). Although it is jus another year, but the change of feeling from lower sec to upper sec is really..idk, i jus feel really really old. N i was thinking, another 1 plus year, i will be leaving ny. Amazing....time really FLIES! Even faster than planes.

Actually u know wad, i nvr hated ny. No matter how much pressure i felt, no matter how much hw i was given, no matter how busy i was, no matter how many lessons that i hate, no matter how many teachers annoyed me, no matter how tiring trainings were, no matter wadever! In fact, i love ny, alot alot. Weird isnt it? I hv no idea why too. I think it is really different from my pri sch. But no, i m not getting sad because i m leaving this sch soon. That's seriously still too early. Neither am i really sad about anything.

Oh well, i will jus end off by saying: "I m really sorry, i think the post went a little bit overboard by going to the emo side."

P.S. I jus realised i m supposed to do national identity of Singapore research for IH. N i hvnt done any. But i really need to sleep already. Training drained all my energy, mentally and physically. Gdnite!

2010-01-06T19:19:00.002+08:00

yo! this is like the 3rd day of school, n i m feeling upset. Although not much urgent homework needed to be done, but the SIAs are like pai1 shan1 dao3 hai3, and all needed to be handed in by early term 3. Which means hv to work hard these 2 terms. I m half hoping i dun nid to go to competition this year. So that i will have more free time. Bio, chem, math, LA. Die die die....
Tmr first integrated humanities lesson of the year. Some new teacher, hopefully wont be another SIA on the way.

Today we had sports trial, and i helped out at the field! Firstly, very happy tht i skipped lesson. Secondly, very happy cuz it was very fun! Thirdly, not very happy cuz there are seriously some damn pro ppl around, which makes me feel damn lousy. Lastly, it was GREAT exercise! It is seriously very tiring to run around and pick balls and give them and demo. Plus, it was really hot in the morning. I was perspiring as though i ran like 6 rounds on the track or maybe like 2.4km.
:D :D

Ok, shall end here. Not much people reading anyway. Dinner time!

2009-12-25T23:26:00.002+08:00

hey, this is a real post after ice age. :D

I updated the songs but i cant hear it, idk why. I wonder if you all can, or is it my com has prob? Can someone ans me?

I shall do a bit of update by a bit. For now, i only wan to say i really dun wan to go back to school and start sec 3. I dun hv a choice but i really dont wan to. I dun even wan to touch my precious hw. It is pathetically half way done, or u can consider it as not done. wadever...i really dun wan to do. But it is driving me mad, always having to think of that untouched hw. Why do we have to suffer such terrible fate even though it is HOLIDAY? bleh...

churn churn churn....trying to churn out the concept map, which is equals actually copying everything out from the tb. Redo-ing LA equals to jus recopying everything and change a little here and there. Well, it is still not that easy but i seriously lack motivation.

As usual, i wasted my whole holiday, idk on what. 2 wks of china immersion, a few outings with friends, quite a lot of shopping trips with parents, finished reading 1 bk, and plenty of time stoning. :D That's my holiday. Oh ya, and a few trainings. :D

It's end of christmas! timing gang gang hao! Gdnite!

2009-11-07T18:59:00.002+08:00

同样是拥抱，
同样是声再见，
但一切已不会再一样。
你和我已回不了当初，
从此以后，我只能默默地在一旁守护你。
希望有一天你会明白我对你的关心，
也请你记得我对你的爱是永不退色的，
对你的承诺是依然那么真实的。
期盼再次看到你美丽的微笑，
祝你幸福。

2009-10-22T16:26:00.002+08:00

One update per month, this is pathetic actually.

Ok, so exams are over....but i dun feel the joy....idk why.

I just feel tad there is plenty of time for me to waste...but so wad?

But this one month was a tough period for me...i m like fighting with myself...i dun feel like studying but i hv to. I hope i win...i hv a good feeling abt it. But who knows? My feeling is most of the time not right. But there are times when they are accurate and very accurate even. :D

But i m glad that the battle is over! :D I can finally sleep peacefully. Know wad? I woke up myself on a few mornings when i hv exams. It is like u hv this kind of pressure and u feel that u hv to wake up. N i had a dream one night. It was not a nightmare, but i wasnt good. Someone said something which made me ponder for quite sometime. It is a sad sentence. But forget it...it is nt that impt either.

Ytd went out with xx and wingshan to watch 500 days of summer at vivo. I hv to admit that it is pretty boring....there's not really a storyline, jus a lot of feelings. Not funny, not sad (or is it that i cant feel it?) I think the main thing that the director or storywriter or wadever wants to portray is jus there is no such thing as fate. It doesnt come across strongly in the story (at least i dun think so), but it was like mention a lot of times at the end. And after summer it is autumn!!! :D But who knows how long will autumn last? 到底是偶然还是必然呢？

Then we walk around randomly until i was really tired. My legs were like dying when i got home. I wondered wad happen to all my trainings? I really nid to train alr. It is like i hvnt train at all for abt 1 month. Then plus all the junk food that i hv eaten ytd and today....haiz....

Today went back to sch for drama...i like beverlyn! :D Her acting is good, the feeling is so correct! :p Lol...wad am i talking abt? Anw, i m in charge of lights n there were a lot of confusion. I think the timing is so wrong...straight after EOYs , then everything have to rush like siao! We jus finished exams, my dear teachers!!! It is like i went back to sch at the usual time today...very very tired....I was like struggling to pull myself out of the bed. N i missed the bus and was late. Not that anyone cares anyway. I m not that impt. :D

After the rehearsal, I went to Macdonalds (now u know why i nid to exercise) with xx, yunling and yimin. :) As we ate, we starting talking about 2012, how the world will end. We are sort of convince by now that the world is really gonna end at 2012. We started going into Nuclear war and then all the politics of the different countries. And the conclusion is that: The world is confusing n whichever reasons that result in the the world ending will be all human's own fault and we shldnt blame anyone. I dun mind the world ending actually, i mean if everyone dies together, it is sort of nice too. Maybe i m getting a little sadistic....idk. The only thing that i hope is that i dun suffer a painful death. Ok, this is getting way off.

So, i hv written a post! :D Haha...random. But i really dunno who is reading so i m not interested in updating. I nid inspiration and encouragement ot update. :D

ok, i m exaggerating

2009-09-20T18:47:00.002+08:00

i m getting panicky by the day....

because i can foresee my future....

if i dun start doing what i am supposed to do now....

which is....

STUDYING!!!!

Goddamit!

This is stupidly crappy....i dun wan to study!!!!!!!

But i cant remember a single thing if i dun study....i think the only subjects i can skip is perhaps, chi, LA, and maybe chem (if my brain dun throw away those essential stuff in weeks to come). Actually bio also can dun study, i m pretty confident abt bio after doing all those papers. I dun mean full marks to be confident, jus abt 85% is enuf. I m not a perfectionist in times of crisis. I m a flexible person. so yeah...

The %age of stuff that still remains in my brain:
Geog---5%
Hist---10%
Physics---2%
Math---50%

Yay!!! Congrats to myself...at least i m happy that it is not 0%.

I think my blog is facing a mid-life crisis...or is it memopause, since it is not producing wad it is supposed to for a damn long time? Ok...it sounds wrong...

Tired tired as usual...i realised the more i slept, the more tired i become. I slept at almost 12 on mon night, and felt perfectly fine on tues. I slept at 10 on tues night and felt like dying today? What kind of logic is this?

I m constantly reminded of the EOYs and all the hw....

I m tired....really really tired....partially cuz of sth else, i hv to face it at least once or twice per day, not sure whether i wan it or not...mixing hope and disappointment and happiness and excitement is not a good feeling u know?

I dun wan to study...i really really dun wan to study....

I shall end off by saying....i m not caring whether i fail or pass my EOYs...

I jus wan to say...i will jus say i m gonna try my best and use as much of my remaining energy as possible...

~written in a period of anxiety and helplessness~

2009-08-17T21:35:00.001+08:00

hmm....i can sense that i m in grave danger right now....actually I M in grave danger right now. I m in a huge risk of not being able to finish my Chi SIA on time. Ever since block test, i can never get back to the studying mood, not even the homework mood. I cant control, the desire to stray off to somewhere else is too strong. Esp. when doing chi sia i nid the com, it is even worse. I hvnt edit all my 5 pieces of work, not to mention the deco. But i hv done the cover pg, qian yan and the jie lun. Which is kind of bad, i cant bring myself to start reading the pieces and get myself settled into what i nid to do, which is kind of a lot? Not only these 5 pieces, still hv the yue du ka and the yue du bao gao all not done. The problem is all the materials are there, but i jus dun hv the correct attitude and mindset to say that i nid to start working on it. And there goes another day wasted in front of the com....

I cant stand it myself, i dunno wad is wrong...i m in deep trouble. I cant concentrate on the correct stuff but i can on the wrong stuff. Currently, i m very hardwork-ingly reading my new moon. I m reading it like in a lightning speed, cuz u know wad speed i am always reading right? And in a few days i finish like 300+ pages, which is like 'WOW'! It is amazing how i did it, so u can imagine the amt of time i spent reading the book. Haiz...pathetic me. I think i m suffering a mental breakdown, jus that i m not very aware of it. Maybe it is kind of internal. Forever tired of everything. Therefore, when i said tht i have had enuf of everything, i sort of meant it too. Depression.

There are not really any event tht i wan to rmb these few days. Lots of holidays which is kind of gd since i m not in the mood for studying. :D But that didnt get me anywhere, except finishing twilight and going through new moon. There are 3 things tht i can nvr really make sense out of them. First, idea of time. Second, directions. Third, shapes. If u ask me to do sth within this time, i can almost tell u immediately that i can only finish it like last minute unless it is sth i enjoy. If u ask me directions, u can be sure u r gonna get lost. Even i manage to tell u some direction, take it with a pinch of salt. N figuring out left and right would take me abt 2 secs. Shapes....i cant really tell wad shape sth is unless it is very obvious. That's why generally if i find sth ugly or beautiful, it is jus a feeling, i dunno why either. I cant tell whether yr features are big or small unless ppl tell me, then i would try to figure sth out of it. That's quite an interesting fact abt me...the blur blur side. :D

Oh...the funfair. Haha, our form teachers hv not really found out wad kind of class we really are huh? Come on, getting 2 shocks in less than 24 hrs jus because of the funfair? Praying tad a miracle will happen and the miracle, or so they thought, really did happen. Our class is always like that isnt it? No matter how much problems we hv, in the end we will solve it. At most we will jus makedo with wad we hv. I guess tad is the strength of 203. Last minute rush isnt the worse thing ever. Almost all of our class projects are done last minute. Of course they are always not very successful but we are improving. This yr is so much better than the last. Idk wad happened but it is true. :D 1 yr of experience cause great difference. In one way or another. Sometimes, i really love 203.

Hoho...tmr is the interclass chinese debate thingy. Hope that 203 can get through to the nxt round. Actually i m pretty sure they will. i mean jus look at the amt of time they spent, or we spent together practicing and preparing for it. Plus, we totally practice till all of the practice team's points collapsed. Therefore, 203 is strong. :D i m not saying whichever class that is gonna take us on is weak but i hv the confidence in 203. But if 203 gets into the nxt round, all the trouble of practicing and preparing with them is gonna start all over again. Hv u got any idea how tiring the process is? Is like we are this big board for the debators to shoot at us and stab us with thousands and millions of arrow. Although occasionally the arrow missed and our soldiers could shoot one arrow across back to the other end. U hv no idea how brain dead i was after the first practice. I totally wanted to raise white flag and surrender. I even told the last speaker to jus say tad we lost alr, dun nid to continue anymore. That was how pathetic we, the practice team, are and how strong i think the debators are. This is part propaganda. :D

Ok, i nidda start reading my first piece of chi sia, although it is kind of late alr. My eyelids are heavy and they are closing...my brain too...goodnite.

2009-08-07T20:24:00.000+08:00

ho...here for another post after this long long time away from keyboard. Actually not really. Anw, block tests are over! i m happy. but i shldnt be. i think my block test is terribly done. Although i really put in effort to revise. But rmb stuff on the ppt and putting it into use in the papers are 2 very diff things. Plus there is this external condition call time limit. :( I didnt finish 3 papers: hist, la and math. Although i m not going to say i m going to fail any papers but passing jus isnt good enuf for me. Math and science is sort of like sure gone 8 marks each. I wont pin much hope on hist since i totally did it in a rush, even my handwriting was terrible. I think the most confident paper is chinese? although it is not really well done either. maybe geog? but basically i wrote rubbish for last 2 qns for geog. sian..

today had national day celebration. Overall quite happy. Pon trng again. this is like the how many time in term 3 alr. At least the 3rd or 4th time alr. I m a bad gal. But there are stuff that are more impt to me as compared to cca. So my cca had to compromise.

Oh...the celebration. Beverlyn is our mascot bee for today's celebration. :D So cute! Haha. We all had feelers too! Haha...even mr tan had it but in a weird way. Everyone was taking pictures of their werid self. I mean it is not often u get feelers on yr head right? Oh...the NE quiz. I realised something. The ans of at least 2 of the qns that we got them wrong were given by mr tan. He assumed it is correct so we didnt "check" it. 1 was the mediacorp qns, 2nd was the prime minister hving another job b4 being a prime minister. the 2nd qns our ans or mr tan's ans was george yeo when GEORGE YEO WAS NEVER OUR PRIME MINISTER!!! In history, we only had 3 prime ministers to date! But i only rmb that after i saw the ans for that qns. Although i knew all along GEORGE YEO WAS NEVER OUR PRIME MINISTER!!! Nvm...i didnt say anything too. N i saw the exttreme of some ppl today. so extra till i still feel uncomfortable now.

Hv been fb-ing for practically the whole day. Level up for pet society and restaurant city. haha. Childish me. But the only reason i joined fb was for the games. Until now, it is still the same. I was totally totally stuck in it to an extreme state. I cant be bothered to do anything else at all. i m very tired now....oh..i think wingshan enjoyed herself at the bbq at miss yeo's hse? i too busy to reply her so i shall not care.

Nidda start on chem sia and chi sia soon. Hate it. And joey, dun u dare tag that u hv finished yr chi sia! I m too weak to know that somebody has finished her chi sia. maybe her chem sia too. Spare me the terror. Oh crap...my restaurant is not loading!!! I nidda shut it first!

111th post

2009-07-18T15:10:00.003+08:00

hohoho, this is my 111th post. yay! wad a nice number. :D

Hasnt post for a really really long time. i know my blog is dead. I m almost dead too u see. i hvnt come on9 for a few days alr. N i came on9 to do the geog as. Ok, i really hv to say this. THE GEOG MAP IS REALLY UNCLEAR!!! Even if i had the colour version. Although it is definitely better than the one printed, it is still very unclear and u really hv to magnify it. Whatever.

Sucky life. All i can ever say is that i m tired. Pathetically tmr, i hv to find my way to botanical garden for some terranium workshop and i mus reach at 9 in the morning! WTH! and i m not even very sure where botanical garden is, let alone the shitty classroom! What kind of logic is it to ask us to go by ourselves and to find the classroom in that big big garden!!!! WTH!

Oh, today we had our class breakfast. Didnt really enjoy it, such another eating session in the canteen with more variety of food and more brainstorming than usual. Is there a point? I mean like it was supposed to bond the class, but i didnt really see any bonding. But we took a class photo, which is like one of the very very very few class photos that we took together. i think in total, there were not more than 5 photos taking as a whole class. Some things jus cant be achieved, cuz ppl really dun wan to. It is just as simple as that. isnt it?

Then the long long day past and the last lesson was dance. As usual, my sense of direction was rottenly rotten. I totally got the steps wrong and cant be bothered abt it. I mean i really really very bad in directions. I nid to think for 2 secs which is left and which is right. Not to mention that i hv to cordinate my left leg and right leg together with my left hand and right hand. It is jus too diff for me. That's why i can never be a dancer. Mdm oehlers was wrong. haha.

And i went for trng. As usual, my leg hurts. But the unusual thing is, my ankle started to hurt. Obviously sth is very wrong, but idk wad. :( Although it is not the first time my ankle hurts, this time is more severe. It shld be dance class's fault.

Oh, another usual thing is that there was a lot of sick stuff with dorcas blabbering rubbish abt infertility. It all started because chloe mentioned that frog jump is banned in our sch but we were still jumping like ytd? Haha, a lot of laughter but tiring. As usual, mr lim was full of crap. Combination of mr lim and dorcas chang = a lot a lot a lot of crap! :D

After a tiring day/wk/ month, i need to go recharge my energy. To put it simply, i nidda go sleep now. Hopefully tmr will be a better day since i m going to xy's hse for the chem SIA. Ok, i can alr foresee that tmr will be a sad day with chem!

2009-07-06T17:12:00.002+08:00

infatuation....all cuz of the stupid word i hv to read romeo and juliet now. And all cuz of Romeo and juliet, the story ended in tragedy and became so famous that i hv to read it. And all cuz it is so famous, i hv to rack my brain, squeeze out all my brain juice trying to do my hw....

god....hateful and stupid romeo and juliet. Or maybe their creator is the one i should scold. Wadever...i shld be forgiving...after all they are all dead for a few hundred years alr. Why get angry over dead ppl?

But i really find it hard to do hw. Asking me to reread act 1 is totally an impossible thing. I tried...but i jus couldnt. Asking me to read it once is alr torture. I m not like others that can read really really fast. I jus dunno how to.

I m fb-ing....which i promise to quit. But obviously i cant. And it reminds me that i still owe wing shan an ice cream. Aiya...wadever...Speaking of wingshan, my cca resumes nxt wk. i still dunno why....according to so phia, ze xin said that ms tan said that to resume...so resume lor. But it sort of a bad timing although i wanted cca like badly...all the fats accumulating in my body....for abt 1 month....n we wont be hving pe for 2 wks.

And with this new wk of term, i thought my life is gonna be boring with all the lessons. The lessons seriously....i dun like them. Esp dance, ICT, malay. Omg....it is really boring during lessons...but i think (there is this saying which i cant rmb....wing shan told me that). Meaning that seperation makes love grow fonder, but in this case, it is friendship. Really...i feel as though we are very close after this holidays. :DDD And and wingshan...life without banana is great...!

Hoho...i m not finding anything out from my research cuz for the past idk how many hrs, i hv been on the same website abt romeo and juliet. :(((

Ok, i posted...like finally...wasted a lot of time. My whole childhood is wasted away...and i m wasting my youth away too. I destined to waste my life away. But as long as i m happy...who cares?

2009-06-28T21:34:00.002+08:00

hoho....last day of holiday ppl. i said i would post more this june but i didnt really do that. :D But i really dun think a lot of ppl are reading, so nvm lor.

Idk wad to say. Holiday really past by really fast. 100% reluctance abt going back to sch. Although i didnt wan holiday b4 holiday.

if i hv time i will do a makeover for my blog. i promise. but i dunno when i will hv the time. SAD.

I HATE H1N1!!!!

2009-06-17T09:18:00.003+08:00

hoho...remember the sweets machine i toked abt last post? That day i was at northpoint with my family, then i went by the arcade n saw that big big sweet machine again. And i saw this middle-aged lady playing. She is damn pro can? She is very experienced and she was like concentrating playing it. So i jus stood at the side and watch her play, together with my family. And know wad? By the end of the game, she hit jackpot (which means got a gift, idk wad gift but a gift) and she got like 1 whole bag of sweets and other stuff. The bag is that kind of big ones, not the small small ones. That was how experienced she was. But she spent a big deal of money in it. At least $20 to hit the jackpot. So is it worth it?

haiz...nothing to say alr. Still hv a lot of hw, but still no motivation to do. Bleh....

Oh ya! Do u all like durains? I used to like it but idk why i start to not like it now. I hv been eating a lot of durains. My dad and my grandma love durains, so i hv to eat with them. T.T
And my dad is on the way home with more durains now. I ate durains last night too. I seriously dun hate it and i quite like the smell, but i think i hv been eating too much alr.

2009-06-11T22:17:00.013+08:00

ok...update. i know i nid to update. But i feel really stress when i hv to update.

Ok, let me tok abt amk hub trip on mon. Went with xx and joey to amk hub to watch night at the museum 2.

Bused to amk hub. As usual i was late. But cuz of joey, we were discussing abt the movie time on msn. So joey was late, while xx was there when both of us were still at home. And i realised amk hub is really not very far from my hse.

So we went there and eat lunch at the foodcourt as it was still early for the 1.20pm movie. Btw, amk hub do show night at the museum 2. We ate till 12 plus and we went to buy the tickets before going to arcade. XX and i was not planning to play cuz we seldom go to arcade, so we didnt change for the card. In the end, we settle down at machines at the entrance of the arcade. I started to get very curious abt it and was looking for the instructions to play it. But the instructions was in jap so we ended up regretting not taking up jap. And started missing shannon and xueyin. Haha. N joey suggested asking the guy working there but no one dared to ask. So in the end, it was still joey that went to ask. Then there is this fillipino lady that came to explain to us. But still, i dun really understand.

Then here comes the funny part, with me starting first, i drop a one-dollar coin in and tried playing it. U know wad i got? Nth! Oh, i forgot to say that it is a machine filled with sweets, so we r supposed to get sweets. Then joey also tried with her $1 and lost it without getting anything bad. Same for xx. In the end, we went to ntuc to get sweets. Haha. So we came out laughing at ourselves for our stupidity.

But still, we do learnt sth.

1. Arcades cheat ppl's money.
2. We learnt how to play that thing.
3. If we want to eat sweets, jus get it from ntuc. Dont be stupid n try some other stupid ways.

But we did hv fun playing that. Cuz it is funny seeing how u know u r gonna get cheated and still put in that $1, hoping that u can at least get 1 sweet out of that machine. It is jus a physcological game with yrself.

So we spent quite a few minutes deciding wad sweets to buy in ntuc. in the end, we decided on confectionary (or wad is its name?) and went up. We were slightly late so we couldnt get our popcorns.

Hoho! Night at the museum 2 is very nice. I thought it is even better than the first one. Cuz the first one does not hv romance (although there is only a little bit) and is not as exciting as this one. Also, this one is funnier. N i think the main character, which unfortunately, i cant rmb his name, looks better than the previous movie. And i esp. like the way he plays with his torchlight. IT IS SO COOL!!! Haha. Really. He can even use the torchlight as a weapon to fight. Now i find that being a museum's nightguard is a cool job. But this job is cool in the movie cuz the exhibits actually come alive, or else why would someone wants to face all the exhibits every night with no1 to accompany u? Museum itself is alr boring.

But while reading Da vinci code, the langdon person actually reminds me of the main character in this movie. The same kind of childish but serious. :) Cute! :D

And the amelia earhart is cute too. in the movie i meant. But not as cute as the larry or sth. :D And the monkeys are cute too. Really! But the cupids are not cute, i find them a bit irritating. And the lincoln is cool too! Haha. Ok, really random.

So after the movie, we came out and xx still had that craving for popcorns so we bought and ate AFTER our movie. Which is very strange but nvm. As long as we are happy, who cares? Haha.

And we started walking around the shopping mall, and decided to buy super overdued birthday pressie for qianyu. And we took pics outside fish and co. and we went back home. :DD

End of story. It is like a trip joey and i had planned for so long, after sending so many smses to set the date and discussed everything. Haiz...But sadly only 3 ppl turned up. But still it is a nice sweet little gathering after 1 wk of not seeing one another. :D

And nxt wk we are gonna meet up for math SIA, although it is a chance to see each other again but this time for a total different purpose at the total different place. N i feel sad abt it. :( But cuz of that, i can go trng! So i shld feel happy. Too much of slacking at home makes me feel weak all over. I mus train!

K, gtg. past 12 midnight alr. Shld sleep. although i totally dun feel like sleeping.

P.S. Da vinci code is a really great book, but too much explanation of those religious stuff.

2009-05-29T21:21:00.002+08:00

post post.

reading da vinci code recently. i know it is a bit outdated alr, wad good books are for all times right? and i think it is nice. really mysterious but not scary. at least i think so. but cuz i m reading it in chinese, so i m reading it really really slowly. i read chi slower than eng but my chi is better than my eng. :D Ok, i cannot find the eng one mah, so hv to read the chinese one. And also, i nid the book for my chi reading thingy. Yeah...if i can finish reading this by the duedate, i would be very happy and then can write it for my book review thingy. Wadever. I read too slowly. But it is really nice. Too bad i missed the movie. I shall go internet and find out.

Hmm...watched 1 episode of boys over flowers on saturday. think it is quite interesting, sort of the typical story. One very poor gal and very rich guys. And 2 guys fall in love with this gal at the same time n then fight fight fight. Then other gals bully this gal cuz she is so ugly and they are jealous. Isnt that very typical kind of highschool shows? And i think the most handsome guy is the ju jun biao, but i dun think is the guy that xx is crazy over, the kim dunno wad. Lee Min Ho looks better. Really. Haha. i m out to anger xx. She thinks that he is most perfect guy she had ever seen. But apparently she has not seen enuf guys.

But that doesnt mean i hv seen enuf. After all beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder. So beauty is a very subjective thing. I jus dun like him. :D

1 wk of holiday is gone and apparently i hvnt done anything. My chi sia only started on another piece of fen xi but hvnt finish yet. feeling sian. Totally has no motivation to start working. Tried to work on my chi file but it is so sickening. The content page is not understandable. So i hv decided to ask my friends when sch reopens. unless anyone wants to tell me, u r welcomed to.

later going out with joey and xx. Initially still hv shan, qian yu and xy. But they cant make it after numerous changing of dates. So too bad lor. Watching night at the museum in amk hub but apparently amk hub doesnt show night at the museum which is very strange?

ok, nidda go out alr. Bye.

2009-05-26T20:22:00.003+08:00

I finally have motivation to post. Cuz we had lesson on blogs today. Actually i m supposed to do some random bloggy homework but who cares since i already said it is random.

I really find it amusing when someone actually says that this is a nice blog, when firstly, i hv ignored it for quite a few weeks n 2ndly, a lot of ppl told me that this blogskin really sucks. And interesting is not really applicable as well. Maybe that person that passed by would like to explain? Whoever u r n if u happen to pass by again?

Feel like changing my blogskin. But cannot find a nice one. ><

The term has come to an end, really really quickly. Recent events will be csm? and my results? and nth else? Sian lah...i realised i hv nth to say.

CSM----nanyang chers are real good sprinters.

Results----good in level, but real bad in class. Esp. humanities and LA. Shld start working hard and quit facebook.

Erm...Sabats this wk. I wonder why i always hate my sabats. Last yr was kickboxing, totally dying from the jumping and exercising. This yr supposedly china immersion, but we couldnt go because of the swines flying around. So in the end, 1st part will be lessons, 2nd part will be field trips. Currently not enjoying it cuz there are too much chinese stuff that i feel a bit detached from my alr-very-bad english. At least the others have science after chinese.

ok, end end end. LAstly, i mus beat tong xueyin in geo challenge, although i m alr breaking my high score like really madly but she is madder!!

2009-05-10T10:41:00.002+08:00

To ans wu wing shan's request, i m here to post. Actually the main reason why i m not posting is because nobody is reading, so there is no point. Since there is a reader, then i shall post. But i m not gonna post abt wad she wants me to post. Anw, that is her experience, not mine, so i shall not dai ti her in explaining wad happened. "" shall not intrude every aspect of my life like how "" intrude every aspect of wu wing shan's life.

As usual, i m supposed to be doing my hw. Hm...but i will tok abt wad happened on 7 may which is 3 days ago. DISCUS CSM!!! ok, frankly speaking, i m not upset. If u think it is cuz i did my best, then u r REALLY WRONG. i hvnt done my best cuz i didnt break my pb.
Reason for why i m not really upset, but i m disappointed lah:
1. Sophia's throw was accidental, so i shall not care.
2. I knew that chloe has the capability to throw further than me, so i ren shu.
3. I was really near to my measured pb, only by 3cm.
4. I really dun feel sad.

But i feel regretful cuz this is sort of the last chance i could get myself a top 3 placing. nxt yr is b div, hv sherah, dorcas n dunno who else. sec 4 even worse, alicia, jess wei. =.='''

No wonder chloe was very upset. But seriously i think that she should just accept it. So phia's throw was really accidental, i dun think any of her other throws are better than 19m so it is really really very accidental. But yeah, accidental also can throw, while for me, accidental can only mean in the net. i think that is why i didnt break my pb, cuz after the 1st throw, i was really afraid that i would aim it in the net again. Really afraid and really nervous. So i die-ed. But i m really happy for chloe, alicia, and jess wei cuz they break their pb like siao. Alicia is seriously pro kay? 3 records, 3 golds. SCARY!!! ~~ Jess also had huge improvements. Chloe is simply fantastic, although can c that her technique still nid improvements.

Conclusion:
1. I cant perform under stress.
2. I should never underestimate anyone.
3. I am the lousiest.

My results:
Shotput: 6th
Javelin: 6th
Discus: 3rd

So, i earned 15 points for my class. :D Huihong also got 15 points. Plus rachel's 10 points. We alr hv 40 points. Then still hv alot more where they hv participation points and all the student helper's points. Quite good! I mean like it is quite a lot of improvement from last yr. Another conclusion is 203 is not really a sporty class. I think we really hv to admit that. But huihong is gd, at least she excelled in her own event.

I m glad that it finally ended, or else i would hv become a roasted pig. My mum and my grandma kept complaining that i m so dark. That day my aunt came also said that i m dark, like indian. =.=''' Should blame the weather, these few days are really hot. !!! And nxt wk we alr hv to start trng. I feel as though there is no diff in the break lor. CSM is as good as trng, somemore we stayed back to train after our event. JL says that we will be running everytime we come trng until nxt jan, which is idk how many MONTHS away. So i said that nxt yr napfa sure A. =.='''

Sian...now hv math SIA extensions, physics SIA, math written task to do. I really dun wan to do lah...Why is life so hard?

Ok, i shall end now. Wad i want to say is hci guys are really zi lian. All thinks that they are wad handsome, everybody will like them. Wad **** lah. The fact is only u love yrself! Bleh...

2009-04-25T17:10:00.002+08:00

wu wing shan likes to deny stuff that is obviously the truth. Wadever. Zhong se qing you! i was supposed to dao her, but for the sake of my blog, i toked to her again.

2 days ago was the track finals. All of us went down to support, and i quite like it. Although i was really really warm and hungry. I was focusing on the discus b gals while some ppl focused on somebody. Cant be bothered with some ppl. And some monkey is super annoying, obviously showing off in front of us and making a fool out of itself. Wan to cheer for someone else, dun cheer in front of us lah! Basic respect right? Later yr ears deaf then u know.

Anyway, sherah got 2nd for discus. Obviously she was super happy. And it is the best birthday present for her this year. :DDD And ingrid also got 7th. Zexin missed by a little, only 1 metre more and she can get into top 8. sad. anw, the results on the straits times is still the wrong one. The first actually threw the least among the 3 and ingrid is the 3rd.

Then the track dinner, which didnt make me full but nvm. It is quite good lah, jus tad i didnt hv my second round. :D Then watched some videos and played the baby photo game. didnt really c any baby exceptionally cute. Haha. But of course i m not saying i m cute last time, and this is definitely not an insult to the owners of those baby photos. Then watched somemore videos, and took photos with chloe, dorcas and xinyue. Apparently there wasnt a decent photo taken. Haha. Then go home. Super tired. (Ytd totally died when i got home.)

Apparently, wingshan is thinking that she should hv gone home later cuz she missed sth because she went home too early.

And i realise a lot of ppl are guys crazy. really really crazy. wth. I totally pity the guys, no more privacy. But i think some guys love it. Jian!

hmm...i m "chionging" hist sia now. apparently it is quite easy. can finish soon lah. No worries. Hoho. i think my motto shld be "dun worry be happy!!!" Wad is more impt than being happy?

Now i c sk hottie online...really guys crazy.

2009-04-06T22:17:00.004+08:00

post post post. yay! after like how many thousands and millions of yrs, i finally posted. Am crappily busy these days. Everything is like crap.
But happy for the following reasons:
1) number one on the list mus be because om is over!!!
2) nationals is over (meaning no trng!!!)
3) can skip lessons cuz of nationals!

Sad because:
1) i m supposed to hand in geog sia nxt mon, but cannot get into geog mood.
2) am supposed to hand in hist Sia nxt fri, but hvnt finish geog sia
3) am supposed to hand in math sia in wk 7, but hvnt finish geog and hist sia.
4) trying to be contented with being 8th in the nats. (it is seriously not gd enuf. total only 10 ppl!)
5) no trng feels like a huge part of my life is gone
6) idk....it feels as though the whole world is on me.
7) i m still hving flu.
8) ice cream didnt make me very happy today.
9) seeing too much of banana these few days. sis was singing the banana song when walked pass some bananas. then dad was looking at bananas. =.=''' diao dao bu xing!
10) wing shan only hv banana in her mind and i m always stupidly wasting my time toking to her abt it.
11) I M VERY VERY VERY TIRED!!!

think it is enuf reasons alr. If only i can type geog sia as fast as this, then i would be very very happy. I really dunno how to start on geog sia!!! idk how to do the referencing, bibliography and wadever others there are. i only feel like sleeping esp. after my lunch. Really tired, maybe cuz my flu is on. All cuz of xy lah...maybe if not cuz of her, i would not hv to mourn over getting 8th in nats. maybe i can get like 7th? 20m might not be a problem to me...but yeah...i guess i will hv to feel lucky cuz even during trng i cant really get like 19 plus metres, so it is considerably not bad, although still not very good. But i realised how sucky i m. There was only 10 ppl competing and i m sec 2 n i only got 8th. So it actually depends on which perspective i m looking at.

Was looking at the results of nats. Li zhong sheng didnt do well for his event. wonder if qiao jun took part in anything. ok nvm.
Hah! I found a model ans for the geog sia...there is this essay written by someone from victoria school which scored 24/25. Model enuf? Well, our sch like took this qns from them anyway, it is copyright acknowleged.

Argh...tired tired. I think it is because i ate a lot for lunch. N i met wingshan at np jus now. She was going her friend's house i think.

Aiya..i shall stop or else i wil nvr finish my geog sia. Buaiz.